The Mission

m69The next time we have the urge to complain about some aspect of our looks, or the way our body feels, or is working, we can remember this: our body is merely a vehicle that makes our spiritual journey possible. We are not meant to worship it, glorify it, or spend all our time honing it and refining it. We are meant to use it to build our spiritual presence. In that sense, any sort of body will do. And, you could make the case that, a gorgeous body is much more likely to distract you from your mission than an average one might. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Jeane: So, in my first dream, I’m like struggling with some shapes, and the best way I could describe the shape it’s like if you’ve seen those… oh, they’re kind of like art objects that are two pieces of plastic, or glass, that are filled with sand, and then maybe some air and some water and, as you move them around, the shape changes inside/

So, I’m struggling with some shape like that where there’s some wavy lines, and it looks like a substance inside the square, and I’m trying to make this whole square fit in some way, or the portions that are inside the square fit – and I just can’t get it right. It’s like I’m so frustrated. I just keep trying to work with getting this shape to fit with some other shape, or getting it to shift in some way I want it to shift. And I just couldn’t get the proportions or the shape to fit right.

John: So what you were doing is you were constantly trying to define a border in which there was something within.

Jeane: Yes.

John: That’s what you were doing: constantly trying to define the border.

So the way the nothingness, a true nothingness, in other words, not a nothingness that’s still a mental term. In other words, the way something is not an essence is that it has to draw itself a form, and, when it draws itself a form, it has boundaries within that form, just like the soul has a form in terms of the body. It, then, as an emptiness, as a stillness, as a oneness, it then has something kind of defined, so to speak, in that it is now in a composited, defined, drawn caricature, or form.

But, just like a person who knows how to draw images, when you draw the form there is a huge relief in relationship to the overall because now you have something to contend with, or to work with – but something is still missing in terms of what can be the rest of it? In other words, the rest of the lines and everything else within this boundary.

Because first you have it, and then you have to have something within. So now what you’re talking about is within that has to be, somehow or another, the emptiness yet, or the total stillness.

Well, it kind of defies logic that when you draw a form that you have taken something out of a wholeness, and now you need to fill it in. That’s how the mind would work, in terms of the multiplicity. Now it’s going to have to finish the image. The key is to be able to be in the outer of things without having to be identified with some separate form, as if that’s the end all, be all that you have to navigate, function, in terms of.

So, what you’re trying to do is you’re trying to work with this chemistry of light, where you see things in whatever it is as a form, but how do you get that to be accepted, or okay? So that means you have to be in the emptiness that you came from.

So the way this works with the breath is you actually breathe in light on out-breath. You have to first of all breathe out the essence of the coming down, which is the seed of things from somewhere in the wholeness of all that there is. The out-breath goes into the caricature, and you have to breathe in that light. And, when you do that, you can be empty.

So for a poor human being that has suddenly taken on the notion of a definition, like a meaty border of themselves, somehow or another the fact of doing that has caused a conceptualization to get established, and you find yourself now contending with whatever it is that you, through your senses, see yourself as being in terms of a density.

But that isn’t how you’re meant to be. You’re meant to be a physical body that holds their soul, a soul that is everything, and so you have come into this caricature, but you’re not going to identify with the caricature so that you get lost in the myriad of things. So you come in with a mission, and the mission is an out-breath that breathes, and feels itself, exuding the light within, from somewhere else, into this beingness.

Not only does it exude the light into the beingness, but that light, then, because of the lightness of things, and because you can take yourself outside of a heaviness, or gravity, you can then aurically expand. You’re not just that caricature. Those who identify with the caricature can’t, but you can aurically expand.

And so then you breathe all of this back in on an in-breath, and you’re breathing back in the light – so there’s nothing going on. There really isn’t anything going on. The caricature is just there as a kind of blueprint design. You’re not that physical body. You’re there in order to create the means by which to move around, by which to have a methodology, a dialogue, a seeing and a hearing.

But it’s a very challenged seeing and hearing because it’s not supposed to be a seeing and hearing that is correlated to identifying whatever it is that you have as a caricature. You’re meant to have the caricature that you can move around with, but you move around with that in relationship to a breath that brings something in, and a breath that sweeps back with it.

It’s a breath except, in terms of sorting it out, the question then is: which part of the breath were you breathing? Well, first of all you have the caricature and I guess you’re struggling with what all is inside the caricature. So in that regard it’s an out-breath, the seed of that, because you then have to breathe it back into its proper state, an in-breath.

So it’s got to be light coming down and touching light, and light rising up. It is the light. You’re breathing light out, bringing it down as light from the wholeness of it all, and then breathing it back in. You breathe anything other than that, it’s a density, it’s a diversity. It’s still a mind, or a confusion, or a separation.

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A Combined Wisdom

John: Well, I’m again dreaming in ways that are kind of hard to explain, because the real energetic that’s at play and moving can sometimes be invisible, i.e., not a part of the visual imagery. That’s the way it is in this first dream, where I identify myself as an invisible energetic that’s observing the unfolding of events. In other words, I don’t “see” myself, but I’m there. I’m on another level, so I must be the energetic.

As the dream begins I see a woman being led into a room by a guide. This is a room where change takes place. To be at ease in this room, a person is required to make a shift within. To denote what’s shifting, I suddenly become aware of something trying to come through.

Simultaneously, the energy that’s causing something to move in me manifests as the feeling that I have a sore spot, like a pimple. I can’t remember what part of my body it’s on, but it’s bumpier than normal, although it’s not quite to the point where I can pop it. But I squeeze it real hard and it suddenly pops; a fluid from deep within oozes out.

This breakthrough enables the guide and the woman to go off to one side. In other words, they were appreciating this room, but now another level of awareness has opened up. They’re now able to move off to one side and still take in the whole room, without having to move around from spot to spot.

I’m observing this from an invisible, inner plane. With the shift, the woman and guide now carry a natural awareness of what’s going on in the room and are able to take into their beingness all that is there to behold. Before they were being overwhelmed by their physical perceptions in the room.

Suddenly, though, it’s like I take a step back and I’m looking at some denser aspect. What I imaged has a sudden manifestation about it, and I realize that it’s very loud compared to what had existed. This loudness sets off a reaction that veils the natural perception emanating, as an overallness, from the space.

The last part of this image, with the emergence of the loudness, shows how easily we can cut ourselves off from our deeper connections by letting our mind wander back into the illusion. In other words, if we are too deeply immersed in the outer world, it becomes a loudness that deafens us to our natural inner guidance.

But, of course, to understand this dream we have to look at two levels that are being represented.

First, there’s the level from which I’m observing, that’s on an invisible, inner plane where I’m not in the picture but I have insight about what is unfolding. Second, there’s another part of me, seen as the woman and the guide, which has an awareness of the overall space. But these two viewpoints seem separate. One is invisible to the other. The woman’s awareness of the overall is invisible to the insightfulness. And, what kind of insightfulness are we talking about?

So this dream is describing an energetic shift, which takes into account two whole levels of beingness. The masculine level of sight (my perspective) is in a hidden state. In other words, it’s a state within, or it’s something that has come down into life, but it’s still just a vibration and isn’t yet in a manifested state.

The feminine awareness takes into account the overallness, in all its facets, in creation, i.e., it can take in the whole room at once. So this is a shift, where I have a presence within creation (in the room), and yet at the same time, if I can pull the masculine back into it, I can connect to a deeper energetic insight that incorporates both levels. These two perspectives should be perceived simultaneously, like a type of combined wisdom, within it all.

What this image brings to mind is the Sufi principle of “Solitude in the Crowd.” This phrase captures the idea of a person maintaining their connection with God no matter where they are or what they’re doing. A spiritual journey today doesn’t mean going up on a mountaintop, it means maintaining our connections to the universal, through our higher self, in everything we do. We want to be in “the room,” without losing sight of our greater relationship with everything.

So we want to be in the world, yet not of it, i.e., not affected by it. There’s also the idea in this of having our “head in the heavens, and our feet on the ground,” in which a part of us is somewhere else and yet at the same time we’re in life, we’re in creation.

This sense of duality also recalls the understanding of the in-breath (feminine) and the out-breath (masculine) of creation. The out-breath brings down something from above, as from the crown that touches creation, and that’s like the hidden quality of the will coming through. As it touches creation, it awakens an awareness that takes into account the overallness, and each breath is said to be a cycle of creation.

So this dream touches on all of these elements through its imagery, yet the disturbance at the end shows that I didn’t quite succeed in connecting these two levels, or making them known to one another. Instead, the loudness of some subtle inner resistance interrupted the process.

Fire and Brimstone

volcano2 In my next dream I see that I’m purchasing something from a friend, an artist, who’s rather down and out. I buy some candy from him and it seems like I pay more than it’s worth. That way I put some extra money in his pocket.

Then I see that my friend has stepped away, and I’m being told what bad shape he’s in financially. My friend has gone off to one side where a homeless person is asking him for money. When he comes back he says, “What can you do, this guy is always hitting me up for money?”

My friend had given him $2.40, which is a good portion of what I had given him when I bought the candy.

Strange, right? Again, it’s showing levels, but now it’s showing how to recognize the nuances and the humor of life as this is going on in the outer and being brought all the way through. These dreams have explored levels of consciousness, and how we identify with the outer perception only. To do that causes us to see life with varying degrees of limited perception, where we only see certain things and completely ignore others. (For the previous dreams in this sequence, see A Perception of Depth and The Connected State.)

The key is to be able to relate energetically from top to bottom. To only bring things through to a particular point is to deny life that which it needs. I feel that in Vegas I’m trying to note a side of life that has been ignored or even abandoned – it’s the opposite of the outer life here that has an over-the-top expression of opulence. The external expression of Vegas is an example of only bringing energy through to a limited point.

So in the dream I’m shown that it’s important to bring whatever that energetic is right down into the plane of existence. What I see – because all of the people in the dream are aspects of me – is that I’m bringing the energetic right down to the lowest common denominator, represented by the needy people I’m helping.

In Vegas, the underlying energy can really be considered looking at the lowest common denominator because it affects everything. Yet nobody pays any attention to it. If something is trying to awaken, or to touch things in life, the tendency is to try to see it from the lowest common denominator, not the highest.

There’s a question in spirituality: What’s worse off, the lowest common denominator or the highest common denominator? It’s generally said, as perceived spiritually, that it’s the lowest common denominator that’s worse off, but actually it’s the highest.

I guess the only thing I could add to that is that the perception in life, when looking at the spiritual path, is that one assumes they are relating to that which is half empty – meaning a person who empties their cup is more receptive. The person who’s “half full” sees themselves as fully engaged with the material life of the outer and, therefore, is less likely to be open to receiving what’s new, in terms of energy.

I guess I have a tendency to believe that it’s important to recognize and hold the “other half.” Does everything in the outer have to be crushed and destroyed in order to allow other levels to reveal themselves? Or, does every indulgence have to be stripped out to make room for something else? If so, that means we’re not capable of having the attitude of the creator (top to bottom), only the pain-of-love aspect of how a consciousness awakens.

If it’s only going to go in one direction, then the result for this world looks pretty bleak. We can see that things are breaking down and dynasties are falling apart; what needs to fall apart is going to fall apart. But, on the other hand, there’s nothing holding an order to things together, in terms of scientific breakthroughs and marvels that exist that benefit mankind, at least in a way of living in the outer.

So what’s useful can be torn to pieces as well, and in the instances where things are breaking down in the outer – Egypt, Libya, etc. – that’s what’s happening. Infrastructures are being destroyed; treasures are being lost.

What I’m pointing to is the importance that the other half sit there too, in terms of being able to maintain some semblance of Creation when it gets rocked and rolled. You can’t just have it go “poof” and start all over again, in another Sodom and Gomorrah scenario.

I think what I’m recognizing and acknowledging is that in life you’ve got to be able to touch the light in the top of things, the opulence expression, and not only the lower expression where there’s longing and desperation.

Both states need to be held together or else everything is going to self-destruct or burn itself out. It’s probably because people are used to seeing that life ultimately ends in some sort of fiery inferno. But it’s not good to have to go all the way back and start from scratch.

That’s what happened when Atlantis was lost to humanity. It would be nice if humanity could get through these times, to make the next step, without having to be completely crushed and going back to square one again.