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John: The dream we last discussed (see The Gathering) is showing you that the way to try to grasp, or connect with, the overallness of life – a fuller dimension of life – is you have to be empty in yourself. And the way you empty yourself is to give up something inside – you offer it up. Basically the images are showing you do that by your attempts to “throw it out there.”

When you do that, by letting go of whatever it is that you are holding onto, it enables you to come out of that shell that is holding you captive. That is what you are practicing. The images are a visualization of how to let go of something so that it does not stick to you (the stubby pencil).

By attempting this release, you are opening yourself up so something greater that can come in. You are also recognizing that you need to connect to, or link with, more energy – that is the energy of the kundalini.

So, in effect, your efforts to release an aspect of yourself that you have been holding onto makes you emptier, and therefore more available, for new energy to come in. And that energy is part of the overallness, not just a different psychological mannerism.

The imagery is also showing that you are embracing an aspect of ownership and responsibility toward the process. You are making it conscious – then, rather than your inner aspects all being separate islands, they become parts of a greater territory, or possession.

It’s a very difficult thing to make oneself empty. Each of us is veiled in our own particular way. We tend to create our own conflict and harshness when we don’t recognize the psychological veils we have in ourselves, and we also don’t give allowance for them in others. That creates a condition where there is a lack of forgiveness, whether within ourselves or in our relationships.

Spiritual development requires that we let these veils go – it is the process that allows the limitless energy we are connected with to come through. Part of you understands this and you are practicing the way to do it. You have caught the idea that this is what it is all about.

You see our memories, our mannerisms, our psychologies are all elements that create a stickiness in us. If we experience something new, and our reaction is to say, “Oh, it’s just like that other thing,” our own stickiness has prevented the flow of what the new thing really is. We cut ourselves off from what is really going on.

Another example might be our anticipation or expectation of people or events. We approach an experience with a visualization that we have created from our own wants, desires, psychologies, and all the rest. When we get there and the scenario doesn’t match our visualization, we are disappointed. That is our own stickiness that has prevented us from having the real experience.

We shouldn’t be constantly making distinctions in our lives about all we come in contact with, we should be empty and allow the energy from within to flow into the circumstance. That way we are always connected.

In letting go of these points of stickiness, we become emptier in ourselves, yet allow ourselves to become filled with the energy and light of the overall. We, as humans, have to let that inner light fill us up.

In your dream, you are getting guidance from inside that is telling you that you have to break away from that which sticks, and learn to have a greater space so that more can be embraced and taken in. That is a huge step that is being offered to you.

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John: So the imagery in yesterday’s dream is showing that I’ve withdrawn from the world around me. I perceive everything as being poisonous, so I’m not opening up to what is being presented. As a result, I’m cutoff from the threads (strings) that have aliveness to them.

Of course, I’m not seeing them as aliveness; I just reject them as noise and commotion. It’s my attitude that’s unsettling me energetically, and therefore the flow is denied. The images also show that it doesn’t need to be denied: the door is partially open, but I do not use it. I don’t take advantage of this opening for something to occur.

From my perspective, in the dream, I think I’m protecting myself from outside contamination and ridding myself of the poisonous object in my shoe. But I’m in this tenement building having to somehow make it work – this is the reality I find myself in. I find myself waking up a bit sad, out of synch, out of touch; just unable to resonate with the place.

The tenement residents won’t disturb me because that is how I want it. Even though the door is open a crack, I’m still holding on to my self-imposed separation. But my attitude is keeping me in a stupor, like a heavy cloud. And I’ve got a painful impediment in my shoe that makes moving around uncomfortable.

So this scenario, which feels like a nightmare, is caused by my denial. I am meant to step through the open door and engage in what is out there. I am meant to find the meaningfulness in my situation – in the reality I find myself in. Even though I perceive the poisons as coming from outside of me, they are actually triggered from inside, because I have cut off the flow. When the flow is cut off, things begin to die, or go bad.

It was a hard dream to pull out, but it crystallizes an aspect of me that needs to be addressed in my life. After that dream, I had the following images.

I’ve come back to my hometown where I will not be staying long. This is a place where I have history that rises up to be faced upon my return. It’s ancient history; I’ve been gone for years. I just need to confront it in passing. One cannot just ignore things.

And I am offered the opportunity to be open about the past – I’m not meant to linger. I’m scheduled to leave town again very soon, this time for good. While there, however, I need to wrap up the loose ends.

Now this image adds to the prior dream. There I was withdrawn in my room and I couldn’t go through the open door. Here I’m given an opportunity to revisit, and come to terms with what is holding me back. Perhaps the key to being open and in the flow lies in my making peace with part of my past.

So now, essentially, on a psychological level, it’s like karma in that I’m repressing things that could set me free. What I repress becomes a filter through which I see the world and it becomes a limitation.

From a psychological standpoint, one often sees problems as a result of the way a person grows up, or the type of parents they had, or the tribulations that they went through that create certain defense mechanisms. They shape a person’s reactivity to the world they meet.

And we have to conduct ourselves in a way that sets us free of those limitations. In doing so, you are also setting everything around you free. You are unplugging yourself from unintended consequences that cause suffocation and repression. That’s how this image adds to that prior dream.

Then I end up getting one last image:

I drive into a hotel parking lot. I know when I am supposed to arrive, but for some reason I have come much earlier. I feel an urgency to know if this is okay. The bellboy sees me and, instead of waiving me off (which I am expecting), he immediately points me to a spot right in front of the main doors so that I can unload and bring in my belongings. The manner in which he does this clearly indicates that they are ready to receive me.

So the normal route, and karma, I was following would have me go through a very circuitous approach in terms of how I carry myself. The first dream indicates that there is an opening, the second image shows me that I can go back and deal with things, and now the third image shows that I have reached my destination: I am open to receive. I have moved from a tenement into a hotel.

The dream imagery is arranged to accommodate the change that is now possible, because I’m recognizing that I’m meant to open up to possibilities and to stop shutting myself off.

So these images show how this process unfolds. As we accept or deny what our dream life is showing us, the imagery changes to show us where we are and keep us on track. When we change, the imagery of the outer world has to change as well.

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John: Dreams tend to be very difficult as they start, and then they set something in motion that gets jarred loose. It’s like cleaning the rust off of something. And so a dream early in the night can be a way of unclogging things.

This dream starts off with me being presented with a sequence of energetic events. In other words, it’s like everything is part of a string that has a number of components to it. If you take on any one aspect, one dot of the sequence, then you have bought into the whole string.

The problem that I have, though, is that these strings are thrown at me. I think that if I open up one of them, I’ll find myself affected by that whole sequence and energetic flow, which means that it creates a type of karma that has to reflect, or be lived out, in the outer imagery of the dream.

So I’m finding that I’ve been turning away from all these options, these strings of events. In doing so, I’m preventing something from opening up. There is one exception that I make, however, and that is a string of events connected to a glass of water that is presented to me.

It seems innocuous enough. My initial feeling is that because the glass of water has been sitting around, it has to be stale. But the person who is trying to present it to me assures me it is not.

I take a drink and am surprised that the water is cool and refreshing. I realize that my reluctance to accept any of these strings of events has become a form of withdrawal. So now the image shifts into a portrayal of this withdrawal and I find myself sitting in a room in a tenement house.

The room I’m in is not much. The door is cracked open slightly and I can hear a lot of activity and noise from the hallway and other rooms. Everything seems to be going haywire around me, so I have blocked myself off from it.

Even though the door is open, I have created a barrier so that others know they shouldn’t come in. I have no intention of going out. My sense is that what is around me is kind of poisonous or harmful to my nature, or just something I need to stay away from.

I feel groggy, as if I am in some sort of stupor. I’m waking up late. Everything outside the room is in commotion. And in the toe of my shoe, crammed in there at the very tip, is something I’m refusing to look at. I’m convinced it’s poisonous.

I’m also convinced that it has something to do with the people who live in this building. I don’t want them to have any effect on me whatsoever. All this struggling is contributing to my being unable to come out of my trance. I’m groggy, tired, withdrawn, and out of touch with the rest of the place around me – it irritates me.

But something comes over me at some point and I reach in and take out this compressed object that is in the tip of my shoe. It looks lifeless, black, and dead. I stare at it and imagine that it resembles a decomposed mouse (that’s my active imagination). It’s looks more like a balled up piece of rag.

Just the thought of it makes me cringe a bit and I consider it kind of poisonous. I do not want to smell it; it could kill me or just be really unhealthy. So I flush this smelly and poisonous thing down the toilet.

So what is this dream showing me? Tomorrow we will open up its deeper meaning and follow the trace of subsequent dream images later in the night. In this way we can get a better sense of how our dreams prod us, nudge us, to come to a recognition about aspects of ourselves that we may not normally acknowledge in our waking life. In this way, dreams offer us the possibility of helping us evolve personally, saving us from having to learn things the hard way, i.e., in our waking lives.

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