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The Middle World

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Trinity - Jroach413
Trinity – Jroach413

There’s a certain irony in the fact that the culture and society esteem people who are excellent managers of the outer world. By that I mean the people who seem to be “winning” at life: success, wealth, fame, etc. Yet what should be held in the highest regard are those that know how to consciously manage their inner lives, because everyone else can benefit from the work they do. What is that work? Upholding and radiating into the world, through them, greater truths about life. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Jeane: Then I had a middle dream that’s a little harder for me to remember well. And in this one, I seem to be in the hometown of my maternal grandmother, and I’m visiting between two women physicians who have gone out on their own to start their own practice. They’re kind of young physicians.

And I go between a room where one of them is setting up a practice and a room where another one is setting up a practice, except it seems like a bare room. It’s almost like they’re setting up a different kind of practice than they used to have.

And I just seem to be studying what they’re setting up and how it feels. They’re in different locations and they’re a little different temperaments or types. And I’m just going to visit the office, maybe even go for a session where I’m trying to learn something from one of them, and just studying the room, and assessing whether I think this is going to work out or not.

And then it goes into another dream.

John: It sounds like a precursor dream, meaning that a certain level of insight was reached, to which a couple of different choices were made in terms of how to proceed to function, or to flow with that.

And those choices were based upon doing something in an outwardly way. And it would still be outward, it would still be, in other words, middle world or however you want to say it, you know, still within the lower-self outer, when it’s just a matter of seeing how it’s going to look, or be, or work out in relationship to the outer dynamics.

With this carried through to another level, where, say action that is responding to something that is coming from within, then it’s not a matter anymore of how it works out in the outer, because you’re using the outer and working with the outer in relationship to something much deeper, which is on the inner.

And your attention is upon that. And in order to catch up with it and hold onto your attention that’s upon that, you have to be in the outer, going through the antics of the outer. But the virtue and value comes from the correlation of both and that takes you back; it’s another way of coming back to the recognition of the door.

And so, if you’re sitting there actually wondering how it is that this or that is doing, like you know all kinds of people in your life that have unique and interesting mannerisms, and how life is working out for them is generally based or keyed to how they cope in the outer, and that’s the wrong perspective. It’s how they cope in terms of the inner dynamic; that’s what is important.

That’s where you have a change that has a quickening or an aliveness that is meaningful. You have to look at things in terms of how it awakens some sort of inner recognition. Or, to put it another way, what is it that they really prefer? They prefer to stay caught in the outer motif of things.

You break through something like that. You are incorporating qualities that take you outside of a “me, myself, and I.” You’re looking to do something that touches and affects and normalizes, equalizes, in the whole. People don’t want to do that. They like these distinctions.

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Intended Consequences

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aurafieldIt has been said that we are what we radiate. And if we consider that the energy we process and produce emanates from us into the environment, we can see how we can affect things and people without being aware of it. On a development journey, however, we can begin to consciously be aware of, and take responsibility for, our effect on what we come in contact with. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Jeane: My first dream starts out where I’m in an office, but it’s kind of an open office, trying to counsel someone. But it’s like I’m trying to counsel one person, or one person and her partner, and another couple has come in and sat down.

And they’re also really needing attention, so I’m talking to them for a minute, and their issue has to do with employment, and some training they have to take so they can get employment, and can they both go to school at the same time? 

I realize the type of school that they’re going for is just something where you have to take one brief course, maybe two, but to them it’s a big deal. I mean, this is a step towards work, and it’s not like they’re total college material, but it’s a big step for them. 

But they’re also a couple, and can they both manage to go to school at the same time? Because they both want to, and so I’m trying to help them sort that out and talk to the person who came first. It all seems a bit much, plus other people seem to keep coming.

So I suddenly have this thing where I decide to take all these people, and by now I have a large group of them, out for this excursion for the day or night. It might even be overnight. And I take them out to a place that seems like it’s on the sea, or the ocean, because there are big cliffs and hills around, as well as the water which can get quite rough, and there’s a farm there. 

And so we’re all spending that day and night at the farm, and we’re going to be doing activities there, which I seem to feel is what everybody needs.

But I remember at one point in the dream, I’ve got a lot of the group up on the hillside and I turn around and I look at the ocean, or the sea, and it’s gotten suddenly these huge waves, I mean just huge, and there are two or three of the group, and one of them, like a woman in a long dress in fact, that are out there standing like almost like riding a little raft, just like a surfboard, right in front of the huge waves and the waves are pushing them. 

You don’t know if they are going to land on shore safely, or the wave will come crashing down. It’s hard to tell. So I go back down to the courtyard. It feels like it’s going to be not too long before we’re going to be leaving. I notice one or two people are a little banged up, but they’re all okay. 

I’m having to get one out of a hayloft who is laying down, and I’m kind of trying to count and make sure I didn’t lose someone, I’m not sure about that or not, to take them all back to the city because I feel like whatever this experience is, it’s what they needed in order for their next step

John: That’s the first time you’ve had a teacher’s dream, if I can remember. The other dream indicated that you can incorporate a wholeness that has a whole pathway of inner-into-outer as an energetic – an energetic that you can embody.

You have taken a certain sight in your counseling, and you almost, like as a type of amnesia, used to use that as a practice. It had certain tools and certain techniques to it that you never thought that much about, and you did it kind of on a one-to-one basis. And it was something that unfolded as kind of a natural, somewhat sheltered, almost individualistic process.

However, that quality, which was conducted in a defined environment, is now something that has become nurtured, or developed, to a point where you can just naturally hold inside of yourself a bigger schematic. You don’t have to take and do this in kind of a one-to-one capacity.

I feel I’m doing it in a one-to-one capacity – and that gets me in trouble. You don’t ponder this sort of thing. You just realize that you take on a larger capacity of the whole thing, because other things are happening around so you just start to include it all. And then that responsibility requires you to make sure that all of that is in good hands and good care, because it’s a larger schematic.

Back when you were in your private practice, you only needed to go so far with that, in terms of a person who would come to you and you would direct them in some fashion, or give them techniques, or tools, or guidance or some sort of sense of balance in some fashion – and then you would leave it at that.

And generally a lot of it was something you could almost wash your hands of because it was part of a process in which there was a doctor and all of that sort of stuff involved. So, in a sense, it wasn’t like something you had to embody or carry.

To a certain degree you did with certain people, but you could also let go of it in other instances. And you did it in a very defined way, so that the rest of your life was able to be able to function outside of that schematic.

In this dream, wherever you seem to go, however you seem to be, you have to incorporate more of that which exists around you, and hold the responsibility for that to the degree to which you are able to effectuate or touch that. That’s a big jump. It’s almost like you just suddenly made this huge jump.

Now, I have been pondering this huge jump, actually. I just didn’t know how it would get expressed. A statement you made is an indication that something more was required in a greater overall capacity, because I know that this strains energy to do it like this, you have to be more overall in your nature, is when you said that you could walk along through the casinos and would find it interesting that a synchronicity or something that could happen when you might be near a gambler and all of a sudden they start hitting the jackpot.

And that would make you feel good that you could actually, somewhat, in your nature effectuate something like that for their sense of well being. To do that kind of activity is actually a type of black magic. You don’t mean it to be black magic, of course. The only reason it’s black magic is because you’re doing it individually. And to actually do this like you did in your practice could almost be accused of that a little bit, too, as a type of witchcraft or something – if seen in a different specter of evaluation or judgment.

However, what you are now realizing that you are to do, that I call more like a teaching quality element, is you’re able to be yourself in a greater embodied way. And so, like I said, I’ve been contemplating this because I actually do believe in some fashion, even though I can’t see the evidence of it, it’s just something that I believe, and I think this kind of works just like the principle of prayer works, where you can feel something resonating in your heart when you do something like this and it involves someone that you know, you can feel the vibration of something and that means it’s sent, however and whatever, it’s out of your hands.

But I believe that one can walk along in an area, like in the Vegas strip or whatever, and hold a particular space and that space can exude out and touch things in the greater environment. And that when you take that space, or try to take that space, back into a specific fashion, it can set off, if the masculine does this and tries to take it back into a specific mannerism, it can set off force-of-nature things – and that’s like a black magic, or unintended consequence.

So the key is, is to develop this linkage and this attunement so that as you move about you’re effectuating things in the environment that no one is aware of, maybe yourself to some degree, but not to the point where you sit there and lay out the specifics.

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The Light of the World

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John: Last night, my shoulder was hurting. In sleeping, I contend with it, or try to accommodate it, so it doesn’t wake me. Part of the reason I accommodate it is that I refuse to accept that it can’t get better. So I continue to probe beyond for a solution, and I’m attentive to this idea that there’s still hope.

I’m not having any success, but at least I find it interesting that there’s a place beyond to explore. What I’m saying is that I’m searching for an inner solution to an outer (physical) problem. I can’t let what others say hold me back. I know they mean to give me good advice, but that doesn’t resolve the problem, so I keep probing.

I suppose this is the condition, too, I find myself in, in relation to the outer world. I’m at a point where I can recognize how there can be a deeper attempt, from within, to try to touch and change things in the outer, but I don’t actually see it working.

When you get right down to the core of things, an energetic could, and is intended (in its highest development) to be able to shift and make changes. But I’m not seeing it as able to make the kind of difference that could alter or change the continuing breakdown that I see unfolding in the world today.

And yet, I also don’t believe that there’s any other way to do it, which is a matter of everyone getting more and more toward the epicenter of their being. In other words, the only thing that can affect a change at this point is a state of inner being that has a greater universal understanding and an intertwined connection to everything.

The key to this is found by getting out of the way in every regard, in terms of one’s approach to life, on a practical level. Then, with ourselves out of the way, we’ll find that we’re connected to the overall flow of things. Somehow this conscious response is capable of altering what’s unfolding. What we currently see unfolding is a consequence of the inner dynamic of the human race, as a whole, and its inability to be at this state of depth and power inside sufficient to make a difference.

Perhaps this is why it’s felt by some that there’s no longer the light of the individual. Usually there’s an energetic resource in the whole that’s like a collective mannerism in terms of a change agent, a kind of light or value that simultaneously awakens and opens, to which the individual can link and connect.

That causes things to change. But the sense is that the overall collective light, to which the individual light can connect, isn’t able to reach that kind of epiphany of awareness, that collective spark that can trump and go beyond the prevailing situation.

The hope and heartfulness that can be found in an individual can no longer find its correlation in the outer, because the outer is so strongly warped that it blocks out that essence from flickering.

Do I actually believe that, because that’s portraying a fairly hopeless scenario? If it was really that hopeless it would be like a type of dying, in which there’s no conceivable hope anymore. I think things are going to change radically, but there’s little evidence of the transitional energy that’s needed to bring humans to this change gradually – so they can handle it.

Or, perhaps, what’s meant to unfold is working at a level of nothingness and heartfulness and depth, which hasn’t been caught up with yet, it’s so subtle. And, in that, there really is the means provided in the collective flow that an individual consciousness can touch, which can trigger change.

I’m inclined to believe that that’s the case. In the past, humans as a whole had the ability to turn a little dial here, or do a little something over there, to effect a change, but that doesn’t work anymore. It only serves to postpone the agony of things to come.

So it’s easy to draw the conclusion that when the fine tuning no longer works, it’s because some light of the overall world soul has gone out. I don’t quite know how to believe that as true. Yet the situation right now in the outer, no matter how you look at it, and no matter what is done, nothing seems to be averting it.

Perhaps we’re just observers to something coming apart? It hurts to see it coming apart because there will be a lot of suffering and confusion still to come, caused by the defiance of the human to its natural awakening.

This creates a state of helplessness, where we can’t do anything. Yet I have a deep sense that something is missing in that, that it’s not necessarily the full answer. There’s still something more that’s noodling behind the outer appearances.

What that is is something new, unknown to us, and there must be those who have a better sense of this, who can see this moving about, but in an unconstellated state, still forming. But our ability to work with something in transition, that part seems to be missing. We’re not able to see how the light within can touch that, because for it to touch that there has to be a recognition, a mutuality, and the problem is in finding that.

These ideas go along with some dreams I’ve had that indicate that, because everyone believes that the outer flow of things, this outer illusion, has such a profound meaningfulness that there’s a deep problem in keeping that attachment from getting in the way of the inner coming into the outer.

The inner that needs to come into the outer can only happen through a state of emptiness or nothingness, so that really redefines, in these times, the role of a human being.

Before we were part of what could be called a kind of co-creator mode. Now I’m not sure just how this is meant to be because attempts to figure out how to define that, in order to figure out how to be in a state that’s conductive to that, seem to be out of reach.