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analog-dualityThis simple dream opens up a huge territory, and really takes us into the heart of what it means to commit ourselves to being in service to something greater than ourselves, i.e., the purposes of creation. And it also shows the power of freedom of choice, because in every moment we can say “no” to creation and “yes” to our personal wants and needs. This shows the depth of what it takes – a constant choosing – to keep our feet on the spiritual path – in fact, that act of constant choosing is the path itself. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Jeane: So in this next dream it’s like I’m working. I’m working somewhere like a welfare office that offers services to people of some form that they come for. There’s a major reorganization going on. And you feel like when they come down and announce this reorganization like maybe they’ve gotten rid of some of the top management even, because they want things done different to serve better – but they’re pleased with the work I’m doing. However, what I didn’t expect is they’re changing our hours, so instead of working like, let’s say, 8:00am to 5:00pm or something, we’re going to be working 10:00am to 7:00pm.

And there’s something about this, like this change in hours which means that it’s going to limit life in a little bit that you don’t go into work until 10:00am. And that makes me wonder if maybe I should go back home and be living with Dad again, because it just wasn’t quite a change that I expected. And it feels like when you work those hours you’re not going to have much of your own personal life. Anyway, that’s all.

John: That’s an interesting dilemma that everyone faces. You see this all the time, in that a person will take and maybe they’ll do something that could be considered meritorious, a breakthrough. Then there’s the idea that now they’re entitled to a reprieve, or a stepping back more into the personal.

And what happens is they’re not understanding, and it’s hard to understand this because this is not something that is mental, or something that’s logical or rational, but as you open up or are affected by conscious energy in a particular way, it’s easier to be unconscious than it is to be conscious, and so something is invigorated or pressed that rises to the fore. It’s easy, then, to think almost like you’ve done your dues or something like that, and so then you tend to step back so that you don’t have to quite be at the same acuity that’s been quickened.

And when you do that you’re trying to make personal choices, which you now feel that you’re entitled to do, or entitled to make. And everyone does it. But the danger is, is the degree to which it veils the responsibility of the clarity of understanding that has opened up when you had the conscious effect or push occur in your life.

And so, again, this is back to the theming of the contrast. Whenever something is put in your face, as a possibility or potentiality, the way you learn is you recognize how that is important as an aspect of your beingness, that you make time for, or turn your attention towards, as something that is needing to unfold, that unfolds in relationship to you understanding yourself as part of a greater whole.

So you’re presented with something like that, and then, at the same time, you always have the other option of making personal choices and choices that have to do with your idea of responsibility that kind of correspond with old patterns and mannerisms of your nature. And the reason it’s presented like that is so that you sort the two out, so that you really do make a decision, you make a choice, that’s in cohesion with what is naturally unfolding inside. But you’re always given the option and the choice.

So your dreams, you did this three different times where you took and you looked at first one side and then another, and one side and the other, and the other side you can look at can be 180-degree polarity. It could be something that you don’t even really agree with necessarily, but if you don’t look at it and you don’t recognize and put it into its proper balance and place, then nothing can happen in either direction.

The reason why it’s like this is because one direction or the other has problems. You have to include both directions. In other words, those who aspire just to become say saints and take and go into this way of being that annihilates all kinds of things that are awkward or hard in the world because they hold onto a particular mannerism that is steering themselves in a particular way – they can’t go very far, either. They can go and go and go in one particular direction, but they’re going to be hit with all kinds of mayhem and confusion in the outer, that will constantly harass and bother them, and they will actually start to look kind of sickly if they keep maintaining the one direction only as if that is the end all, be all. You have to include the polarity of things because you are in the outer, and you do have to deal with how things are all jumbled in the physical. You can’t just reject that.

And so when you take and you have a connection inside, that’s an inner connection – it’s not really talked about that much in Sufism, but you have the corresponding opposite side, too. It’s almost like things have a one-to-one correspondence, a certain trust in one direction requires a certain back step or something, or so it appears, into creation, so you can’t take and run out a schematic in one particular direction to the denial of the other.

It’s true of however you approach life. I mean, you see these various schematics from the standpoint where you would see someone who’s big in meditation and in the saintly quality, and you realize that they’re basket cases in terms of function in the outer. And then you can look at another person who’s extremely successful in the outer, but has no inner recognition of value because he’s caught up completely in the outer.

Are they really that different? If the two could come together as an integrated component you would really have something as a balanced individual, but the one that’s all caught up in power and control and very, very good at what they do on the outer and very successful in the outer, is kind of the other side of the coin from the person that’s the saintly trait that has completely let go of things but would be a basket case and would be a peculiarity in terms of the outer.

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ReachingWell, there it’s been said: we humans spend our lives trying to create our own narrow band of reality, one that collects all the bits that we enjoy and value, and that deletes or suppresses all that we would rather not deal with or be part of. Would it surprise any of us to realize it (the universe) doesn’t really work that way? To become part of it is to embrace all of it, without see-sawing emotionally. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Jeane: Then I have a dream, I’m not sure of the sequence of the next two dreams, but I think I have a dream in which I go into this building and there are some people in it that seem Middle Eastern.

Even though it’s inside a building I go into a room and what I have to do is to relate to animals. The first thing is one of the men has a really large horse that is kind of resting. You know, it’s not like standing up, it’s resting on the floor, and I have to go over and make friends with the horse. It doesn’t have a bridle on it, or anything. I go over and the horse almost has to show me how to relate to it before it stands up and everything.

And then I go over to the other side of the room and the people there have these snakes that are wound all around their bodies, and I have to let those snakes kind of come and crawl over me – and I don’t like that much. There must be six of them or so, you know like wrap around your neck and in your hair.

I really don’t like the experience, and one snake goes to bite a fly so I almost wonder if it kind of bit me, too, and so I don’t tolerate that quite as well, but it seems to be like something that I have to do.

John: The theme is to look at both sides of equations. And so when your consciousness develops you have to be able to look at the other side of the equation as well, and bring the harmony into the other side of the equation at the same time – even if it’s something that is radically different than, let’s say, the psyche of your nature. You still have to be able to see the harmony and the disharmony.

That’s kind of in keeping more with my dream than your dream, but the process is the same in that your first dream you had to look at the two options so that you don’t get black-and-white and locked into one, and get caught in something that throws an imbalance. You have to look at how both sides feel. And, in this dream, the step that is taken is that it is now pushed forward into a greater unfolding consciousness.

In other words, with the horse you’re catching up with power, and then when you catch up with power that invokes and brings in other things that normally you wouldn’t have to contend with, which is the kundalini energy, the snakes and all of that sort of stuff that crawl around and whatnot. And you now have to contend with that.

But if you didn’t bring in the power, you wouldn’t be bringing in the kundalini energy, which is an aspect of the power that causes something more to open up in relationship to what is going on in terms of how you’re unfolding. You have to unfold with both parts, and although you might want to relate to something being, say, more power, but then that comes with the territory of this other that can throw you around a bit, which is the kundalini energy.

So, in one sense then, what this dream is doing is it’s again showing degrees to going up involves the same degree of having to go down – and you have to be willing to tackle each. You can’t just segregate out, and pinpoint out, what it is that you feel, and design, and choose because if you do that then you distort yourself, and you don’t really properly let go into a wholeness, and an overallness, in which everything has to be left empty, and open, and free.

And in order to do that in life, you have to do that with yourself, and you have to do that with your consciousness as it opens up as well. You have to know how to, in other words, take in all of the components that come with the territory of however it is that you are unfolding. It’s not a cherry-picked game, you know, a wholeness involves… the word wholeness a kind of an overallness, a totality, an intertwining. And this is why there are such problems in the world is that people, left to their own cognition, they can steer their lives to where they get just what they think that they want streamlined to unfold, and then they reject whatever else there is going on – as if that somehow or another is extraneous.

The problem that comes up is that as you open up certain things come up in terms of your synaptic nature and such that may not have been in the equation of your life before. They come up automatically, and you just can’t rudely annihilate that sort of thing. So much involves a polarity, and that’s why the word grounding is so important. And an aspect of the grounding is to have to contend with all of the other kinds of variables that just naturally come through, or crop up, or enter into your way of being when you take a certain kind of step forward. It’s in both directions, so to speak.

And when you’re really talking both directions, this is actually a subject of inner and outer, too. It’s just like in the process of the breath: you can’t have just an in-breath going home, so to speak, and not have an out-breath coming back down. The equations of the breath, the in-breath and the out-breath, they are balanced in terms of each other, which is another way of saying that it all shows up in the breath, but it’s another way of saying that what unfolds is a steady pulling together of inner and outer into one.

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In this conversation between John and Ann, an archetypal dream scenario unfolds. (This recording does have some difficult passages, in terms of audio quality, but the text is provided to clarify any uncertain wording. It’s a journey worth pursuing! At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: It was another active night of dreaming. Did you dream actively too?

Ann: Well, I wrote it up here this morning because I finally was able to put my finger on it. The dream theme has been organizing. It’s like there are three parts to the organization and every night it’s been different dreams, very in depth, but organizing, and it has to do with three.

Like one night I was dreaming and organizing people into these three groups…

John: When you’re working with three you’re shifting something in. One step links to the next step links to the next step and what’s really, really unusual, that even a lot of teachers don’t notice, is that there actually is a fourth step. But mostly it’s three steps over and over again.

The first step is good for your foundation, the second step puts you into an aspect of how you correlate a motion with it, but aren’t necessarily conscious, but are unfolding nevertheless in that regard, and the third step is generally a breakthrough.

So let’s see how you did it.

Ann: Okay. In one of the first dreams I just remember that there were groups of people and I didn’t necessarily know the people, but I had to organize the people into these three groups. And so at one point I remember shifting some of the people around and moving them and thinking well no, that’s not quite right, and then finally, towards the end of that particular dream, I’d stand back and think okay, now that’s the way it should be.

John: It is said that on this path we are the designers, and what you’re doing is you’re shaping something. You’re attempting to tune in to a center of listening that knows how something is meant to be.

In other words, how it’s to be contained, or how it’s to be in the overall. That’s the general motif that you, so to speak, feel in your bones, or in other words, whenever I say that one’s feeling this so to speak in their bones, and so you go around and around to try to get it to come out or to flow or to come together, it’s like something that’s felt in the bones is like an inner vibration that is trying to live through you.

In other words, the way you live in the outer is one thing, identifying with your senses and how you perceive off of that and such. This other is like a whole other dimension that has you taking on, if one was describing it in a shamanistic way, your spot, your point in the whole. In other words, how it is that everything cycles. It’s like you being the essence and everything’s cycled around that, is perhaps another way of saying it.

That’s not quite right because everything is the wholeness. Nothing is distinguishable, but it’s how it kind of can be inclined to feel when you are trying to pull it all together.

So how does it work in the second dream?

Ann: The second dream earlier this week, I had lists of things and I had files and lists and I was trying to organize these things into these three lists. I just remember three kept coming up.

John: That trait that you’re describing is what the teacher says is the greatest problem for the feminine. The masculine is another word for it, that its greatest problem, and there are actually two things that are considered the big problem for the feminine, and you’re doing the second here. You’re not able to stop your doingness.

In other words, the feminine is a container energy, but then it can get lost in the minutia of its doingness, where it’s got this and this and this and that and that and that. So you have this central thing that is pushing you, the essence of something trying to come through that’s pushing you, and the way you’re working with it is you’re making your lists to try to pull it together, thinking that the list will pull it together.

Actually what happens is you kill the energy that way, but you make it so mundane, you make it so tight, you make it so dense that you put yourself in a mud puddle of suffering. You know, in trying to make the list work because the list format won’t work, because the list format is based upon how all of this needs to portray itself in the outer.

See, the vibration is an innerness coming in, and the list is an attempt to orchestrate that in the outer. I mean, this is the best you can do to catch up with it. I mean, you’ve done your best to try to contain the whole essence of what it is that’s in your bones so to speak, and because you’re in the outer your faculties come to bear then, and try to make lists to help it, but everything is being done in relationship to the outer, which is the reflective deadness of things.

And once in a while you get a break and something actually kind of works, and that spoils you. Because it’s kind of like maybe more by accident, because the inner is what is alive and the outer is the reflective or the dormant, and most of the time it’s on a slightly different tango. So, that’s how you are trying to work with it. Now let’s see if the third aspect shows you making the breakthrough.

Ann: Yeah, this is the last dream I had last night and so I’m kind of like sitting, I’m sitting at like a table or something, and I’m looking up at this great big screen and it’s like you know how you have documents on your computer and you have them in icons?

I had these icons and I kept moving them around and moving them around and thinking okay, I can’t quite get this but I was moving them around knowing that they were supposed to sort of be in a sequence or something, and all of a sudden it was like I moved them and I just sat there and I said, “Oh, I got it, I got it,” and then I woke up.

John: Huh. Now that would be different for the masculine than for the feminine. No wonder I created such a reaction when I was playing with this idea of the mystic versus the alchemist.

It’s the masculine needs to figure out how to be the alchemist. The feminine is naturally the alchemist. It’s the feminine that needs to figure out how to be the mystic, how to see.

That’s what you’re doing is you get to the point where aha, you see, and… I don’t know, this is so simple. I am surprised I didn’t make this correlation before, because a lot of times when I’m talking to the feminine, suddenly there’s the aha moment, the light bulb moment.

It is really pronounced with this little old lady that I talk to that’s like 70 some years old, and she’ll quibble and struggle with how it is that she perceives because she’s had a lifetime of experiences. And often times I’m just trying to get this to come through, trying to get this to come through, and all of a sudden maybe I trip through whatever the barrier is.

Usually it doesn’t work that way to try to press something through, but she’s got such a good heart that it can happen that way too. And so when it does, it’s like you just hear this huge in-breath, ahh, it’s an aha moment. She got it, and it doesn’t mean she can hold onto it. It was a very fast flash. It’s a sight. It’s a seeing.

And then the tendency is her basic nature is so slower and so she could fall back and it can veil right up again, and so I’m learning to try to figure out how to do this more smoothly because I have to jam it through. It runs counter to a person’s assimilation process.

So what was happening in your particular case was you were going at this at a pace, where first of all you are confronted with what it is that is your greater responsibility in terms of who and what you really are. That’s your first dream, where you are feeling it in the bones.

But because you’re in the outer, and not on the inner, because you’re in the physical body, you’re trying to sort this out by working with the outer characteristics, and so you are trying to rearrange that. You’re making your list. You’re thinking that this way you’ll catch up with it.

But that approach is disrespectful to the inner, because it’s the inner where the attention needs to be placed, and not in the outer. The outer is reflective of the inner. Yes, on some level you can say that the inner and the outer come together, but that’s just like light and sound are, you know, a way of looking at it they’re just at different speeds.

And in the last, you pull together the inner and the outer with your aha moment, with that flash that you got. That works that way over and over and over and over and over again. You need that inflection. You need that sight.

This is something that I pondered, and how funny I never made the association with the masculine and feminine like this before, I’ve made the association in terms of thinking, feeling, intuition, and sensation.

And I identify in myself the sensation being the imbalance, and when it’s in balance I have more of an alchemical side working. I’ve often noticed that when a woman is very subjected and holds something inside of herself as a great knowingness, that needs to be jostled through, that it’s almost like her thinking function is jumping around and when it suddenly hits and then out through the intuitional flash comes the knowing, that’s like a sight.

And that works for her. The trigger being the thinking, and in this case, the intuition being the knowingness that just comes through. And then can you hold that pace, that speed? Because the tendency is, because we live in the 99.9% world of senses, is the tendency then to go back to that world of sound, so to speak, instead of the world of light, the world where you mystically see it and get it. You mystically seeing something and getting it, causes it to come through.

The masculine being able to take what it sees and somehow or another function with it, in terms of the outer, that’s the alchemical linkage. Strictly speaking the alchemical is the feminine, but she doesn’t have the masculine. Strictly speaking the masculine is the mystical, the mystic, that doesn’t have the alchemical.

It is very interesting. What happens is you tend to have to, if you’re a woman, you have to find the masculine side of yourself, which is that light, that spark.

In other words, it is like it comes down. It’s like a seed thought or something. It comes down and it finds its correspondence on the plains of wholeness. Now, if you don’t have a greater relationship or connection with that, then you fiddle around and with your moods and mannerisms you make your checklist, and you’re caught up in your doingness.

And it ain’t gonna go very far. Well, you know… It nauseates you. I mean, you know, usually you find yourself all worn out. It should have worked. I mean, you know, you took great care in making these lists, and these lists made sense because you did hear something in the bones so to speak from which to generate the list.

Now, where one gets into trouble is it’s a little bit like the gambler, like the gambler that goes down let’s say and he gets on the slot machine and he hits the jackpot. He shouldn’t of course, statistically he’s going to lose, but once he hit this jackpot he gets to imagine he’s infallible and so he thinks he can repeat this over and over and over again, and now he’s hooked and now he’s lost.

Well, the same thing can happen when you feel something in your bones and you start to make your checklist. Sometimes something is still kind of alive yet, in the outer reflection, that does correspond a wee bit to this inner thing, and when that hits then you get to thinking that it works that way.

It was only by accident that it worked that way, that that something at the slower vibration hadn’t been left behind or something, that things had moved on or whatever, in terms of the speed of things, and so you then are inclined to indulge even more. And you’re inclined to put up barriers, hissy fit barriers to fight to make that work.

I mean, you’re right – these lists have gotta make it work. You’ve done your thing. These lists is where it’s at, and it’s only when you settle back that you can come to recognize that it’s this light bulb flash.

There are other ways of describing it too. Take for example dream interpretation. It’s almost somewhat of a list orientation, if you take a dream and try to understand it in terms of its symbolism.

However, the light of it, or the flash of it, comes from a knowingness that is on a mystical level. You just know it, and if you take and apply the symbolism, sometimes you’re right and sometimes you’re wrong.

And so what happens is most places where you have dream interpretation you have what this means and what that means kind of thing, and you have that kind of twisted perception.

It never jumps to the inner. It jumps to the outer correlation, which sometimes is okay and sometimes is not, but if you really feel it, it’s always missing something. It’s missing the overdrive. It’s missing the greater meaning. It might have a bit of a lesser meaning, and sometimes it misses that completely too, because things have passed it by. It’s dead energy, because it’s reflective.

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