Posts Tagged ‘veils keep us from reality’

85b28eIt’s an interesting conundrum: we often like the aliveness feeling we get when we are in an extreme state – fear, passion, thrills – but the extreme state is not something that anything else in the universe seeks. Everything seeks equilibrium in their environment, and a state of balance. And, also interesting, is that if we were to truly find a state of balance within us, what that would allow us to connect to, energetically, universally, would be the most thrilling thing imaginable – but without the imbalance. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: So, to start off with, it’s like I couldn’t go very deep in my dreaming, because it was as if I had something dragging at my attention. Something that was bothering me, like yesterday was an awkward day, so it was easy to pick up rubbish that could have and hold an effect upon you.

So, to start off with, I notice that that which draws my attention as being significant, in other words, by buying into it, which leads then to a veil. This is just how one takes and stigmatizes themselves. Or, as a way of putting it is, I’m talking about a connection that I have in my nature that has, you might say, formulated, or found, itself on my breath.

I’m looking at this and noticing that this is limiting my ability to let go, and be more open and still. I have to get beyond such an identification, because the identification, this quality compromises the heart. And everyone, from time to time, has something in their pent-up nature that comes out in an outer way that causes them to get cluttered, or wayward, or identifying with some part of the breath.

When the heart is discombobulated, that’s the key to being able to denote that you’re lost in some aspect of the breath, because generally when you’re lost in the aspect of the breath, the mirroring process, by which something is right or not right, is what the heart does. The heart reveals, or portrays, the veils – if it is feeling heavy, or something.

So, last night, I wasn’t able to travel within like I usually do because I was overwhelmed and my heart was caught up, veiled, in a habituation. So the significance is, whenever something like this happens it is because I am affected by the sensitive, and reactive, side of the breath that is irrationally oriented when the spaciality isn’t in a stillness.

The part of the breath I am talking about, that readily goes off into a tangent, is the in-breath. Of course, you can have it start with the deviation in terms of the timing, which is the out-breath thought, which isn’t embraced because it isn’t still and it has a momentum, and then you get the reaction on the in-breath. But technically, that is if you’re in touch with the in-breath that way, otherwise you just beat yourself around with the out-breath.

So, when like this, it means I haven’t intertwined the spatial in-breath with the time-oriented out-breath, and have lost touch with the emptiness and stillness deeper within. I’m shown this because time and space are an area of consciousness that has to be taken into account in my overall beingness – if I am to be in sync with the stillness.

To access the inner levels of my beingness, this being an aspect of the in-breath spaciousness, is what I’m looking at, along with the out-breath timing, as the dilemma I didn’t resolve, or haven’t resolved, as needed.

And then there’s the awkwardness that I am denoting in the environment, that is implying a breakdown between the inner and outer, as expressed by the principles of time and space upon the breath being out of sync. Likewise you could say that this is also the state of a being out of balance, in terms of timing, with the spaciousness.

When I am out of balance with the timing and spaciousness, the alignment needed for a pristine focus and attention is lacking. And then you got to be careful with this idea of pristine focus and attention because that generally leads you again into reflections because that becomes like a tool – and you don’t have any tools but the emptiness.

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lxtptcIt’s virtually impossible to truly understand something without experiencing it. And in religions, and on spiritual paths, we constantly hear about the oneness of life, and are told that the world around us is an illusion. This cannot be grasped intellectually. It must be experienced – and that is done through higher connections. Because what we do experience every day, automatically, are our lower connections to whatever energies are “in our neighborhood,” or generated by our thoughts and intentions. It is higher connections that let us see what is real, because they have the intelligence and flow we are seeking. And higher connections come when we begin to live our lives for something greater than our selves. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: I didn’t meditate as long as I usually do. I came out of it after about an hour, but it took a couple of hours to write this up, and I didn’t write up much because I kept going in and out of it going somewhere and coming back after half an hour, going somewhere, all in the process of trying to write this up.

So we live in an outer world in which the essence is hidden. Philosophers and other pundits speak of an inner essence behind outer manifestation. To be able to see through the projections is the challenge everyone is presented with in physical existence.

To not do so is the condition of being veiled from our inner beingness. I feel a huge weight of relief lifted as I notice that I am able to see, and denote, the hidden inner reality within the outer projections. And I can do that from within myself.

I may think that what I am able to do is easy but, over the years, I have come to know that this isn’t so. I may not be able to say much to the parts of myself still in the clutches of the veils. The reason is, seeing is believing. In other words, if you don’t see it, then how can you believe it? In other words, you can’t describe something that isn’t experiential or something, or relatable from a sense like that – even on an inner sense.

Until you see through the projections, the philosophy of the pundits, with regards to a oneness, is just another projection. So a person remains lost in veils of outer projections until they are destined to awaken within. To not be free of the clutches of the senses, and therefore unable to see through personal projections to what is real, is what physical manifestation is about for the lower self. For those who make the breakthrough, there is an actual awareness of the soul of life within all of manifestation. That’s kind of the dream.

Now what caused the dream to go around and around, was inside of myself it’s like the breath just gets really full, and the in-breath races into a home somewhere as I suddenly, from within the dream, have an aspect of an outer – and I see right through the outer to what it’s about. And the outer has a shadowy aspect, or it has a shimmer aspect, that is a murk within the outer.

That’s what I saw. Now you don’t open your eyes and see that in the physical, but when you see that within then you know that the outer is a projection, and within that outer is something coming from inner – and that’s what is meaningful. And to be able to be in a condition of your being so that that can happen, well, you just don’t do that in the outer, you do that on the inner when you totally let go, when you don’t have the senses or something creating the personal moving around.

So, this is an unusual dream that I wasn’t sure I’d be able to understand. So in the dream I’m going into an area of light from dark. I mean you can almost create the image, a visual, that would be something like this.

Let’s say you’re walking by kind of a place that you’re unfamiliar with, and you decide to turn and go over to it. And the place has a lot of light to it, and when you turn to go over to it you are kind of darkish in your demeanor. And as you go over to it, what you see is it’s a wheel, and instead of prongs that stick out in the front, the prongs stick out going down and it’s like a grinder, it grinds in.

And so then there are a couple people, a woman, there and you have to pay her to go and do whatever this is about. And so I hand her a bill. She takes the bill and immediately shows the bill to the guy; it’s like there’s something unusual about the bill.

And so I knew that they came out with new bills, and so I ask her what she’s looking at, and suddenly I see on this bill a number that has been embossed that’s really dark. It stands out. I hadn’t noticed it. I mean at first glance it jumps right out at you, and it’s smudged. And so as I see this I’m thinking oh, well she’s taking it because the printer smudged this in some fashion, but I notice that what it is is it’s a number and the lower numbers on the bills are worth a lot.

And it’s not a lower number, it’s a six digit number. You know, in order for it to be worth something it would have to be like a number from like say 1 to 100, and then it would be worth 1,000s of dollars as a $1 bill or whatever it was. And so I don’t get it, and then I wake up.

And then I realize that there was something else about this bill. I saw it at the time, but didn’t know what to make out of it. There was just the number, and I think I kind of commented, isn’t there supposed to be another image on this bill? There was no other image, and usually the image that you have on a bill is an image of a president or something. There was no president embossed, nor was there a scene of the Statue of Liberty or anything like that that you might have on a bill. It was just money print with a stamp there, without the image.

So the comment was, is I was not going to wake up and write up the dream, but I heard a sound within that brought me back. So I took this as a sign to write up what was happening, thinking that it would have to pop through then.

And so the energetic feel is that, in this dream, it seems I am transitioning into a new place within – and I am doing it in a nonchalant, indifferent way. However, what is happening is drawing an attention that has a meaningfulness in that the process is an atypical transitioning.

So then to try to understand the atypical transitioning, I try to describe the scenario that could’ve influenced this because one’s influenced by the inflections of things in the outer. That’s why it’s very important in terms of how you carry yourself in the outer, because you leave yourself receptive to things that then can inflect, and not be veiled out, if you’re all oppressed or something estranged in the outer. Sometimes then that creates a denseness that keeps something from flickering through.

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ima0Here is a dream that, in the listening to it, or the reading of it, it feels very familiar. And, perhaps, that’s because this experience happens to us in subtle ways all the time. What the imagery is pointing to are the lost opportunities, or doorways that once were open now being closed to us. And, yes, as the image shows, we can rationalize the moment away, but we may never know what that path may have made possible. These lost moments usually happen when we override the natural instincts of our flow with fears or defense mechanisms. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John:  This reminds me of my second dream, in that your dream looks at things from an overall standpoint, in terms of how something is able and meant to be in relationship to you reaching a point where, not only are you everything, but you’re everything in a nothingness way. In other words, you’re not carrying any nuance or anything and, as a consequence, there is something more.

Well, in my dream, because I have this quality or mannerism inside of myself that needs to think that I have to figure something out, or that masculine quality instead of just that feminine greater super overallness you could call that, because now you’re able to bring in other squares to the whole that weren’t there before.

In my dream I have this sense, it’s a knowingness deep within, that I have a place where I can sit in a program that is located somewhere up more towards the front. Well, I’ve been a little bit cavalier about it, taking it for granted, and not being attentive to this place apparently, because I see myself having come to the program and, for the moment, temporarily in my opinion, I have taken a seat near the back.

Now, I feel I could go up to the front because the program hasn’t started yet, and could sit in that seat or be in that place, but everyone else is sitting now and that could be a distraction – so I feel that it’s okay to bide my time.

Well, you’re handed then a questionnaire that you fill out, that has to do with where you’re at, and so I answer the questions on the questionnaire, but there are certain questions that I have to skip and I would know those answers, and they would be automatic and easy for me, if I were in this other seat. And so I feel that because I sat in the back, I don’t need to address those other questions. I’m not going to be judged, or graded, or dealt with in relationship to that, anyway.

And so what happens is, I become acclimated to that seat in the back, and those questions, those other questions that were there are important, but I can never answer them again. They never come up again. In fact, they fall away from my ability to even remember what those answers are for those questions, because all of it falls away and disappears as if it never was.

I even find myself then, when that happens, rationalizing, based upon appearance, how it is that things are. And so at one point I had maybe a different sense of what this program was about. Now, in the back, I have the sense that I’m not missing anything, that it’s something defective, or it’s a subject matter that’s not that big a deal, or something. I have a way of dismissing it away.

And so then the question comes up: will I ever be able to get that back? Do I realize what has fallen away? And the reason all of this came up, and the reason it was like this, is because I had adopted an attitude. I was carrying a mannerism. It was that mannerism that kept me from being attentive to where I could have been, and was naturally designed to be, up in the front.

And so now that other falls away, and whatever was part of that other, which had a whole other magic to it, and it had a quality to it of a sense and a knowingness of things, more acutely defined.

In my case the deeper knowingness and the clarity of something just dropped away, without me even noticing, or realizing, that I had lost it. And I was sitting and so it was almost like I was seeing the memo and feeling a little bit of the anguish and pain of having taken on a mannerism, or a mood, or a tone, and the result of that left me in this condition. It was almost like I had done something that had set up a reverb reaction that resulted in this being the effect.

And, of course, what I wrote for a meaning is, this is what happens when a person takes a demeanor that extricates themselves from an intended result. A flatness sets in first. With that comes a veil. Before the changes are over, everything seems to accommodate where it is that you find yourself now at. It is as if the other was never intended, because the result that now is before you has become acclimated on many levels. For example, in this dream scenario, I reach the point that what was there up front for me isn’t deemed important anymore. It’s like I’ve talked myself into believing this because, without looking at the other aspects of the questionnaire in the way that one could come to know and deal with them, you naturally fill in that absenteeism space of yourself in a rationalized way.

The aspects in the questionnaire that have to do with the place that I had a sense of within, are gone, so there is no way for me to know, now, how I am or where I am in this other place. In other words, in a way for me to know what things truly are all about, because I’m off to one side. The life force energetic has rearranged itself to accommodate where it is that I now am. It’s always been there, and you can actually go beyond that life force energy apparently, and for the masculine you have a wisdom or an insight to things, and for the feminine you have this little magic thing bringing in other aspects to the good.

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