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house-collapsepNo matter how well intentioned we are as we make our spiritual journey, there will come a point where we have to break through some spiritual illusions that we have held as we made our way. It’s natural because we can’t truly understand the way of something until we get deeper into it, when we are able to say, “Aha, so that’s how it is.” This dream shows this process in the dreamer, where a meeting with the queen awaits, but first the “family house” has to be torn down to make way for what needs to be built in the next phase. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Jeane: Then I have a dream in which there’s someone I’ve known since childhood, who’s planning her wedding, and I’m trying to facilitate. The fiancé is around, and other friends are around, and initially I can only do so much because at some point, around the time of the wedding, I have to go to England to do something with the queen there, go to court, do something.

So I’m doing what I can, but in the process of planning her wedding she’s getting really neurotic, even driving the fiancé nuts. At one point he comes to lay down next to me. He’s like just looking for some affection, or some kind of connection, and then that makes her nuts. I’m just trying to keep everything neutral, but getting a little fed up with the whole thing, too.

But it feels like her getting mad at me kind of gives her the energy to get refocused and start working again on what needs to be accomplished for the wedding. On the other hand, because she’s mad at me, now you feel like she doesn’t really even want me at the wedding – even though I found out I’m not going to be out of town after all.

Then I turn around and I go over to look at the house where I’ve been living, which is my family house, and it feels like I’ve been living on the lower levels of the house. In the upper levels are some monks who have been living there. And as I look at the house, something causes it all to start collapsing from the top where all the monks live. And it’s just kind of flowing down through, kind of like when you see a type of flow you get with a landslide.

It’s not like I have a sense anybody’s necessarily hurt, but obviously I can’t go back to the house. And this is causing someone who’d been observing the whole dream all the time to kind of reach out to me a little bit, instead of get wrapped up in all the types of strange emotions that have been going on with everybody else.

But I also have to get somewhere, so I go down an alleyway, or I’m going to down a street and I’ll be coming back to the house but, as I go down the street, I suddenly see that running rampant over the street are these prehistoric animals. Some of them look like small dinosaurs, and some just look like crocodiles, as they kind of sweep with their big tail down the street and things it’s like then they try to harass or get some of the people, or animals, or things that are going down there.

And one of them, particularly, a smaller one, starts to kind of want to chase me as I have to go down the street to get to where I’m getting, but at this point it seems like I really am kind of fed up with some stuff like that because I seem to pick up some small little log or something and I think I chop off its horn, or parts of its tail, or something. It’s something that discourages it anyway from continuing to bug me – just because I feel like I have to get past that street.

I don’t particularly really want to hurt the animals, even though they are kind of rampaging, but you have to not have them creeping up on your back, or trying to take a bite out of you so you have to whack them.

John: That last part is kind of a way that you have become kind of indulged, or indoctrinated, by some pattern that’s ancient and prehistoric in your past, that comes up and interrupts or interferes with the unfoldment of a process.

Now the process that’s unfolding has both a top and a bottom to it. The top of it is the queen: that’s the area in which something is in a greater realization in terms of something so much more. The bottom is that which is trying to be born, or married or whatever, that’s trying to awaken. And that part that is trying to awaken is personal, so that’s like in life. That’s something in life, and the queen in something of the higher self somewhere else.

So the part that’s trying to awaken has a precociousness about it because it sees this sort of thing as something that is happening with itself, and so what it’s doing is dwelling upon that in a kind of separate motif way so that when the conditions around it do not comport with it, it gets a little peevish. The part of yourself that knows that there has to be so much more, that yields to a greater importance, doesn’t really know what that greater importance is. That’s why it’s just referred to as the queen, that it has to do something for the queen. However, that process of serving the higher self leads to the tumbling down of a way of being that is meant to go away.

And what tumbles down is all these monks that tumble down, collapse in the house, and on the other side of that is what is real. See, that breaks the spiritual illusion and everything like that. So what you’re doing is you’re playing with this dichotomy between a part of yourself that sees itself waking up, coming into knowing something and realizing something, and in that regard you can be very possessive, and protective, and peevish if it interferes with what you perceive as a process.

But then you feel inside of yourself something that is speeded up. By speeded up means that it’s traveling somewhere, meaning that it is going to a greater beingness, that being the queen, and you’re trying to reconcile the two parts. Well, the carrying on by that which is getting married is louder. You have your excuses in terms of a responsibility somewhere else to the queen. You put the two together so that neither of those occur, neither of those become a predominant loudness, and you collapse the house, you collapse all of that which is meant to be in a stillness so that there is this greater overall wholeness that is there only.

There’s no house anymore. The idea of the house had something to do with the process of working with a higher self and a lower self, working with the queen, working with the getting married, and then when all of that goes away you just have a wholeness. Everything comes tumbling down and what remains is what is real. In other words, all the monks came tumbling down, too. That’s quite a dream isn’t it?

Now that importance all happened in the first two thirds of the dream. The other one third I was almost going to say hey, it’s over, and then I started to see that’s a throwaway. And no it’s not, it wasn’t a throwaway. In the past I’m inclined to treat it like it’s a throwaway because it’s all I can do to hold onto the forces to something else that’s louder and more important, but this was very important too because what this did is it pointed out what it is that you have done, over the course of time, that tends to keep you from recognizing this part that is so obvious.

In other words, it’s like your nature going all the way back to prehistoric time has gotten caught up in having to be involved with, in terms of an effect upon you, that has caused you to be thrown off and off to one side instead of catching this schematic that is quickened. Like in the first two thirds you can easily do this step back into this other that has its peculiarities yet, because your memories are so based upon those peculiarities – even though you may not have caught up with all of those memories, because like your dream is indicating it goes way, way back like prehistoric even – it has created an indulgence of your nature, in an abstracted way from the schematic awareness, and awakening, to something so much more, reaching for the higher self, or trying to awaken through the outer to any kind of spiritual conceptualization, all the Buddhas come tumbling down.

That’s the chemistry at play, and then the layer over the top of that was this whole background that you called prehistoric even, that basically held your primary attention instead of your pristine attention. It held your primary outer attention that kept you in a particular kind of trance.

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uyy6Here we are, in this universe, on a planet that provides everything we need, and it’s easy to think that we can just use up everything and then, as some are planning, to go to the next planet and use that up. But really we are designed to give back to the universe, with the acts and intentions of our lives, if we choose to do so (that’s the reason for freedom of choice – we’re not slaves). If we do choose to give back, then there are responsibilities that need to be taken on. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Jeane: I seem to remember more of the tail end of my dream and, in this dream, at this point I think it’s you and I are living in this apartment, and it belongs to a landlady, that lives in one of the rooms up above I think. And when we’ve gone in the apartment, it’s like I suddenly notice some water coming down through a grate from up above.

And I look up above and the washing machine is going above, because I can kind of see through the grate, and some water is spraying down. And then that makes me aware that we have to be careful because there’s something in our unit where the water can go off also, and it means we also have to go over and talk to the landlady about it.

We can actually look at this grate and see what’s in part of the apartment above us. I can peer between two levels and I can see the water coming down, and see what the problem is, and I can also see that there’s probably a problem somewhere with the water in our unit, but I don’t remember specifically what that is.

So I kind of note about that because we have to go talk to the landlady about it, and we go out and, as we’re out and about and we’re planning an event, what had started out to be like a party or an event suddenly you’re turning it into a wedding. But you want it to take place at midnight, and you found someone to marry us that I think is Turkish or something, and I’m not even sure this is all legit, but suddenly I’m having to act as though it is, so I’m having to go get a dress.

And then I’m suddenly already wearing the dress, and we go into a dinner party and I think an ex-boyfriend of mine is there, some women are there. It feels like they’ve been involved in a play and it was the last night of the play, but we went over and grabbed one of them from the party because we needed them to set up some things for the wedding. And they were going around coordinating things. We had to go by the Health Department and get some test that they were going to coordinate.

I’m just still trying to figure out that this is real or not, because originally it was just going to be a party. And then I realize because I’ve been wearing the dress, now I have to clean it, so I’m trying to figure out how to get that done. And how do we coordinate all these people? But we have help from people around us. It’s just that we’re having to move pretty fast because it’s going to be the next night at midnight – and suddenly that involves to me like a lot of things that keep you busy every second, because we seem to be walking from one space to another, or from one person to another, as we handle all of this and are setting it up for the next night.

John: So what you’re doing in your dream is, as a scenario or seed thought, you’re sorting out a little bit of what happened at the dream group, in which kind of a deeper theme of the dream group was that you can get caught up in what you see, or in an indulgence, in terms of not necessarily being consumed by the general usual limitations in the outer.

And this is shown to begin with by you being able to see that something is amiss because you are actually able to peer up and realize that, coming down as if being able to peer through the levels of things, that coming down is a problem that’s going to be touching the place where you are at. The ability to do something like that comes with a price, and a consequence, and in your dream you’re shown that this causes you to have to take on a greater dynamic of things going on around you.

You know when you’re really dense and kind of really caught up in some sort of trance, amnesia, you just kind of motate about, but when all of a sudden something quickens you find yourself drawn into having to contend with things that normally you don’t have the energy for, that would stay repressed.

And so this dream is causing you to have to denote what is it that is important for you to be placing your energy so that you continue to honor the process of the waking up. In other words, the waking up is like the wedding. It’s like a marrying of a quality of your being. And now all of that invokes something so much more.

In other words, you can’t just continue to stay out of sight and pretend to be stupid yet. That only works when you actually are numb, and you have suddenly gotten to the point where you can see more. You can see things on the other side, other levels, and as a result that invokes change.

That’s kind of the theme of the dream wasn’t it? You might say last night at the dream group what was being questioned is, okay, there is this going on on the inner, but is that something… you know, let’s not forget manifestation and how one has to stay grounded here? And also let’s be sure that one doesn’t get caught up in this other, get lost in the other. That’s kind of the theme. In your case you took that and then you tweaked it from the standpoint, okay, one comes to have an awareness and ability to see on other levels, which means then that one has a responsibility in terms of how to conduct themselves. You don’t have it when you’re amnesic.

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Dreams during a single night are usually connected, weaving imagery together to portray an inner issue, which comes through as guidance for our waking life. Here John and Jeane continue discussing the dreams from the previous night (see Who Are You?). (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link, should you wish to download this recording to your computer.)

Jeane: So in my next dream I’m going to get married or I’m considering getting married, but it feels like if we’re having a ceremony the reception or whatever is being held in kind of a circular building outside, and they have valets that come and park the car.

The way that they park the car is they take it from you and then they back it up into a space in kind of a circle around the building and I’m kind of being a little fussy that they park my car near the front so that it’s easy to leave since it’s my wedding, or reception, whatever it is.

Then it feels like I’ve gone from there to this kind of small… initially it looks a little like a trailer but that has been very nicely fixed up by my husband and his family, complete with a little high chair, because I must be pregnant, and it was almost like the family was a little anxious about whether I would go through with the wedding or not.

It’s like I had to kind of feel comfortable about how the place had been decorated even though it’s a very small, very simple space with wood floors. Then when I look around I notice the space has changed and instead of just being this kind of like almost like one room very plain but very nice space with the wooden floors and everything, I now see that there are steps that go down that lead to a second area that has a couch that faces a little fireplace and it’s no longer just a trailer but it’s an apartment that I’d been renting in a building where a lot of people rented apartments that kind of ran into the next apartment.

There’s almost like some division between them, but we’re all shifting, we’re all shifting units over one, because the landlord is remodeling. My unit still looks the same but I’m looking around at what’s happening to other people around me and there were two people that were rooming together and the person that originally had the place is going to be keeping it but the other one is moving on. I will have this place but I’m still moved over one from where I used to live.

John: The dream is indicating that in order for you to make the connection, or the marriage, or whatever, to bring it through, that there’s a shift that has to happen. In other words, however it was that you had the appearance of how things are in terms of how you are in relationship to where you lived, or the house perception, so to speak, of yourself, that has shifted into something different – this other house.

So, let’s see if I can say it. You’re rejecting something that had been put together and shaped in a particular way, that for some reason bothers you now.

In other words, it’s almost as if, is it a rejection or a realization?, that you have a shift that you can make, or you can sit in something that has run some sort of test of time, in terms of its value or utility to you. If you continue to accept how that is in terms of how it’s put together, how it’s shaped, this will keep you from shifting.

So, what the dream is trying to say is that there’s an attention that you need to catch up with, that you need to place your attention upon, that you would be inclined to miss if you overly indulge in the environment that you’re in. If you tend to see the scenario of that environment as comfortable…

Well, there’s a part of you that isn’t comfortable in it, but the dream isn’t indicating that you have precisely figured out why it is that it’s not comfortable, or why it is that something is off, and you could very easily disregard what you note as off.

But, if you do, there also seems to be at hand here something that has to do with a shift. It’s as if the shift can’t happen, the shift won’t happen, if you don’t come to grips with whatever it is that’s holding something off.

The first dream [see Who Are You?] you’re going to see how that came out in terms of you’re going to let the situation decide what made the most sense, based upon the kind of return that came in.

But your first bets had no return coming in and the second sequence of bets, the next candidate seemed to create winnings. So that kind of drew you forward, but that kind of being drawn out like that led to you coming across and discovering there was something that you had lost [the purse].

In other words, your identity now is stirred up. So it’s as if the resource that you are drawing from to bet, what was the correlation of that to this purse? Did the monies come from the purse?

Jeane: I found the purse and then I took some monies out of it, some quarters or something.

John: Were you using that to bet?

Jeane: I don’t know what I was doing with it. It’s almost like because I was collecting other coins that had fallen, then when I found the purse I started just to collect coins again, then I got interested in what was in the purse and what it told me about somebody and if I could locate them.

John: So in that dream you seemed to be asking the question: why is it that you’re doing what you’re doing? In other words, something isn’t quite coming through for you, that’s what it is. Something isn’t quite coming through for you.

It’s like saying your feminine nature needs to hear a memo, and it has come to the point where you need to hear that, you need to get that memo better than what has been happening so far. It needs to come through clear for identity purposes.

And in the second dream, in terms of being able to make the shift that’s necessary at this point in time. Of course, if there’s some memo that you’re meant to get, that throws the responsibility upon me in some fashion, because I represent that masculine energy that pulls something down as a clarity that then awakens something from a hearing center that completes the loop, or the process, by which then something is energetically entwined and correlated.

But I seem to be not quite getting that memo either. If I’m not seeing it, how can it be possible for you to see it, would be my attitudinal response if I were to look at myself as having a role in relationship to your process.

We’re both being challenged in terms of something that’s there on an identity level that isn’t being recognized. Only your dream takes it one step further and indicates that this is important, that there’s something about this in which what we are caught up in is holding us back.

We need to subtly recognize whatever it is that we are caught up in, and realize that some slight letting go or whatever that is, there is a shift that’s necessary, that we’re meant to catch at this point in time.

I don’t get the sensation that it’s anything wrong because it’s more a matter of us not getting something. This is a real stretch here. What is it that we’re not getting that we’re meant to get?

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