Posts Tagged ‘the spiritual teacher’

As we develop, it is common to be confronted by our ability, or inability, to truly let go to something greater than ourselves. In Jeane’s dream, she is testing the waters of a deeper level of letting go. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Jeane: I remembered one little part of a dream. I’m in a large room where we must all sleep together and visit.

I was sitting on the edge of a double bed, and someone is coming around the room and checking everybody’s… these cards that we have, that are something between a social security card and a Visa card. And my card had been left to me by the last person. It has the name of someone else on it because they’ve left it to me to use now because they’ve left.

Anyway, the person that’s going around checking all the cards, apparently if your card is constructed in a certain way when you go to buy things, you don’t have to sign, or come up with any other ID or anything. You can just use that card. And I seem to be the only one in the room who has that kind of a card, even though I got it from someone else.  

John: The difference between my dream (see The Spark That Resets) and this dream, is my dream takes and starts and looks at everything as if the uniqueness and the quality of a light has accentuated itself to the point where it then, when it comes together, offers something in terms of holding its own space as a light. But the composite of that coming together, where you would think that the result would be each of them would go off then just in their own space, the actual effect is that there’s something that comes together and twines and creates an after effect, in which that then is the aliveness.

It’s a composite of the focus and the clarity of each individual in terms of how they’ve broken through and been able to contend and relate from an inner aspect of themselves, into the outer. And that composite has an aliveness.

In your particular case you’re just starting with the general overall, and you’re finding yourself as having accessed an identity that surprises you, like it was left behind or whatever it is. It surprises you because you’re accustomed to thinking that everything has to come from something that is very separately and personally oriented.

So you’re working with the recognition that there is a way that you can function, and it might be a little bit discombobulating to one’s ego. One can function in relationship to absorbing or taking on the qualities and aspects and vibrations of another and, technically speaking, that is what a teacher kind of does.

They’re able to work with the student because they’re able to put the student into their own heart, and therefore they come to grips with the misalignments, and the peculiarities, and the oddities and awkwardness, that that person is going through, which are keeping them misaligned and all a jumble from being able to open up a connection to the light.

So, if the light of the whole is out, does that mean that you have to somehow or another be doing your own thing? You know, it’s kind of like you’re just hanging fire in your own capacity.

No, that doesn’t mean that at all, because you can’t change the fact that the light that you’re composed of and a composite of the Whole, of everything that exists. And as a composite and Whole of everything that exists, to the degree to which you’ve caught up with, and yet are able to let go of, any light that comes through you, that is you, and are able to see yourself in others, or, as the saying would go, be able to put them into your heart.

That is a way in which you find that you’re able to function. And it’s a functioning that might seem a little strange to you because one’s always accustomed to bicycling around as if they themselves are unique and separate from it all. And in your particular case you’re seeing that there is a way of being; in the dream you don’t quite identify the enthusiasm of it, like in my dream I found that to be exciting, really joyful, and who would have guessed that that is a real dynamic?

And your dream in terms of sensing and feeling the overall, you’re probably not going to sense it as dynamic and refreshed, because you’re not bringing in that masculine element or something that has to go off on its own individualistic, accentuated quality so much. Instead you’re just noticing that the qualities and characteristics of those around you, you can take in, and it isn’t going to hurt you.

It reminds me of a trait that the teacher applied where you can take and if you listen to someone for five minutes, and you just let yourself go and you don’t judge, and you don’t think, because somehow or another, however it is that they are, that normally you would have kept some barrier or quirk about them separate because of the nature of how they are. If you don’t stir that and use that veil as a differentiation, you find that you can be their identity. You can live in that identity too.

So what? The key is the letting go. And if you’re able to do that, in each and every instance of everything that is out there, that is a graciousness, and a compassion, and a Wholeness, because you’re actually able to let go.

And it’s like a type of losing one’s self, and in that process, you actually catch up that way to everything. In your dream it’s like you see this almost as, how can this be? Should I be concerned because it’s such a surprise. But it’s only a surprise because we don’t relate to the inner traits any longer, we relate to the outer reflections.

And so we keep pushing off and maintaining the distinctions. And in your dream you somehow or another are finding yourself noticing that there is this part that you see, which is okay, which means you’ve let go or dropped the distinction. And that’s a feminine way of doing it, in terms of the Whole, just like what I described is kind of a masculine way of doing it in terms of a spark.

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In today’s dream, Jeane describes an image that raises a fundamental question: What is the reason for life? Within that question is a fundamental choice: Do we live this life for our selves (satisfying our ego), or are we meant to live it for a greater purpose within the Whole? (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

 Jeane: The next image was a little harder for me to pull out, but it feels like I’m going somewhere. It feels like maybe it’s a parade where they’re selecting Miss America or something like that. It’s going to have a beauty contest involved in it.

On my way there I seem to pick up the responsibility for this little girl. I have a friend that I think comes to help, too. The little girl seems like she’s come from a very privileged home, and is very naïve or inexperienced about certain things.

Rather than have to carry her the whole way, I decide to let her ride a bike. But I just have the parts of the bike, and I start putting it together, and it has these little copper knobs I have to figure out how to connect one part to the other and then it becomes a whole bike.

So I get the bike together – it’s actually a tricycle – but then I realize this girl had come from such a privileged background she actually doesn’t know how to ride it. So then it leaves me with a dilemma of maybe trying to get her to ride it now and then, but actually carrying her and the tricycle to the parade.

I think on the way there I have a couple of stops. I remember at one stop there’s a man that sits down and starts talking to us. He has a uniform on and even though he has a certain light about him, I’m kind of put off because I have the charge of this little girl and you don’t want little kids to talk to strangers, you know.

Then there’s another instant where I have to stop briefly at my house and have my friend watch her while I take a shower. Then it feels like we finally get to wherever the parade and the contest will be.

John: Well, it’s like looking at an older side of yourself and a younger side of yourself. In other words, you make things out of matter – the one element that’s important to making things industrially, it is considered the industrial component to making things out of matter, is copper.

The older part of yourself has learned how to function, and is functioning, in the outer world as if you can do this stuff literally. As if you can make things out of images and reflections, in other words. It is a little bit… goes around and around in circles as part of deluding one’s self, but you can do that.

The younger part of you is a part of yourself that doesn’t know how to ride the bicycle or the tricycle or whatever it is, because it sits in a state of innocence where it hasn’t yet bought into the inflection to the point where it indulges, and then when it indulges then it contends with what it’s like to mess around or play with the tricycle.

The older part of you thinks it has to take charge of this younger part of you that isn’t getting the memo, that hasn’t yet figured it out, that has to be taken care of. And that’s the game that goes on in life. The parents take care of the children, but the way they take care of them is they indoctrinate them into the outer.

And when a baby is born it identifies with the soul level, and it stays with that identification on the soul level until that ego starts to be developed in its nature. And then the development of that ego causes it to find its own way and mannerisms in terms of coping in the outer. And it’s said that a baby as it is in the in-between phase, is kind of in a type of protective security where it doesn’t hurt itself or fall down. It’s almost like it has a guardian angel over it, and then slowly but surely that even disappears.

And the child is supposed to have developed certain traits for coping purposes and it comes into taking this on on its own. As a consequence you then are caught in the outer. You described almost a depiction between some deep part of yourself that is able to be outside of the outer identifications, and then the part of you that has gotten caught in the identifications.

Then you’re seeing that you, in this state, are of the opinion that you have to indoctrinate those conditions upon the younger part of yourself as opposed to, what if the younger part of yourself had it right all to begin with, but is being compelled to be in the outer and adopt all of these traits as part of some sort of game or journey that the soul has to make?

If it’s a game and a journey that the soul has to make then why, what’s the reason? Well, the only reason that one can give is to gain a deeper sense of the divine, of the connection that one has to the Whole, to gain that in a more deepened awakened intimate sense.

That’s the only reason that one can think for that making sense, because otherwise it looks like a dirty rotten trick – and it’s the opposite. In other words, when you see it like that, you’re inclined to think that what’s going on is the opposite of what should be going on. And yet what’s to say that you can’t have the awareness of the essence, like the child in terms of its soul, in terms of an encompassing quality that sweeps in and takes in everything in the universe, and then also hold that, maintain that, carry that, emanate that into the outer in which you have everything all defined and confined?

Who’s to say that you can’t somehow or another do both? If you are able to somehow or another do both, then from the state that is confined and defined and identifying with things, there is a great sense of reverence and appreciation to the greater Whole of itself, that is everything.

And that would be getting closer to what is the essence. That would be the means of the essence of being able to experience that essence while in a human body, so to speak. That’s kind of the game.

That’s why following dreams is so difficult, because what you tend to see in a reflection could cause you to draw a whole different conclusion, could cause you to draw the conclusion that there is something about the child that’s amiss that has to be indoctrinated into the world that you’re in.

And what if it’s the other way around? In other words, the whole spiritual journey process is not based upon the teacher taking and showing an acuity about this, that, and the other in the outer. Instead, the teacher reflects the ability to let go of it all and therefore what comes across is a huge inner depth that is free – and that inflects across. A purity like that inflects across.

So we accept this under those conditions, but we don’t accept it when it’s portrayed as little child to us as adult, kind of thing. We find something wrong with the little child, but if we find something wrong with the little child, then why don’t we find something wrong with the teacher who takes us back to that essence?

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Jeane: In this first dream I’m in the city and I’m walking home. My mother is there and she hasn’t visited for a while. I seem to be walking barefoot.

As I’m walking, a female friend distracts me. I walk up to the top of a very tall structure, like bleachers in a stadium. At the top my friend and I are looking over the edge and my friend is talking to me about the children of some people we knew in the past who are living in the area. It feels like I’m estranged from these people.

I go from one part of this structure to another where there are some loose bricks. I toss some bricks down. I feel like this action has caused harm to someone. That makes me feel a certain shame and I become defensive about it. My friend and I just continue our dialogue and then I leave.

I’m carrying some shame about what I’ve done. It feels like I’ve stolen something or killed something. I don’t know what I’ve done for sure, but I then go into a simple home that seems to be where my spiritual teacher lives.

I’m sitting on the floor with someone else and the teacher is talking, but because of what I’ve done I don’t want the teacher to get too close. I feel like I can hide because he’s allergic to dogs and there are two dogs in the room that almost cover me up; I think that will keep the teacher away.

The teacher is sitting cross-legged on the floor. Then he comes over and just takes me in his arms – I can’t hide at all. He’s whispering to me. I feel really lost because I feel like I can no longer hide anything I’ve ever done… 

John: The theme of this dream has to do with responsibility, in the sense that you have an inner recognition in terms of what’s meant to be and you feel a responsibility to help it reach fruition. The first image of you heading home to visit with your mother gives you a glimpse of this wholeness.

Your home is a place where everything is known and complete. On the way home, however, an aspect of you (the female friend), which lies between you and the state of wholeness, causes a distraction.

In other words, this distraction is a part of you that hasn’t caught up with the sense of knowing – yet. So you try to reconcile this part of you, and your sense is that you need to establish a better vantage point, or get a better perspective. In other words, you’re trying to rise up – you go to the top of the stadium.

You take this spiritual step with the idea that it will help you get oriented, but what it ends up doing is the opposite of your intention, i.e., instead of making a connection you end up inadvertently losing contact with that other part of you. That’s because your spiritual step is tainted by a spiritual illusion. You’re trying to bring something together by gaining a better view, but it doesn’t work.

What that’s showing you is that deep down you thought you could handle this transition on your own. Instead, you embarrassed yourself. Your attempts we’re not quite clear enough, or strong enough, or conscious enough to follow that inner sense to fruition, so you’re ashamed at having let some aspect of it go.

Said another way, you have a certain sense that knows what’s meant to be, and you believe that you have the connections to be able to help what’s meant to be reach fruition. However, the dream is showing you that this isn’t going to work. You still need help.

So the help you need comes in the image of the teacher who is the go-between to enable you to realize and recognize how you have veiled yourself. You’ve veiled yourself as a result of shame. You find yourself needing to hide because you’ve failed to uphold what you know or heard deep inside and felt you could maintain or sustain in terms of the process – you thought you could find your own way back.

It’s unusual in that it has a whole Garden of Eden modality about it where the fruit of something in life, when eaten or taken in on a personal level, causes you to think that you are independent and can do it by yourself. But that illusion (because it’s ego-based) causes a shame to rise up to the point where you want to hide. The consequence is that you have been thrown out of what is natural and a part of who you are (i.e., banished from the Garden).

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