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bridge-cosmic_bridge3In waking life we can act a part, or play a role; we can seem to be something we are not. The energy worlds don’t work like that. For us to truly embody compassion – and radiate it – we have to have genuine compassion in us. And it is the radiation of what we embody that is our true portrait in the world. That is what is meant when it is said: be the change you want to see in the world. Be it; live it; embody it. No amount of pretense can fake it, and it isn’t a part-time gig. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: So in my meditation dream I am trying to get others to understand that in making decisions there is an aliveness of all parts of myself in everything that exists. Because I am in everything that means that whatever I do affects everything around me.

So I am posing the question, in other words in the environment that I’m in, amongst those who don’t quite have this same sense, that don’t have the sense even, that I have because they’re used to doing things in an outward way that they consider has more value, and a little more democratic or something like that. And they have their values all caught up in things like that.

So I’m asking the questions, how do I vote, or make a decision in a democratic society which sees everything to be separate – when that isn’t actually so? And, of course, I’m posing this as something as if they should know this, and they don’t know this. So, consequently, I’m up against their perspective that each a person has to account just for themselves. They are just one vote; that this is what works.

Well, I realize that’s a huge barrier, maybe I can figure out how to break it down. I had taken too big of a gulp here, that everything is intertwined or whatever is kind of where I’m coming from to begin with, but I mean they’re still coming from the standpoint that everything is separate.

So how do you have a conversation? Suddenly I realize that there are instances in which a person can have two different opinions, and may have two different approaches to a subject. In which case, shouldn’t that be good for a half vote?

So I argue that maybe you don’t have to take into account all of it, but what about a half vote? In other words, can I get them to understand that they can see themselves broken up a little bit in this way where you can have kind of a divided approach? And so I point out the instances where this can happen and I cite some examples and, although this is a difficult concept to establish, because I’m able to cite a precedent for it I’m able to get this part understood.

That is the meditation dream. In my particular case, that greater wholeness or whatever is something that resonates as if it’s in my bones. In other words, I’m just not able to be just totally natural. A person who’s able to be totally natural really, really totally natural, doesn’t actually even need to meditate because, somehow or another, they’re in sync with the way the alignment of things is unfolding.

But that’s not my case. I really, really struggle to catch up and recognize that there is something triculating that I can sense in my bones, or I could sense how everything is intertwined and whatnot. And so I’m broken down into all of the piece-meals to try to get there, instead of just the natural “in it” flow.

And so I bring this kind of energetic down, that can really make one kind of crazy, and I try to get it to sort itself out in the outer. And so I struggle with the appearances from this echo space, in other words trying to get the echo space across in spite of the appearances.

So, in the dream, I am shown that although I am becoming more and more able to recognize, function, and see things more in terms of an overall aliveness in life, that this is not true for others who only have the experience of their senses to work with.

But it is becoming easier and easier for me to relate to life like that but others do not share this… in other words, this isn’t necessarily echoing in others. Others, the degree to which they’re caught up in the outer, is a flow that has them immersed with having created a whole sorting-out in relationship to their mind and their senses.

They haven’t caught up to this triculating in their bones kind of thing, nor are they living in a naturalness in which you get to a point where it just seems to evolve to where you’re helping others just out of the blue because you just caught up with the completeness that just naturally flowed that you somehow took in properly.

In this instance, for me, I’m just going to have to accept that although I may have a different perceptive awareness, that this doesn’t mean that mainstream society automatically gets the inkling of it just because that’s where I’m coming from. In other words, in order for them to get the inkling, there’s something more in the feminine that’s needed, but we don’t go there in this part of the dreaming.

So I’m surprised that the mainstream is that out of it and, just because I’m becoming more and more oriented in this regard, I guess the problem that exists is I tend to forget that there was a time when this wasn’t so. So I need to reflect, or inflect, upon those parts of myself that are still in the veil.

If I’m not able to do this, then that means I, too, could end up having to relate to life in a distorted and misaligned way, and find myself subject to being affected by others as if they are separate from me.

This can’t happen. I can’t do this. It’s gotten to the point where maybe before I would have dipped in and out of this kind of illusion, but now it’s getting harder and harder because I know that it doesn’t work that way. This is why I’m able to be in a setting of energy that is uncomfortable.

And so because I realize that it doesn’t work that way, meaning that the way everyone else has designed and placed themselves you have people who live in environments that feel comfortable to them in the environment because they made this separate distinction. You have people that belong to philosophies and religions because that’s what feels comfortable to them.

And people kind of associate with themselves in these various categories and, consequently, they remain trapped in that kind of collective attachment. But I seem to have let go of all of that where I could be okay in any kind of setting. This is what I am starting to catch up with in terms of recognizing that I’ve changed. Most people cannot.

Most people still need to work within the confines of a safe space. And they’re comfortable in their different motifs because they’re holding onto their self images as being who they are. If I did this, I would have to pick and choose what part of society I could live in. In other words, I’d have to do the same thing.

I can’t do that because I’m in everything, I’m unable to cut off these other parts of myself. I have to include them. And I’m surprised life is comprised of so many different ways of being, religions to follow, economic systems that are each deemed relevant where they’re found and not relevant somewhere else, and so on, which creates the confusion over who we are.

In other words, because I’m starting to see that I’m identifying with an aliveness that is all about, that I’m not separate from it, and I’m not effected by the differentialities that the outer has gotten into by misconstruing through reflective appearances which has then created their support systems in the physical through a sense of duality.

And as I’m finding that I’m in a wholeness, I’m also finding that only by a certain energetic presence, that I’m able to embody, am I able to uphold this truth. Otherwise, I would get caught in all of that reflectively, too. And I’m realizing that I can’t say this. My words need to come across vibrationally for this to be accepted, in other words, something behind the words, or something in my nature needs to do the communicating.

I can’t explain to someone why it is, in the collective mannerism that they’re caught in, in the particulars, because they have taken and made it all make sense in terms of the beliefs that they have, the values they have, they’ve got it all twined together. So if I try to correlate and relate that way, my words would only touch the mind and senses of how things are in the outer, and there would not be a common ground.

So in my dream I was defining the bridge that needs to be crossed, that is the only way this inflects upon a misaligned collective. And it’s the only way that you can maintain an unwavering energetic focus that comes from within. In other words, the only way that it works is you have to maintain this unwavering energetic focus that comes from within – and then it inflects upon the misaligned collective.

But if you try to speak and direct and talk to the collective about starting from the collective standpoint, you might be able to create flickers; if they don’t catch the flickers, they don’t get it, and they continue to understand in an outer capacity way.

And if I try to make it make sense to them by going to where they’re at, I then am giving up my sense of who I am because this would be approach going in the wrong direction, a direction that isn’t real.

The outer reality base is just lost in trying to make senses out of outer reflections, and I know that it’s lost, and you can’t take what is lost and work with something else from a lost way of talking about it in order to somehow or another get beyond it – because those conditions, that manner of reflection, always works with separation and you have to get beyond the veils of separation in order to touch the inner flow.

And so the sad thing is that life without the connection to the inner flow… it can’t help itself. It just formulates its own values and identities that go along with the way it paints its illusion, or its view of life.

So I may be getting more and more able to see this as strange, but others cannot get through the veil and therefore remain in the warring brother mentality of us and them.

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creative-manifestation1In these dream images, John is struggling with breaking through the barriers of creation. What are they? Creation here is taken to mean all that is in physical manifestation. This struggle is triggered by an inner longing to make a deeper connection, yet the veils of the physical are not so easily lifted. Still, as we let go of our attachments to the outer, we find that the greatest freedom is within. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: And so in my meditation dream, I take and go off into having to contend with that which is emerging. There’s the emergence of an inner sense of a place, within, where I am able to be free of those self-limiting inhibitions that I carry in a masculine way. 

When I say I carry it in a masculine way, I mean that’s the way of saying that there are these alternatives and whatnot that one can try to deduce rationally, logically, mentally in life. And I know that this other overallness and plane exist, but getting there is the issue.

I see myself as aspiring to this state, which is a state that I can feel in the bones, or you might say that to some degree intuitively identify with, even though I can’t put my finger on it, which is to say that even though I don’t know it, because I haven’t brought it through, I am able to tell it presently and that I, by the fact, kind of almost as a reflective fact, by the fact that I am separate from this space within, just feeling it in the bones in other words. 

It is as if I am hoping and hanging back in my being because I can tell that this place exists. In other words, if I didn’t know this place existed, there are certain things that I would probably do in the outer that kind of appease the mental condition and simplify how things are noodling out there, or appear to, just based upon outer conceptualization. 

But when I feel this state, I know that whatever I would be trying to do to appease that it would be hypocritical or… well, it just would be rude to that space – even though it hasn’t come through yet. 

So this ancient imprint memory is what I’m now going to call that space, in terms of what I seek as possible. In terms of that, I have the opinion that what I feel is possible I am trying to make come through or corresponding in other words to how the outer sense mind are able to come to know something even more in terms of this awakening within. 

In other words, I’m going back and forth trying to hold onto this, trying to say it, trying to describe it because I can pull it through that way, so I keep glimpsing and grappling with this space as an ominous vibration. And it’s ominous because the outer and whatnot is the apparent as it sits within seeking to reach and come through. 

Because I’m not there and aspiring to this place that I know as an idealist is magnetically reeling me in, because when you feel it in your bones you know you’re falling into it too. There is the fear that happens that I get pulled over for speeding, because I don’t have good boundary controls. 

That was a strange image that just jumped in. In other words, when you’re sitting there going back and forth and back and forth, and you don’t have a good stability in either area, other shit can happen.

So I know that the state that keeps you confused and can give you the step-back setback vibrationally, I know that the state I am in is ill equipped and disjointed, meaning the current state that I’m in in the outer, is ill equipped and disjointed from the perspective I need.

I see myself, as conditions currently exist, mired in the forces of manifestation. I also know that this is very slow and that I reside in a state that is a huge step back from that which is possible. I know this from a sense of a greater overallness, which is echoing in my being as a sense in my bones, so to speak, that I need to reach – so I go to town. 

In other words, I leave where I’m at and I go to town where town is a little faster. I drive into town going real fast but have to suddenly slow down in this town to get to where my newfound bearings resonate. 

I’m looking for the name of an establishment in this town where I know that it is possible to simply set aside the mental aspects of the countryside. I can even describe how it is in this inner place in terms of what wants to awaken. When I go into town I can distinguish from the countryside in other words. 

I have carried this controlled waiting for so long that glimpses to what is possible from the other side, or a place not confined by the barriers of creation, resonate more and more as I’m waking up within.

I can tell for example that to experience this place I have to let go of that which has me being stuck in a shell. It’s like a tight box of myself. The journey into this state is not possible based upon my mental perceptions – at least I can’t see how to do it.

If it can be done, the dream’s saying that that has to all shift because it’s in the way. I can feel how this other state holds me in this small box of myself, and that the state that I need to go to simply defies what my mind is able to hold onto and I can’t help but notice that that is simply how it is. 

In other words, you might want to bring this other along with you or, in a sense, have both there in the same level of consciousness – but that doesn’t occur. There is that part and then there is this other part deep within.

And then I have this dream that I’m looking for a person by the name of Paula. I want to introduce Paula to a friend. As I go to find Paula, and again this is still working within the context that something has to be different in terms of life because of the way I feel something in my natural nature, even though I can’t put my finger on it. It is trying to awaken.

So this is a dream that’s still triggering, only this time I’m sleeping instead of trying to meditate sleep. This is more of images and a storyline, as opposed to the other which tends to be more vibrational. 

So Paula is not in her usual place or whereabouts. In other words, she lives in a certain spot and I go there and I can’t find her. And, of course, in this dream I know that she’s not there because she’s actually more free form this space. She is suddenly more free from this space.

And that’s why I need to find her because she associates with that which is more free. Or, the way I put it in the dream, this is a part of the excitement about finding her because she is going to represent to me something so much more. 

So I’m trying to see if she is in the library, the pool area, the workout room, where she’s broken free and is getting into an animation of herself as I probe the possibilities of this greater spaciousness. 

And the meaning is, like the first dream, this dream is indicating that I am seeking to catch up with the change that is afoot.

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In today’s dream, Jeane describes an image that raises a fundamental question: What is the reason for life? Within that question is a fundamental choice: Do we live this life for our selves (satisfying our ego), or are we meant to live it for a greater purpose within the Whole? (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

 Jeane: The next image was a little harder for me to pull out, but it feels like I’m going somewhere. It feels like maybe it’s a parade where they’re selecting Miss America or something like that. It’s going to have a beauty contest involved in it.

On my way there I seem to pick up the responsibility for this little girl. I have a friend that I think comes to help, too. The little girl seems like she’s come from a very privileged home, and is very naïve or inexperienced about certain things.

Rather than have to carry her the whole way, I decide to let her ride a bike. But I just have the parts of the bike, and I start putting it together, and it has these little copper knobs I have to figure out how to connect one part to the other and then it becomes a whole bike.

So I get the bike together – it’s actually a tricycle – but then I realize this girl had come from such a privileged background she actually doesn’t know how to ride it. So then it leaves me with a dilemma of maybe trying to get her to ride it now and then, but actually carrying her and the tricycle to the parade.

I think on the way there I have a couple of stops. I remember at one stop there’s a man that sits down and starts talking to us. He has a uniform on and even though he has a certain light about him, I’m kind of put off because I have the charge of this little girl and you don’t want little kids to talk to strangers, you know.

Then there’s another instant where I have to stop briefly at my house and have my friend watch her while I take a shower. Then it feels like we finally get to wherever the parade and the contest will be.

John: Well, it’s like looking at an older side of yourself and a younger side of yourself. In other words, you make things out of matter – the one element that’s important to making things industrially, it is considered the industrial component to making things out of matter, is copper.

The older part of yourself has learned how to function, and is functioning, in the outer world as if you can do this stuff literally. As if you can make things out of images and reflections, in other words. It is a little bit… goes around and around in circles as part of deluding one’s self, but you can do that.

The younger part of you is a part of yourself that doesn’t know how to ride the bicycle or the tricycle or whatever it is, because it sits in a state of innocence where it hasn’t yet bought into the inflection to the point where it indulges, and then when it indulges then it contends with what it’s like to mess around or play with the tricycle.

The older part of you thinks it has to take charge of this younger part of you that isn’t getting the memo, that hasn’t yet figured it out, that has to be taken care of. And that’s the game that goes on in life. The parents take care of the children, but the way they take care of them is they indoctrinate them into the outer.

And when a baby is born it identifies with the soul level, and it stays with that identification on the soul level until that ego starts to be developed in its nature. And then the development of that ego causes it to find its own way and mannerisms in terms of coping in the outer. And it’s said that a baby as it is in the in-between phase, is kind of in a type of protective security where it doesn’t hurt itself or fall down. It’s almost like it has a guardian angel over it, and then slowly but surely that even disappears.

And the child is supposed to have developed certain traits for coping purposes and it comes into taking this on on its own. As a consequence you then are caught in the outer. You described almost a depiction between some deep part of yourself that is able to be outside of the outer identifications, and then the part of you that has gotten caught in the identifications.

Then you’re seeing that you, in this state, are of the opinion that you have to indoctrinate those conditions upon the younger part of yourself as opposed to, what if the younger part of yourself had it right all to begin with, but is being compelled to be in the outer and adopt all of these traits as part of some sort of game or journey that the soul has to make?

If it’s a game and a journey that the soul has to make then why, what’s the reason? Well, the only reason that one can give is to gain a deeper sense of the divine, of the connection that one has to the Whole, to gain that in a more deepened awakened intimate sense.

That’s the only reason that one can think for that making sense, because otherwise it looks like a dirty rotten trick – and it’s the opposite. In other words, when you see it like that, you’re inclined to think that what’s going on is the opposite of what should be going on. And yet what’s to say that you can’t have the awareness of the essence, like the child in terms of its soul, in terms of an encompassing quality that sweeps in and takes in everything in the universe, and then also hold that, maintain that, carry that, emanate that into the outer in which you have everything all defined and confined?

Who’s to say that you can’t somehow or another do both? If you are able to somehow or another do both, then from the state that is confined and defined and identifying with things, there is a great sense of reverence and appreciation to the greater Whole of itself, that is everything.

And that would be getting closer to what is the essence. That would be the means of the essence of being able to experience that essence while in a human body, so to speak. That’s kind of the game.

That’s why following dreams is so difficult, because what you tend to see in a reflection could cause you to draw a whole different conclusion, could cause you to draw the conclusion that there is something about the child that’s amiss that has to be indoctrinated into the world that you’re in.

And what if it’s the other way around? In other words, the whole spiritual journey process is not based upon the teacher taking and showing an acuity about this, that, and the other in the outer. Instead, the teacher reflects the ability to let go of it all and therefore what comes across is a huge inner depth that is free – and that inflects across. A purity like that inflects across.

So we accept this under those conditions, but we don’t accept it when it’s portrayed as little child to us as adult, kind of thing. We find something wrong with the little child, but if we find something wrong with the little child, then why don’t we find something wrong with the teacher who takes us back to that essence?

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