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faultWhen it is said that life is an illusion, it usually refers to the idea that our attachments to our personal identities have created hundreds (or 1000s) of veils, each one adding to our separation from the whole. As we develop, we need to peel these veils away, which is the process of letting go of this physically-focused, personally-involved life, and beginning to merge with the everything else of the universe, joining in a life of service that everything else lives automatically – but that humans can only live by our choosing. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: And then in sleeping, the dream I had shows this whole lack of continuity where one is losing the note of the consequence of the blur, or the residue of things.

And in this dream, I am trying to get from where I’m at to another place. And I’m in transit, in other words. I have something I’m going to be doing at this other place the next day. And it’s like I have plenty of time to catch a bus to go over to this other place. It started like maybe in the mid to late afternoon, but now all of a sudden it’s night. And what I’ve been doing is I’ve been standing there, waiting and waiting, and, you know, maybe there’ve been others, and then there are people around and whatnot, and this bus just keeps coming and stopping and going, but it’s still going in the direction away from where I want to go.

And I just hang out and hang out and hang out, expecting that there should be a bus that will come from the opposite direction, that I can catch that will take me to where I need to get to for tomorrow, in which there’s something about tomorrow that is kind of important to me in terms of a quality of the way I can be there. It’s a precursor day, however, to a program that is going to happen the following day and it’s that program that’s really important, but I have also made tomorrow important, too, as an in-between process to it all.

But in terms of just hanging out and hanging out, and waiting for this bus and waiting for the bus, little by little I’m getting discombobulated. I’m getting out of sync. And it gets to the point where I even lose the idea of what is important or unique about tomorrow, and then start to treat tomorrow as kind of a throwaway day, when before I had it as something that had a specialness to it.

And then I also come to find out that I have been just sitting in a trance with myself, because if I had just walked around the corner, the busses have been stopping there real regularly all along going in the other direction. I was kind of like on a one-way or something, you know, where I was waiting for the bus to come. And if you go around the building to the next aspect of the block, the bus is then going in the direction that take me to where I need to go, that has the note and the mannerism that’s necessary for that, have been coming and going and coming and going regularly, I just hadn’t been paying any attention.

By having been in this malaise that I’ve been in, I slowly got to the point where I lost all of the succinctness and clarity. It just kind of got blurred out by hanging out in a mannerism that was unbecoming to how something is naturally in flow. And by doing that long enough, I got so that I became amnesic and forgetful to the flow. I still held onto something that was beckoning me, but not with the consistency that went all the way through.

It got to the point where that consistency, that mannerism, that quality that I held and hold and carry and embody and maintain, and can tell is directing me and is causing me to evolve in a particular way, it got to the point where I couldn’t even see that anymore. And when I couldn’t even see that anymore, then everything became so ordinary that in relationship to what comes next, it all became blasé.

And so, just like your dream was pointing out that there is something about the way that you are carrying yourself, whereby you are allowing yourself to fit in and melt into the environment in such a way so that you rise to the denominator of the vibration of that environment, and therefore lose a kind of clarity quality that you have to yourself that can succinctly see something, can claw its way through, or raise itself through, or penetrate what needs to be penetrated, that you lose that ability because of the way you are subordinating yourself. That’s how you’re doing it.

How I’m doing it is I’m sitting apparently in a tangent and sitting in the tangent long enough to where the effect of the tangent that I feel as a tangent, or that I feel upon myself as having taken a position and a stand, if I carry that long enough, and it vibes around and vibes around and vibes around long enough, it creates a blur. It creates a veil. It creates a lack of sight succinctness to my nature, to where I become totally dysfunctional in terms of what is meant to come next.

However, when I’m staying in an acuity to it, everything clicks. And the way I carry myself is a way that I continue to see myself, and that way that I continue to carry and see myself is meant to be holding onto something that then effectuates out with a flow that doesn’t have this wayward or confusion or kind of amnesia about it.

So, the problems that the dreams are identifying for us to look at are of a different quality nature than you would think. The aspect of you having an understanding and succinctness is something that you can then use as a clarity to help sustain who it is and how you are. That’s a masculine expression. That’s where you’re able to be clear in a particular way in terms of how you’re able to come across and make yourself known.

And my way of trying to be in flow with something, in a clarity that is naturally there, as an attuned note, that’s kind of like a container quality energy that I’m allowing that is dissipating away, that I need to have. And if I carry that, I carry that and I flow with that, as opposed to some other complexity.

Now, what your dream and my dreams have in common is they both indicate that there is something askew energetically. And the way that askew energetically works differently between you and me has to do with what you have to work on that has a masculine quality element to it, and what I have to work on that has a feminine quality element to it.

That slight deviation in the note for me is causing me to be hung out and confused in terms of how something in the overall is to unfold. That deviation in the note for you is causing you to go along with the lowest common denominators of an energetic collective vibration that is not who you really are, and therefore you’re losing the clarity to penetrate and claw your way through things succinctly. It’s going away. You’re becoming compromised by holding back.

So, what’s interesting is your dreaming and my dreaming do come to a point where the aspect that underlies it all has to do with a certain quality energetic note. It’s just that how you handle that is different than how I’m handling it. And the consequences of how you’re handling it point to one thing, and the consequences of how I’m handling it kind of point to something else. But you can even take that and point out that even that collapses and comes together, too.

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