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Jeane: In this dream I’m leaning on a bed and there’s another woman standing on the other side. We’re talking about men. There are some men in the room at another table and I make a comment, saying “I really wouldn’t ever go out with a man from Yugoslavia because they just don’t accept women at a certain level.”

I joke that now that I’ve made that statement, I’ll probably have someone show up who’s an exception or I’ll get in trouble for it. There are some German men in the room and I say that I don’t think my statement applies to German men, though.
Then I notice a man I’ve always been attracted to sitting on the other side of the room. He’s very accomplished, but he’s not feeling well. At one point I go over to him after he’s gone into another room to lie down.  

I think I give him a kiss and then we have a friendly, but casual conversation. We make some jokes. He wants to know if I want to go back to his house, and I say, “No, as far as my boyfriend is concerned, that kiss has already crossed the line.” Besides, he’s not feeling well and needs to rest.

Then I go into another part of the building where there’s a bathroom. It’s strange. You have to go down a corridor and then turn into the place where the stalls are. But when I turn the corner, I’m not certain. I know I’m spooking myself in a way. I’m very clear about it, but it doesn’t feel quite right to me.

I go back down the hallway and, sure enough, I hear a toilet flush, and someone comes out. For some reason, I don’t want them to see me. There are a few stall-like rooms that I can enter, so I turn around. One of these stalls suddenly turns into a bathroom, but there’s a woman in there so I can’t use it.  

I open the door to another one and it just turns into a dead end, but I try to conceal myself there. I realize that part of the wall disappears and someone is standing on the other side with a bare bottom. I think I reach over and pinch them, while at the same time I’m a little apprehensive about someone else who is coming down the hallway.  

I think that’s when I wake up.

John: That’s a really peculiar dream in that you set the note, or the premise, for the dream by indicating that there are certain things that you won’t put up with, that you won’t deal with, and then you are confronted by a flow of things that potentially includes that which you reject.

Then when you see that you’re doing that, because you’ve taken a particular set position and the flow contradicts that position, you then find yourself having to hide. But you can’t really hide yourself because the awkwardness of what you’re doing reveals that the flow that you experienced was exhilarating, or touched you in some way, and is in keeping with how you’re meant to awaken.

It  reminds me of an article in the newspaper a while back in which Paris Hilton was supposedly kissing a stranger in the dark when suddenly the light came on and she realized it was a black man, and she says, “Ugh!”

The comment circulated and was picked up by the tabloids and it was treated as a racial reaction. Yet at the same time, in that moment of the kiss, there was probably a part of her that was opening up. Then she shut it down and became very trite and benign again.

It also reminds me of another incident in which there was a teacher I knew ages ago whose eyes started suddenly twinkling when I was having reaction to something because, from her perception, my reaction was over the top, which indicated that something behind it needed to be revealed. In other words, my reaction was suppressing my ability to catch up with a particular quality of a flow of my being that was important.

Your dream seems to do all of this. First of all, it has a part that shows a discrimination or prejudice, and then you realize that you need to be more conscious and not define or label things, and then there’s the part where there’s openness where you share a kiss.

But you then have a reaction to something, which causes you to feel the need to conceal or hide yourself. You could almost say your dream is also the story of Adam and Eve, where they find themselves in the Garden, but then deviate by eating the apple which they shouldn’t have, and then they feel guilty and want to hide themselves.

What resulted from eating the forbidden fruit was that they were cut off from a flow that had been naturally there for them. That became the theme of human life in Creation – all stemming from that singular incident – that we’ve been trying to let go of, in terms of our guilt and our attitudes, ever since. It’s an usual, symbolic dream.

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John: In yesterday’s dream (see Thick as a Brick) we see you on a path toward a wholeness (toward your home where your mother waits), but you become distracted on the way. This distraction, or deviation, causes a sense of shame or guilt in you, to the point where you can’t get close to the teacher – you want to hide – whose home you have found yourself in.

From a human perspective, we each hold the guilt of having cut ourselves off from the Divine connection, from the wholeness, that was meant for us all along.

Your dream is indicating that there’s a process by which you can come out from this hiding, or from this way you have veiled yourself, and it has to do with being found. The teacher does the “finding,” i.e., somehow you have put yourself under the guidance of the teacher.

In other words, you’ve fallen within the scope, or the domain, of a depth within you, where the teacher can reach you, but you still feel that you’ve done something wrong and you still feel the need to veil yourself. That isn’t how redemption, or grace, or forgiveness, is meant to work.

The teacher, who is actually you at a deep inner level, can’t find its way back to the wholeness that’s deeply imbedded within you, but is able to re-find you because you have come close enough in proximity that he’s able to see through that which lies in between and create the linkage by which you can then make your way back.

So what happens next?

Jeane: It’s time to go into the next room where the teacher’s wife has cooked a meal. As I go by I see her and another woman – they have plates but there’s no food on them. There’s a lamb dish with gravy and a very bright bundle of asparagus in the middle. I take out an asparagus spear. Then the dream shifts a little.

After having eaten the asparagus I go into a larger dream group to tell them of the dream. As I begin, before I get to the part with the teacher, they interrupt to ask questions or get more specific detail.

I’m aware that that will break the flow of energy, so I look out into the group (it’s important that I tell the dream) and I see you in the back. You’re sitting very tall and have a certain light to you; I know you’ll hold the energy of bringing the dream through so I can focus. Then it shifts again.

John: Here you’re describing an aspect of maturity. In other words, at the level where everything is made known, or is given, or where the teaching occurs, there’s a depth in you that has been touched in a way that opens up to a note. But it isn’t yet held complete by the whole of you.

Bringing it through, so that all parts of you can come into alignment, isn’t a matter of detail, it’s a matter of vibration. Certain parts of you are still affected by shame or veiling or a defense mechanism that disturbs the vibration from coming fully through (the disruptions from the group).

So you realize that you have to hold your attention to what’s meant to come through, which is an aspect of the masculine (you see me sitting in the back), and you have a sense inside but in order for that sense to come alive and spread and encompass and take in even more you have to hold your focus to the clarity of the Divine Will that’s within the vibration.

If you can hold your attention on that it will help you hold the note, because that’s the conversation that you have to connect with, that’s the important thing, not all the deviations that go off this way and that. If you hold that central theme, then the rest can come through for all parts of you.

That’s really what a teacher does. There are parts of us, as in the main dream image, that have become wayward and think that there’s a certain perspective or way of rising above something (the stadium) that involves going off on a tangent. This further confuses the situation or contaminates the flow of the magnetic depth trying to awaken within to pull you forward.

The teacher in your main dream carried that note, carried that quality, saw right through all of the contrivances that were founded in shame and a lack of forgiveness.

The second part of your dream changes the depiction of this feeling from shame to a sense that something isn’t able to stay focused and settled enough to catch what’s meaningful, which is the vibration. It becomes a quality of hiding, and as long as you conduct yourself like that you’ll keep yourself cut off from the deeper levels.

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Jeane: In this first dream I’m in the city and I’m walking home. My mother is there and she hasn’t visited for a while. I seem to be walking barefoot.

As I’m walking, a female friend distracts me. I walk up to the top of a very tall structure, like bleachers in a stadium. At the top my friend and I are looking over the edge and my friend is talking to me about the children of some people we knew in the past who are living in the area. It feels like I’m estranged from these people.

I go from one part of this structure to another where there are some loose bricks. I toss some bricks down. I feel like this action has caused harm to someone. That makes me feel a certain shame and I become defensive about it. My friend and I just continue our dialogue and then I leave.

I’m carrying some shame about what I’ve done. It feels like I’ve stolen something or killed something. I don’t know what I’ve done for sure, but I then go into a simple home that seems to be where my spiritual teacher lives.

I’m sitting on the floor with someone else and the teacher is talking, but because of what I’ve done I don’t want the teacher to get too close. I feel like I can hide because he’s allergic to dogs and there are two dogs in the room that almost cover me up; I think that will keep the teacher away.

The teacher is sitting cross-legged on the floor. Then he comes over and just takes me in his arms – I can’t hide at all. He’s whispering to me. I feel really lost because I feel like I can no longer hide anything I’ve ever done… 

John: The theme of this dream has to do with responsibility, in the sense that you have an inner recognition in terms of what’s meant to be and you feel a responsibility to help it reach fruition. The first image of you heading home to visit with your mother gives you a glimpse of this wholeness.

Your home is a place where everything is known and complete. On the way home, however, an aspect of you (the female friend), which lies between you and the state of wholeness, causes a distraction.

In other words, this distraction is a part of you that hasn’t caught up with the sense of knowing – yet. So you try to reconcile this part of you, and your sense is that you need to establish a better vantage point, or get a better perspective. In other words, you’re trying to rise up – you go to the top of the stadium.

You take this spiritual step with the idea that it will help you get oriented, but what it ends up doing is the opposite of your intention, i.e., instead of making a connection you end up inadvertently losing contact with that other part of you. That’s because your spiritual step is tainted by a spiritual illusion. You’re trying to bring something together by gaining a better view, but it doesn’t work.

What that’s showing you is that deep down you thought you could handle this transition on your own. Instead, you embarrassed yourself. Your attempts we’re not quite clear enough, or strong enough, or conscious enough to follow that inner sense to fruition, so you’re ashamed at having let some aspect of it go.

Said another way, you have a certain sense that knows what’s meant to be, and you believe that you have the connections to be able to help what’s meant to be reach fruition. However, the dream is showing you that this isn’t going to work. You still need help.

So the help you need comes in the image of the teacher who is the go-between to enable you to realize and recognize how you have veiled yourself. You’ve veiled yourself as a result of shame. You find yourself needing to hide because you’ve failed to uphold what you know or heard deep inside and felt you could maintain or sustain in terms of the process – you thought you could find your own way back.

It’s unusual in that it has a whole Garden of Eden modality about it where the fruit of something in life, when eaten or taken in on a personal level, causes you to think that you are independent and can do it by yourself. But that illusion (because it’s ego-based) causes a shame to rise up to the point where you want to hide. The consequence is that you have been thrown out of what is natural and a part of who you are (i.e., banished from the Garden).

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