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Yesterday, Jeane’s dream had an encounter with an alien force (see An Alien Shift). From the same night, John dreamed of visiting another world. Both dreams point to a shift in what is required of those on a spiritual journey – and an elevation of what is possible for the human to become connected with when we let go of the personal and physical tethers, and embrace the Wholeness of God and creation.

(At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: In my dream, somehow or another, I apply maybe more of the quality of feeling how this brushes the heart differently, this new shift or change or whatever it is that one contends with, so that I’m able to come and recognize this whole other level, and what it’s like.
It doesn’t seem, when you initially look at the dream, that’s what it is. But when you feel it on a heart level, in relationship to how you had contended with things, you have two choices: either to look at it in terms of something almost undermining and deceptive, which is in your case some dominant force coming in. Or you can actually shift and look at it in a greater overall, with the specifics of how that functions now.

And then you will see that it’s a new reflection that is possible to catch up with. And it’s like everyone kind of knows that there is something like that. They just don’t have any inkling about it. They don’t deal with it at all.

Like you have the teacher that you know is this force, as he describes himself. He’s like a “howling wind” or something. And he’s described a few traits about himself, like just because he doesn’t look at you doesn’t mean that he isn’t seeing you. And that there is this recognition that, in the space where he is, he can absorb, or he can relate, or he can take on certain traits of estrangement that you might be in.

I remember once in Germany I was really off and didn’t know anything about how I could change or fix any of that, and just happened to wander in and saw him sitting in this room, and he never saw me, but I turned and saw him and went out. And just that process of having stepped into that space took all of that away.

And the reason why that works is he’s able to put you in his heart, and actually this is a whole other level of awareness. This whole other level of awareness is akin, in some capacity, to an understanding that can emerge if you’re not sitting there having to deal with the shadow dynamics and the hostile forces. You can come to grips with this quality inside yourself. And, actually, he is aware of that, and that’s what he’s able to touch to cause you to suddenly shift from a denser part that has consumed you.

Yesterday I felt this denser part. I did a step back into this denser part, and realized how you can trigger, from this denser part, even phone calls and whatnot because you’ve now stepped into an energetic that feeds the universe, that invites this sort of thing to happen.

And then, at the same time, I realize that another part of me has been trying to function in this other octave, having dreams saying that the byproduct of what you do is what is alive. Not the actual thing that you do, but the byproduct of it has a life, or lives on, or flows, or touches, or is an aliveness.

And we’ve come to look at that as perhaps this is a big shift and difference because ordinarily you would tend to wonder if your effect can have something to do with connecting with the collective energy, and thereby finding a resonance where something then changes in the world.

And we’re finding that we can’t do that anymore and, as a consequence, we go to a deeper depth inside ourselves and we find that as we take and we work with characteristics and qualities in life, it’s the product outside of ourselves that’s reciprocal.

In other words, it’s the carrying, it’s the attention that we place on something, which has an aliveness. And the interesting thing about that aliveness is you live in this new aliveness. You don’t live with the collective response anymore. You live in this higher octave of a consciousness that exists as a result of you having an effect that touches things with your light, and the effect of that, the effect of that is what has become real – no longer the collective that has to be won over or something.

So that’s a dream that’s a precursor. That’s right on the threshold of this shift to what you’re describing as an alien force, and I’m recognizing it as a quality and a trait that exists in the teacher. What’s so interesting is you really then start to see what a huge dynamic this is, because if you have the audacity to toy or play with the teacher, you might actually find out that what you’re assuming to try to portray, or show them, is something they already know – and they know it, how?

They know it because they have had to put you inside their heart, and so they have to work with the dynamic of how you are. They have taken that on, and they have to work with that dynamic already. So all they have to do is sit in a subtleness, and a quietness, and they can already grasp that space.

So as they grasp that space, if you’ve taken and you’ve intruded upon something that kind of has to be contended with that way, then that means that you have to start to participate in seeing it from this aspect of things as well. For you it’s called the alien force.

In the dream, I and two or three others, so there’s three of us I believe, and we’ve traveled to this new world. We’re at a place where we’re able to creep up, or sneak up, on people who live here, who have traits that are much different.

And of course we’re sneaking up, and we’re not going to let them know that we’re sneaking up because we want to observe it, to begin with, the idea being that maybe we go back and report what we’ve seen or something. But for the time being we’re not going to make contact, we’re just going to look.

In other words, it wasn’t our idea even to stumble upon these foreigners or people of this new world, but we have. So we approach, but to keep from being detected, because we see some of them kind of coming in our direction, we hide behind a large round rock to let the natives pass by.

And I tell my two cohorts, that they need to be exceptionally quiet, because I seem to know that these natives have a perception that works differently. In other words, they can know and recognize that something’s there in this area, and so just because we think we’re hidden, and out of sight, and quiet, we’ve got to be very, very careful because somehow I have the suspicion that they can tell.

One of my friends is acting like he knows the level of hearing that is typical, and he knows how sight normally works, so he doesn’t pay any attention to me and he continues to whisper a bit, which would probably ordinarily be okay but he’s continuing to keep kind of some noise effect.

This bothers me, and ordinarily, from his perception, would be okay, but I seem to know that anything like that, even the slightest of ripples is detectible. The thing is we were the ones who thought that we were creeping up to observe, but in this dream we are the ones that are observed and don’t even know it.

What happens is, at some point, I step out with the other two from around the rock, and there in front of us is what looks like the entire nation. They’re standing there observing us even though we’re behind the rock thinking we’re hidden – and they’re all there.

They’ve been tuned in and were monitoring us in a way we hadn’t imagined as being possible. They’re so familiar and so knowledgeable of us that when I step out, one of them who’s kind of the leader of them all, because there are a cast of hundreds of them now, one of them refers to me by my name, as I walk around the rock. And he just says it in a real calm, bland, accepting manner.

In other words, there’s no tilt, there’s no edge like you would expect: okay, here’s a couple of strangers! He just acts like we’d related before or something. And that’s when I realize that they are advanced beyond my imagination. And they mean us no harm, because I could tell by the way that they talked that they’re totally accepting.

It is they that are being really totally quiet. In other words, we didn’t know the art of quietness. It’s they in their actual quietness that enables them to not disturb or awaken us. But I’d stepped out and there they are.

I am told that no one, from where I am from, even knows that they exist, meaning in this denser part of myself, can even suspect or know that they exist because you’re dealing with other things. You deal with the shadow dynamics, you’re dealing with all that stuff.

And in your case you’re dealing with that force that’s trying to take over at the beginning of your dream, so you’re not going to know that they even exist as long as your attention isn’t ready and able to take in, as you did, the aliens.

And in my case their called something from another world. I’m told then that they do not want to be revealed, and I’m kind of asked, can I stay quiet? Or will my general demeanor leak out to others from my country?

In other words if I go back, how am I going to handle what just took place? They’re kind of trusting us with this secret that they have, and can we carry it in the same silence that they are? Because you would be desecrating it; you would not be honoring it. You wouldn’t be true to this space, which has a kindness, and an understanding, and an acceptance.

In other words, it doesn’t have the normal reaction. But the dilemma I have is I know that I’m not sure if I can keep this to myself. And I figure that I have a better, closer possibility of being able to keep this to myself than these other two characters, especially the one guy that was mumbling away, not even having the sense that I did that you have to be even quieter.

So if it’s nearly too much for me, what about my colleagues? Golly, won’t they blow it? I’m impressed with the natural kindness I can see that exists with these people, that is part of the space. So I wake up, not knowing if I am up for the challenge, in order to shift to this whole way.

The meaning is, I am trying to be very coy, but my actions are louder than I realize. I don’t seem to be fooling anybody. I tried. I am just out of my mind thinking I can hide my nature and whereabouts from those I think I am observing, who shouldn’t be able to see and hear me and my colleagues.

The colleagues are just other parts of yourself. Of course, there is a part of me that is close enough to realize that this needs to be in some sort of silence and super quietness, and I suppose that little part was just enough so I could shift into this whole other level of awareness, knowing that it exists instead of just surmising about it.

And if a teacher is taking you on, he’s put you in his heart so your every mannerism is actually observed. And if you do something where they have to blink, or make note of it, just like in a shamanistic thing where it surprises them, or they have to take note of the wrinkle, they make sure that they fully take into account something. They go back and they observe through this quiet space. It brushes across the heart. They have to take everything out of the equation so that they don’t bias it in order to see what it is about.

My attempt to hide, which is our way, we are always hiding when we have some sort of motif that we’re coming from, reveals how conscious or unconscious you are, the degree to which you do that.

And these people, or this other part of myself, this greater depth, can monitor that conduct and whereabouts from a connection they have to the heart. This is a connection that one has to make, that is something that I’m seeing that I have to make, that is awakening now. And if that were to happen, that makes everything visible, visible to the quietness. In other words, you feel the undulations instead of your own racket.

So, you can say okay, let’s see if we can figure out this deep meaningful scenario? Well, we sent this dream to the teacher. And when I sent him what it is that I am trying to sort out from within, which is a type of arrogance, but the arrogance can be taken out of it if you’re to put yourself into a similarly situated quietness, aware of the subtlest mannerism.

So the challenge is can I emulate that, can I actually do that, and can I find the place inside my heart where there is this quietness that is in touch with everything that is going on? So there’s an even deeper meaningfulness aspect of the scenario, and that is, this whole process is yet another way of working with reflections, but now you’re working with reflections more towards the total quietness – or a reflection of a reflection.

In other words, you have one set of reflections like in your dream, which starts out and indicates that you’re having to work with a loud force or something, and ordinarily that’s as good as a dream gets because until you get that figured out, in terms of sorting out your higher self and your lower self, you’re not going to catch up with something that functions on a level of the higher self only, or “in God,” so to speak, quality, where you deal with what you consider aliens.

So, I’m concerned that a secret that I feel as important will leak out into a denser world. In other words, I can’t necessarily be entrusted with it, and I’m looking at this. Meanwhile, an inner space exists from which I am watched, that is wondering if I can keep this secret of secrets, the quietness that makes it all come together.

This exists in a silence where all is revealed. This simply inflects off of the heart that is interconnected. In other words, if you merge into the teacher, or accept and don’t thrash around, and accept the sameness of yourself that is placed into the heart of the teacher – you get it, you get it.

And you do the same thing: you take everything that’s happening and you put it into your heart and you then can really see what’s going on. And the degree that you’re involved in some capacity with whatever it is that’s happening around you, it is the quality of the heart resonance that is the aliveness, not the collective reflection denser stuff.

That kind of thing, whatever light it had, or clarity it had, is more in relationship of an understanding. As the teacher would call it, it belongs to the school of 10,000, instead of the esoteric school, which doesn’t have very many people because it works in a silence, and in the hiddenness, and it’s just a few.

And it’s important to know where you’re at, and if you’re in the 10,000 and now you’re sorting things out, and 10,000 might be able to make a difference to kind of manipulate or change or have an effect upon the reflection of things, but the other kind of touches it, in its silence or in its secretive secret way of being, which is the consciousness that every person, and I, am meant to reach some day.

But it’s a whole other octave because God has created creation and he’s hidden himself in that. If you are connected to that, you’re under those orders. You do that because you’re taking in what God wants. This creation is meaningful, even though it’s reflected in what ordinarily appears to be a very dense and lower way of being; all of the levels are in it.

A and so he as a teacher comes in with this other level, that is normally so foreign that very, very few recognize that it twines like that, that it actually twines through the heart of things. And I am able to know that. So as I reach that sight, I know their lives – meaning myself and everything – is simplified by an insightfulness that awakens a connection that flows from within. It awakens a connection that flows from within.

So you can see, this is what the secret of secrets is all about. That’s a whole other thing. Who really participates in that? It’s hard enough just to know that everything flows from inner into outer, and that you’re caught up spending most of your day contending with outer effects, as if that’s what’s dynamic. And then dealing with those denser reflections that way.

You have to get way beyond really knowing that it’s inner into outer, so that it’s not just a matter of words. That quietness, that is the dynamic, that makes this all linked; it’s a quietness. It’s such a super quietness, that it enables everything to brush by and touch it, and in its super quietness it has the awareness of everything.

And so one could have an inflection about what is needed in the world in some capacity, that has maybe a right focus and intention about it – but how do you work with that in relationship to the only thing that really is going on, which is the super quietness that is everything. And you have to come to grips with that, and then you go beyond the catastrophe that can be described in terms of this dense level, and that’s what it’s really all about.

It’s not the play itself, although that’s the way that you look at it and talk about it, because that’s the denseness that everyone is caught up in in greater and greater degrees of pain and suffering and confusion.

Yet behind it is that individualistic light, that is the light of the whole of everything, that can just be in the state of a quietness that presides over it all, as not only a wholeness in the feminine, that takes into account everything in its being, but also as a masculine that is touched and in tune with the secret of secrets, and what that means as an importance of the quietness. So it’s not just plop, like in the feminine. It’s also aha, the attunement, noting the attunement, honoring the attunement.
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John: In this dream I must take on a situation in which I have no chance of succeeding. Actually, it’s difficult to imagine that I can make any meaningful difference, either.

This dynamic is symbolically presented to me in the imagery of a golf game. There’s a person I must play against who is an expert golfer. He knows the ins and outs of the game, while I’m just a novice.

I agree, however, to settle an issue between us on the outcome of playing a single hole. We’re not playing the whole game, just one par four to determine a situation that’s very important to the inner and outer life.

I know going into this challenge that I’m going to have to rely upon Fate, because my opponent is too good for me to beat him by myself. He’s so confident, I can already feel him lording it over Creation.

It seems that as the game plays out, the mistakes I make have grace connected to them. I don’t know how else to explain it. When my opponent makes a slight mistake in his second shot, I’m required to hit the ball over a deep ravine (I’m playing every other ball or something strange like that).

I know if it was his shot, he would be able to clear the ravine with ease, but for me this is a problem. My shot is so pitiful that I might just as well have kicked the golf ball because it falls right into this deep ravine trap.

My opponent thinks I did this on purpose, but he’s just messing with me because normally he could get out of this predicament with ease. He steps in and hits the ball. Just like in a sand trap, he has to swing underneath it to get it up in the air. But it goes so high it flies out of sight.

As near as I can tell, it goes above a high building that seemingly should have blocked the ball’s flight. I hadn’t even noticed the building before. As a consequence, though, he can’t find the ball.

My opponent cries foul! He had done everything right, but couldn’t find the ball – he was looking for leniency. He whines so much that I offer him a three-stroke penalty that he begrudgingly accepts.

This makes it so I can now pull off what had seemed outwardly impossible – I can win the hole. However, I’m never given the chance to see how the game actually ends. What I do know is that my opponent decided that he had to change the rules of the game in order to prevail. 

When it was his turn, he hit the ball as far away from the hole as possible. Instead of playing it straight on, he shot the ball out of the game. There was no ending because the game could no longer flow.

This is a type of message dream. The imagery is showing that there is a grace that is accessible, even in the dense outer conditions of life. My mistakes are taken into account if I’m able to accept them and, in so doing, what appears to be a problem can be transformed into a flow that has Fate on its side.

Accessing this grace is part of finding, within myself, compassion, which can heal all wounds. The outer denseness is apt to choose annihilation or self-destruction, in the sense that it resists the flow of the inner and, therefore, the purposes of Creation.

This is a destruction of the need to make a shift; it prevents a shift from happening. Even though I understand this as an issue, the dream’s portrayal doesn’t reveal what ultimately transpires. Nevertheless, I feel certainty within. I carry an inner certainty as a thread. It is my belief that this thread is meant to reach wholeness between the inner and the outer.

So the dream is saying that I’m at a crossroads in the path, where I must deal with catalytic conditions. Creation has an order that must be maintained, even though it is wounded by the history of masculine energy – it’s power and control – that will resort to anything to keep from having to surrender.

The masculine energy, which needs the essence of the feminine in order to let go, sees such surrender as an unacceptable defeat to be avoided at all costs (the ball was hit out of the game). Yet I realize that the sabotaging of Creation as an option needs to change: I can’t get in the way of what wants to be properly configured.

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John: Yesterday my dream was propelled by the energy of the kundalini, which is a Sanskrit word meaning “coiled” – like a serpent. It’s an energy that is mostly dormant in all of us, and is seated in the sacrum at the base of the spine. The kundalini is an amazing energy in that it’s a result of the clash, or coming together, of an inner aspect of light. (For yesterday’s dream, see The Heat of Kundalini.)

Kundalini has to create and cause an outer aspect of light to emerge. In the masculine way, it gets snapped into existence. In the feminine way, it just is. When it is awakened, everything is perceived and appreciated as being a part of the light – it’s a divine connection.

So in this imagery, I’m shown two possibilities – I’m shown two ways that things can unfold.

One is through the personal, ego-based way of the human, where a person acts according to their best thoughts and perceptions. The second is the divine way (universal way), which has to do with being embraced and swept up in the light – in the flow.

Of course we’re not used thinking that the world works this way. We’re used to fumbling about on our own in order to bring about some change, or to rectify a situation, or to try and steer things toward an imagined outcome that we have projected. That urge (which is a very personal view of life) cuts us off from the way things are, and from the way they should unfold, naturally (universally).

So, in the first dream, I begin by having to fulfill or maintain a perception of what needs to be, in terms of where and how I need to be situated. I’m trying to fit the ideal of what I’m projecting – according to my human perception. 

In this vision, I see myself as a person named Stark. I’m standing in the shadows – I’m barely an outline – and there are scores of my replicated self, standing side by side, formed into a circle in the shadows.

That image morphs into a pulling together of the limited light, and formulates a position in which all of the various points of human consciousness are pulled together to create an end result that looks like the light array of the Las Vegas strip, but that I can feel has barriers. In other words, it’s not wide open; it’s not totally free.

It’s like I see the lights from all the hotel rooms as dots positioned in relation to a particular spot in a building. And I know that’s unacceptable, but it’s the best that I can pull it together – the best formation I can make – in relation to trying to contend with the lights emanating from the Las Vegas strip.  

It’s like I’ve recreated the lights of the strip myself, but it’s a poor imitation. There are parts still in the shadows, as though they’re protected.

So, there’s something not quite right in all of that. I mean, with all the effort I made, that was what I ended up with? There’s a sense of personal indulgence in this effort that hurts the heart.

This image is a portrayal of what will unfold based upon my current state of consciousness. Because I’m in the shadows of my true self, I’m not fully aligned. So the result of what gets portrayed is unacceptable and not how things need to be.

Simultaneous to that vision was something that also occurred as an example of the second way, the divine way, in which I just allowed myself to be in the light, to stand in the face of the light. 

In other words, I was not in the shadows, not in a multiplicity of myself, and not called Stark. I was just myself in the light, not trying to do anything other than take in the sense of the light.

It was as if the light knew how to give birth. All of a sudden the light flares out, just like you might have a solar flare or volcanic eruption. The best way I can describe it is that it seemed as if the light had a tail to it, and the tail just flickered out through the rays of the light, sparkling as the tail moved.

The end result was a whole new manifestation within the light. Something new is there now that couldn’t have been put together in the wildest imaginations of all the Starks of the world.

In the misaligned state, this instantaneous manifestation could never come about. It’s as if the light suddenly just flickered a tail, created the flare, flashed it out, and then lo and behold there was a whole new extension of lights. It was like the next phase. It was what was needed.

So this is shown to me as what’s possible when one stands in the light of self without compromising it, without limiting it to the personal view. The unfolding it portrays is a divine plan coming into manifestation, born from the light.

Because we all are the light, that’s all we are. If we surrender ourselves to the light, new manifestation becomes possible.

If we don’t surrender, we are limited to our own faculties, which can only lead to the “Stark” images – endless replication. It’s living life through a shadow consciousness that doesn’t know any better.

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