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Jeane: In this dream it feels like I am in the U.S., but I am a woman who is from India. My friends are also from India – our skin is dark.

I am married. It feels like a group of us go to visit another friend. He lives in an area near his work; his living quarters are more public than usual. It is near a transport station, just off to the left, and there is a lot of glass so his living quarters are not very private.

It feels as though times are unsettled. There is something going on in society that is similar to McCarthyism where people can accuse other people and have them arrested just on casual suggestions. Some people believe this is going on, but others don’t.

I am drawn to this man we are visiting, even though I am married. I go there to sleep with him at his place. Perhaps someone could even walk by the windows and see that I am there – perhaps one of his co-workers.

Then it feels like my friends come to warn me that one of his co-workers is going to have him arrested for some offense – like he is being accused of being a communist or something else.

Neither of us can really believe it, yet they do come to arrest him and, perhaps, also arrest me and others I’ve associated with. They take us out the door; there are some transport buses and people walking by. I try to appeal to some passersby that this is a miscarriage of justice and we haven’t done anything wrong; maybe one of his co-workers is just jealous or envious because we are involved. I do not know. I try to get them to see this is just a set up. However, people are afraid to act.

Next the dream does a sideways shift: It feels like I’m standing outside with others (I don’t know if it’s the same people or not). I am participating in a game that involves crossing the highway to get somewhere.

It’s like a video game. When I first step onto the highway someone pulls me back because something comes zipping by me. You have to time when to step out, and then you step onto a moving island that is traveling down the highway.

There is a puzzle box that, when you move it, takes on different shapes and opens up. It feels like I’m also trying to get the people who are traveling with me to come along.

So, I’m trying to open this puzzle box, which will suddenly change its shape and the shape of everything around me. If I can open up the right puzzle box at the right time then there are more ways of traveling across the highway.

It’s hard. Sometimes the box just opens up in odd ways and none of us are quite sure what to do, but you still have to take that risk and go out on the highway and travel down on that island and open up another puzzle box and try to figure out what this shape means and what that is leading to.

John: What you are doing here has to do with an energetic that has built up to a particular point where it’s now able to do something differently – in a dynamic way – in the outer. It’s trying to open up, like the puzzle box, even though you are not sure what to do with it. The actual theme of the dream has to do with using a type of consciousness to affect matter.

In your dream you are extending an energetic of yourself into a new capacity. When you do that, part of you perceives it as a violation of the established order of things. That’s because you are not embracing the energetic as natural to you – you feel it is separate from you. So it becomes an inner struggle.

What the new energetic is manifesting appears to you as something that is not allowed, something that must be wiped out. In other words, you are having a dream that has to do with addressing an energetic, but instead of letting the energetic do what it can do, you interpret it as a threat; it feels personal, but it isn’t, really.

So that conflict in you creates the disruption in the dream (the threat of arrest). In the outer world, everything that is done is perceived to have a result. But internally, deep down, you know it doesn’t have to be that way: an energetic can just be there in and of itself.

You are not able to bring this through as just a pure energetic; you are only able to carry it through as a disruptive image. For some reason this is how you are interpreting the energy, rather that just seeing it and working with it and allowing it to change things without having to do any thing yourself.

Because, ultimately, the energetic you are struggling with is perfect and natural by itself, and you want what it can do in life.

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Jeane: So, continuing with the dream (see The Conversation), it feels like I’ve gotten to D.’s house and K. is there with her son. I’m in one of those moods where you just have to accept things and let them play out. I’m just glad to see K., but they were all planning to travel somewhere. We start out and I’m still not sure of the relationship between K. and D., who is traveling with the Native American man as I said. It seems like there’s at least one younger boy with us besides K.’s son, who’s older, and when we stop for the night it feels like we’re on this mountain near a plateau that has a series of caves that connect in a circle. K. and her son and I seem to be staying in one cave, and the others, D. and the Native American man, are staying in another cave. Then it seems as though there are some other caves where maybe some boys are staying. It feels like at some point I become aware that there’s someone out there who’s a murderer and he particularly murders young boys. I become aware on some level that it’s probably the Native American man.

John: He’s a murderer?

Jeane: I thought he was an Indian Chief or something, but no, he’s a murderer who has fooled everybody. The men aren’t around right then, so I go out and find a place where they have some guns, and these guns look a little bit more like automatic weapons or rifles or something, so I get two of them and I take them back and give one to K. and her son. She takes the one I’m most familiar with. I have to take the gun I’m not familiar with because she only knows how to operate the other one. I go out and I start searching through the caves to get the boys.  When I enter the cave where the Native American man had been staying I find a very young boy and he might be dead… I can’t seem to rouse him.

John: A young boy was killed?

Jeane: Yes.

John: Where did the young boy come from?

Jeane: He was just traveling with us. There are a few young boys in the caves in the mountain. The caves go in a circle. I go into another cave and someone is covered up under a sheet. I kind of prod at them with the gun because it might be the Native American man, but it’s somebody else I haven’t seen. There’s a cave with a young boy in it who’s okay. I’m just trying to check and rouse anybody and get them all back together in one place. We’ll see if we can find D. or whomever so K. and I have a little more protection or something. Meanwhile, I’m walking around the caves. That’s all I recall of that dream.

John: So this is a really good dream because yesterday we saw your attention establishing how you identify the various parts of yourself; here there is something about K. that’s exciting and refreshing. You put her on a bit of pedestal because it’s a feminine aspect of you that you’re more at ease with. As you go about in life you’re able to relate to her in a more fluid way than with D., who represents a masculine aspect that is still a bit of a mystery – you’re still somewhat out of touch with it. For some reason, that’s what is stirring up this element of fear, or a murder even, that is caught up in the aspect of the young boy, who is also you, an inner part that has a quality of acceptance. In other words, an older man usually is a quality of something ancient and harder to reach. A young boy is a quality that has to do with something that touches you but is repressed from being fully out there on the surface, and we see that it’s being killed or affected by this Indian man who represents the greater whole.

You have now changed the triad to where you aren’t holding onto anything. In other words, you’re forgiving and gracious, you don’t have the judgment you showed in the earlier part toward K., whom you recognize is an overflow of yourself. You do however have a concern that hasn’t sorted itself out regarding the part of you that’s repressed, that has a soft, youthful heartfulness to it. Of course, there’s something in the greater overall that will affect what you try to hold as precious as an inner quality (your idea of a softness, or heartfulness, represented by the young boy).  All of this is connected – understanding that dynamic is connected – to being able to grasp the meaningfulness of the part of yourself called D.

So again this is kind of a complicated dynamic. Everyone has a kind of Rubik’s cube in the way they grasp or understand something. In other words, you’ve taken a dilemma and developed an acuity where you do something quite noble: you’ve separated yourself out so you don’t put any of this trouble on the aspect of you that is K. You recognize that you’re dealing with a state of ignorance that has to do with the more innocent side of yourself (the young boy) and the masculine side of yourself (D.). The natural understanding of these aspects is being affected, being killed so to speak, by the greater wholeness, and this is confusing to you. Where does this leave you with the aspect of you that is D.?

I actually think there’s a pattern unfolding here. The K. aspect came out okay, yet the process was affecting the more sensitive part that you’re guarding inside. When that is killed by the greater wholeness…  I honestly think that the net effect is that D. becomes like K. then, and is an aspect that is accepted as part of the overall.

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