Leap of Faith

John: The next dream is similar to the previous one, and it’s also a repeat dream, but this is the first time I’ve recognized that and been able to pull it out.

I’m with a group, walking along a mountainside trail. The valley floor is far below. I come to an open area where there is a straight drop to the valley floor.

To my surprise (which causes me to reflect back at having seen this happen before), a couple of young kids in the group just walk over to the ledge and jump off. When I look over the edge, and see the great height they have fallen, I’m impressed that they are completely okay when they land.

Personally, I don’t dare jump off myself, so I hold back. When I had looked over this edge a previous time, part of me felt I might do it, but I had a twinge of fear about not surviving the leap. And just that slight fear might have prevented me from being successful.

That quality of hesitancy, of fear, might just cause me to experience the worst-case scenario of what I imagine – that it’s a drop that goes on and on and I’d crash pretty hard. It’s far more than what I see my normal capabilities to be.

My attention shifts after I watch these boys jump off the edge without hesitation. It catches me by surprise. I look behind me and I see a young girl. She has her hair up in a bun and I can see she is contemplating this challenge: two people have done it, and now she has to confront her own fear if she wants to follow along.

I tell her she needs to let her hair down because, if she jumps, it’s not going to stay like that. I then say to her, “This is priceless.” Then I see myself going down to the canyon floor below to see how this all works out. I do not want to miss out on an appreciation of the full effect. 

What makes this so exciting is that this young lady is a combination of innocence, inner beauty, and bravado all rolled into one. All of these qualities are coming together, at the same time, in an effort to confront what most people would see as impossible.

So what is the meaning here? Both dreams (see the first dream, No Limitations) are about penetrating barriers that hold a person back from experiencing all that is possible – all that is available in a given moment.

In the first dream, the heart is measuring the situation. When the heart fails to follow what it feels, then the heart contracts. When it contracts, it’s felt as a constriction of its flow. That’s when we get out-of-sorts with ourselves. We can feel the change inside us.

In the second dream, the sensation is to let go – no matter what the height of the drop, or the level of the challenge – knowing always that one is going to be okay. Because I’ve seen others do it before me.

If I do not take on this challenge, then the heart will cringe. I will fall back, and miss an important step to my well-being. The height is really a measure of my personal fear about crossing a certain threshold. It can be seen that others don’t experience this fear in the same way.

In others words, the great height is a symptom of my irrationality toward letting go, or breaking through. Inside I know I can make it, but I’m still preventing myself from achieving what is possible.

Protective Bubble

Jeane: There was something else I wanted to express about the experience here in Las Vegas, where we are working on purchasing some property, and that is that I have become aware of what I would call a “thief” energy in this environment that we need to be conscious about (for prior entries in this thread see Inner Property and Change of State).

I say that out loud as a reminder that we need to be aware of how we do things, and it began the moment we arrived here. It seems to be part of the test, so to speak.

John: Yes, that seems to be true. There is a kind of waywardness, or haphazardness, that seems to predominate, and it’s constantly on the lookout to capture the person who is in a state of unconsciousness.

It’s interesting because that thief energy, as you call it, is actually more of an abstraction or distraction from what is actually here in the desert of Nevada. There is a deep inner wonder that lies beneath all of that external noise, which is at the depth, or the essence, of Las Vegas itself.

It’s easy to not catch up with it, or appreciate that depth, or that wonder. It’s even harder for it to reveal itself if one is constantly having to deal with the peculiarities of daily life here. Yet both aspects come with the energetic territory of being here. In fact, it is the underlying energy here that makes what has become “Las Vegas” possible, on some level.

In a sense, Las Vegas challenges us to go inside and bring forth a deeper appreciation than is found on the surface of things. Las Vegas has been contaminated by this thief energy, which probably goes all the way back to how the city was formed around the businesses of gambling, sex, alcohol, etc.

A business friend of mine who loves Las Vegas would say that it has all the best business opportunities to invest in – the “Sin Tax” businesses – because there are always more people drawn into the energies of it.

And so what you’re looking at in your dreams, and what I’m looking at in mine, is that there is a note that transcends through it all, and that note is more important than anything else that might get carried along with it.

It’s an expression, on a deeper level, that one needs to reach in order to find the full appreciation of what is at play. Because what is behind all this larger-than-life energy of Las Vegas is a power that’s even greater.

There is a note. And we don’t have to go through the consequences of being in such a lower-self vibration, which could plague and disturb and unravel. We can instead hear this note that lies beyond all of that, and remember that that is what’s important, and that’s what makes Las Vegas what it is in terms of the real heartbeat.

So the challenge is to stay with the note, and not be distracted by the bizarreness that is constantly before us. And, of course, that doesn’t mean, staying away from it, it means staying within ourselves when we are in it.

Ultimately that is the test of a spiritual journey. It’s much different being spiritual in a monastery on the hill, than it is being able to carry our spirituality within us wherever we go and whatever we come across. Until it is completely in us, everything we encounter in our outer life will show us where we are weakest and where we need the most work to set ourselves free.

Slings and Arrows

John: At the start of the dream that you described yesterday (see Under Fire), you were depicting the general situation that we all find ourselves in – we are in life, we are on a journey, and everywhere there is turmoil and commotion. There’s always something going on.

We have become conditioned, numb even, to the fact that we exist each day in a type of war zone, because what unfolds around us is constantly throwing us off-balance. But if we’re lucky, we might get a glimpse, in all that commotion, that there’s something more happening than meets the eye.

The dream is showing you that you have an inner quality that is complete in itself, in terms of having a sense of the wholeness, yet that quality isn’t realized by you until you pick up the bow and arrow and recognize, basically, that “I can do this.” It reminds me of Dorothy in The Wizard of Oz, who always has the power to go home again – within her – she just has to believe in it.

And that’s what happens to you in the dream. You are, at first, just trying to survive, to not get shot, as you try to make your return. Then, once you have the means at your disposal – the bow and arrow and your colored animal stones – you’re gaining the awareness that it’s already in you.

The sporting goods store owner appears, with a weapon that is right for you, as a way to show you that you can manifest what you need because you are part of everything. And what you are shooting from your bow are like particles of light into this darkness.

The mood, the oddity, and the confusion of the imagery you describe arises because you find yourself in your feminine aspect. It’s your masculine aspect that can cause the awakening to occur: at the beginning of the dream you had a sense of a male companion, and then the store owner that helps you is a man. That masculine aspect in you is what triggers a type of knowing that lets you see that you already have everything you need to cope in this world.

I would think such a dream would leave you feeling exhilarated because the process is one where you’re resolving the problems as they crop up. So, you move through life, things crop up, and those things act as a stimulus which can trigger something to be revealed to you. You have discovered the mechanism through which life can be navigated without bewilderment.

It’s another example of how our dreams enable us to stay current with where we are, both in relation to ourselves and to the world around us. A great opening-up inside us becomes possible when we get oriented, as it is sometimes described, to traveling in a counterclockwise direction.

It is the standard, clockwise approach to life that limits us to seeing and knowing only the separation and the struggles. In the counterclockwise approach, we open up to realize that there’s something going on behind the scenes of life that is actually much greater, much more important. In taking that approach, we open ourselves to revelations that help us make sense of it all.

So this dream shows that you have an understanding of what is unfolding. Again, it is like you are shooting light into the darkness, cutting through the veils, with your bow and arrow.