Posts Tagged ‘wholeness and separation’

bridge-cosmic_bridge3In waking life we can act a part, or play a role; we can seem to be something we are not. The energy worlds don’t work like that. For us to truly embody compassion – and radiate it – we have to have genuine compassion in us. And it is the radiation of what we embody that is our true portrait in the world. That is what is meant when it is said: be the change you want to see in the world. Be it; live it; embody it. No amount of pretense can fake it, and it isn’t a part-time gig. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: So in my meditation dream I am trying to get others to understand that in making decisions there is an aliveness of all parts of myself in everything that exists. Because I am in everything that means that whatever I do affects everything around me.

So I am posing the question, in other words in the environment that I’m in, amongst those who don’t quite have this same sense, that don’t have the sense even, that I have because they’re used to doing things in an outward way that they consider has more value, and a little more democratic or something like that. And they have their values all caught up in things like that.

So I’m asking the questions, how do I vote, or make a decision in a democratic society which sees everything to be separate – when that isn’t actually so? And, of course, I’m posing this as something as if they should know this, and they don’t know this. So, consequently, I’m up against their perspective that each a person has to account just for themselves. They are just one vote; that this is what works.

Well, I realize that’s a huge barrier, maybe I can figure out how to break it down. I had taken too big of a gulp here, that everything is intertwined or whatever is kind of where I’m coming from to begin with, but I mean they’re still coming from the standpoint that everything is separate.

So how do you have a conversation? Suddenly I realize that there are instances in which a person can have two different opinions, and may have two different approaches to a subject. In which case, shouldn’t that be good for a half vote?

So I argue that maybe you don’t have to take into account all of it, but what about a half vote? In other words, can I get them to understand that they can see themselves broken up a little bit in this way where you can have kind of a divided approach? And so I point out the instances where this can happen and I cite some examples and, although this is a difficult concept to establish, because I’m able to cite a precedent for it I’m able to get this part understood.

That is the meditation dream. In my particular case, that greater wholeness or whatever is something that resonates as if it’s in my bones. In other words, I’m just not able to be just totally natural. A person who’s able to be totally natural really, really totally natural, doesn’t actually even need to meditate because, somehow or another, they’re in sync with the way the alignment of things is unfolding.

But that’s not my case. I really, really struggle to catch up and recognize that there is something triculating that I can sense in my bones, or I could sense how everything is intertwined and whatnot. And so I’m broken down into all of the piece-meals to try to get there, instead of just the natural “in it” flow.

And so I bring this kind of energetic down, that can really make one kind of crazy, and I try to get it to sort itself out in the outer. And so I struggle with the appearances from this echo space, in other words trying to get the echo space across in spite of the appearances.

So, in the dream, I am shown that although I am becoming more and more able to recognize, function, and see things more in terms of an overall aliveness in life, that this is not true for others who only have the experience of their senses to work with.

But it is becoming easier and easier for me to relate to life like that but others do not share this… in other words, this isn’t necessarily echoing in others. Others, the degree to which they’re caught up in the outer, is a flow that has them immersed with having created a whole sorting-out in relationship to their mind and their senses.

They haven’t caught up to this triculating in their bones kind of thing, nor are they living in a naturalness in which you get to a point where it just seems to evolve to where you’re helping others just out of the blue because you just caught up with the completeness that just naturally flowed that you somehow took in properly.

In this instance, for me, I’m just going to have to accept that although I may have a different perceptive awareness, that this doesn’t mean that mainstream society automatically gets the inkling of it just because that’s where I’m coming from. In other words, in order for them to get the inkling, there’s something more in the feminine that’s needed, but we don’t go there in this part of the dreaming.

So I’m surprised that the mainstream is that out of it and, just because I’m becoming more and more oriented in this regard, I guess the problem that exists is I tend to forget that there was a time when this wasn’t so. So I need to reflect, or inflect, upon those parts of myself that are still in the veil.

If I’m not able to do this, then that means I, too, could end up having to relate to life in a distorted and misaligned way, and find myself subject to being affected by others as if they are separate from me.

This can’t happen. I can’t do this. It’s gotten to the point where maybe before I would have dipped in and out of this kind of illusion, but now it’s getting harder and harder because I know that it doesn’t work that way. This is why I’m able to be in a setting of energy that is uncomfortable.

And so because I realize that it doesn’t work that way, meaning that the way everyone else has designed and placed themselves you have people who live in environments that feel comfortable to them in the environment because they made this separate distinction. You have people that belong to philosophies and religions because that’s what feels comfortable to them.

And people kind of associate with themselves in these various categories and, consequently, they remain trapped in that kind of collective attachment. But I seem to have let go of all of that where I could be okay in any kind of setting. This is what I am starting to catch up with in terms of recognizing that I’ve changed. Most people cannot.

Most people still need to work within the confines of a safe space. And they’re comfortable in their different motifs because they’re holding onto their self images as being who they are. If I did this, I would have to pick and choose what part of society I could live in. In other words, I’d have to do the same thing.

I can’t do that because I’m in everything, I’m unable to cut off these other parts of myself. I have to include them. And I’m surprised life is comprised of so many different ways of being, religions to follow, economic systems that are each deemed relevant where they’re found and not relevant somewhere else, and so on, which creates the confusion over who we are.

In other words, because I’m starting to see that I’m identifying with an aliveness that is all about, that I’m not separate from it, and I’m not effected by the differentialities that the outer has gotten into by misconstruing through reflective appearances which has then created their support systems in the physical through a sense of duality.

And as I’m finding that I’m in a wholeness, I’m also finding that only by a certain energetic presence, that I’m able to embody, am I able to uphold this truth. Otherwise, I would get caught in all of that reflectively, too. And I’m realizing that I can’t say this. My words need to come across vibrationally for this to be accepted, in other words, something behind the words, or something in my nature needs to do the communicating.

I can’t explain to someone why it is, in the collective mannerism that they’re caught in, in the particulars, because they have taken and made it all make sense in terms of the beliefs that they have, the values they have, they’ve got it all twined together. So if I try to correlate and relate that way, my words would only touch the mind and senses of how things are in the outer, and there would not be a common ground.

So in my dream I was defining the bridge that needs to be crossed, that is the only way this inflects upon a misaligned collective. And it’s the only way that you can maintain an unwavering energetic focus that comes from within. In other words, the only way that it works is you have to maintain this unwavering energetic focus that comes from within – and then it inflects upon the misaligned collective.

But if you try to speak and direct and talk to the collective about starting from the collective standpoint, you might be able to create flickers; if they don’t catch the flickers, they don’t get it, and they continue to understand in an outer capacity way.

And if I try to make it make sense to them by going to where they’re at, I then am giving up my sense of who I am because this would be approach going in the wrong direction, a direction that isn’t real.

The outer reality base is just lost in trying to make senses out of outer reflections, and I know that it’s lost, and you can’t take what is lost and work with something else from a lost way of talking about it in order to somehow or another get beyond it – because those conditions, that manner of reflection, always works with separation and you have to get beyond the veils of separation in order to touch the inner flow.

And so the sad thing is that life without the connection to the inner flow… it can’t help itself. It just formulates its own values and identities that go along with the way it paints its illusion, or its view of life.

So I may be getting more and more able to see this as strange, but others cannot get through the veil and therefore remain in the warring brother mentality of us and them.

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IMG_32Here is a dream that has Jeane confronting one of the most difficult issues in a spiritual journey: letting go of the idea that what happens in life is personal to us. Yes, it may happen to us personally, but in the end, those events don’t matter. What does matter is, how can we let go of our idea of personal identity and merge with the Wholeness of creation? (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Jeane: I just pulled out my last dream. I was pretty tired after a long drive.

In that dream it’s like there’s a man who runs his own business, and there are actually two women he’s seeing, one who’s kind of helping him in the business, but doing so from a sense of a little insecurity and trying to establish her place, maybe even get him to marry her, and there’s another woman who comes in and it feels like she’s kind of his shadow, with a similar dynamic but maybe not as much power. 

I seem to come on the scene and the other woman had been hoping the man would marry her, but I know the man and I will be married. But meanwhile it’s like at first she’s trying to keep me out some by kind of making statements like, I don’t really even understand the quarterlies – and she’s right in a way. 

I mean, I can come in and I can look at the quarterlies and stuff at some point, but there hasn’t been any reason to do that. The man wants me to come in the office and scratch his back while they’re meeting, and I think that’s presumptuous. 

I think I do it, but I’m annoyed, and I just see all of this chaos going on and how we’re relating and it feels like then I feel like have to kind of suck it up and start establishing some order there, because sometimes an old pattern would be to take a feminine like that and kick her out, but on the other hand she has worked in the business, and she’s done something, so even if I establish my place there should be a place for her, too. 

It’s just going to be a bit of work, for sure, and there are little things they’re doing to sabotage me now and then that I have to be aware of and sidestep. And then the man’s being, the masculine’s being kind of presumptuous and I have to do something about that, too, so it just feels like my dream included a lot of work.

John: Well, for some strange reason you make some sort of bigger deal than you’re supposed to, and you need to quit doing that – in terms of appearances, or a type of indulgence.

It’s almost as if you make something out of that as if it means something else, and whatever you do in terms of that, if you’re not careful, you orient your life around that, and that limits who you are, and that precludes you from being free, because then your energetic gets subordinate to the characteristics and qualities of such a nature that you are holding and projecting as a type of aliveness that will make your life meaningful.

Well, the thing of it is, is in the dream you are finding yourself nauseated by that. And it’s as if maybe you’ve spent your lifetimes doing something like this, and you now know that this sort of supporting of something, for a particular kind of well being, demeans a greater trait inside of yourself that can just come out and do something on its own for what it is.

And so you’re coming to recognize, you’re coming to look at the components of what you had always done in relationship to this other part that has its own sense, from which is emerging some sense on its own, to take on a dynamic that is who you really are, that you’ve never given yourself quite the permission to do because you have kept yourself in some sort of subjective conceptualization in terms of what would, and needed, to ultimately unfold.

And now you realize – the heck with those notions or ideas. That just keeps you in some sort of trance. And that you can take and, for a change of pace, drop all of that because of the nausea you see all around you in terms of things like that, and then it’s as if as soon as that drops away a whole other dimension, or dynamic, is able to open up in terms of how you’re able to live.

Isn’t that interesting?

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MichaelGrab-GravityGlue1In a seemingly mundane series of images, it is revealed to Jeane how reacting to things in the environment can have a destabilizing effect. Whenever we feel the external world is something we can control, or steer in a certain direction, we separate ourselves from the natural flow of life. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Jeane: My dreams last night were somewhat frustrating because it felt like everything was a pale imitation of what you would actually expect, or had happened in the past.

It would be like little vignettes, like some people might be walking my dad down the street, and maybe he needed some detox or something, but they didn’t really know how to give him a proper detox, so I would go over and intervene because it was like they always treated everybody the same.

In other words, they didn’t pay attention to what your age was, or anything else. They might just do things cookie cutter. But I’m just walking into some room and I’m thinking like, you don’t do that. You have to take into account the different circumstances. But they seem to be kind of on automatic.

I know there was one kind of interim dream there too, where I just seemed to be getting together some stuff for hors d’oeuvres for a party, and it was like cream cheese with hot sauce on it that I’m taking.

Again, it seems like something pretty mundane, and then I ‘m trying to park a car. In that same dream I think I’m trying to coordinate some things with my relatives, my niece and her daughter and my sister, I think, and we’ve all brought cars and parked them at the house. And when I go up to the parking lot there are some cars that actually belong to people at work.

There are people sometimes trying to take them like they think like they’re mine, and I’m trying to explain that, no it belongs to work, so I have to do it a certain way, treat it differently than if it was yours in a way.

They seem to have parked the cars in this parking lot near my grandmother’s house, but the way they parked them if you nudge the car a little it actually goes down the bank and down an incline backwards and into a part of the driveway and might bump another car that’s also parked there.

And so I keep kind of trying to pull the car forward and get it anchored in a way where it won’t roll down backwards and bump anything else. And it seems to have to be done just right because it’s a car that kind of folds a little on itself, or something, so I’m just trying to juggle it so these cars like fit so someone can move them, and yet they don’t roll down and hit each other.

Then there was just a third little vignette where it feels like I’m at a nightclub and the gal, Sarah Michelle Gellar who used to play Buffy, shows up and it’s like there’s also some people at the nightclub that are maybe like ghouls or, I don’t know what you would call them, the type of people she used to fight, and they’re just kind of going around trying to put on special little costumes and stuff, and she’s actually looking fairly elegant.

But it’s almost like what they want to put up against her is something again, kind of Mickey Mouse compared to what she’s done before, just changing costumes, I don’t know.

Again, all the dreams I kind of had a feeling I was looking at them like something was going on that was kind of Mickey Mouse, compared to like a past with the energy of it.

John: Well, if I hadn’t had the same sort of thing going on myself, I probably wouldn’t have had the foggiest idea what you were doing and what it means. What I recognized and realized, in terms of what was going on in my dreams, which then is the same as in your dreams, is you’re being compelled to take and look at…
In other words, it is one thing to take and live something in the outer, and go through the outer, and you go through the anxieties, and the commotions, and reactions, and attitudes, and anger, and whatever the motif may be, or you could be self-conscious, or you could have a certain rigidity in terms of how you want something to be done.

You could carry all of that forth and beat yourself up in terms of a certain outer overindulgence, and sometimes maybe the best way of seeing that you don’t have to be that way, is to kind of have dreams that just kind of look at something that you typically are always readily doing, have a dream that really is, if anything, about what you’ve just done.

And then see from that dream, how it is that in this other way of being, inside of you, the way the energy works doesn’t have to be the way you’re applying it in the outer. Or, on an even higher octave of it, that every little nuance that you have carries very direct consequential effects in the outer.

In other words, you can go along and think okay, your opinion and reaction about something is just your opinion and reaction about something in the outer, and it doesn’t really necessarily have that great of an effect.

However, you’re shown, when you have difficulty figuring out how to even drive around, in other words, park your car, how to just situate yourself, you’re shown that the slightest little things cause things to go askew.

So that’s the component that you add to your dreaming that isn’t in my dreaming, is that you are shown that your overall schematic or placement that you have in the Whole is such that to the degree to which you, number one, take and differentiate yourself from the overall.

You then have mannerisms and traits and characteristics that you contend with, segregated, which take you out of the flow, and that in feeling it in the outer, and in feeling what images look like that have the parallel on the inner, you can realize and recognize that the intensity that you are bringing to bear is unnecessary – if you are truly recognizing that it’s all just one amorphic body that you don’t need to bring all of this intensity to bear.

And then you’ve switched it to kind of like a higher octave recognition that, to the degree to which you throw energy around, or carry distractive mannerisms that affect the way you try to situate yourself, that you can’t get very well positioned, or situated, because those mannerisms that you carry or project won’t allow you to park, or be settled, because they affect things in the environment.

It’s kind of like a takeoff of the idea that at one point in time you could probably go around and carry and maintain mannerisms and traits, and it was like it didn’t necessarily mean a whole heck of a lot because you were less conscious of how the effect of all of that worked.

But now you’re being shown that you have to take responsibility for your attitudes, moods, and mannerisms – the way you park yourself  – because if you are parking yourself off with any kind of tone, or demeanor, which doesn’t let go and isn’t carefree, that there are consequences of that, that it’s still maintaining a destabilizing effect, in terms of the environment.

The purpose of dreaming things like this is to try to get you to recognize that there is a way of being, which you can see yourself as being, like in the inner, that takes out that seriousness like the instance of something with your dad in the first dream. There’s that other part that’s just doing what it’s doing, and then there’s you acting like it has got to be streamlined and done differently.

There’s a way of taking out that seriousness, and that naturally that seriousness goes out, when you come to recognize that you’re working with an overall, you’re working with a Whole. But when you think you’re dealing with separate things, and separate mannerisms, then you react at every little thing that goes askew, and so you maintain some sort of steady, imposing energetic on the equation.

Now, what happens is that if you maintain the steady energetic, is that when you do that then you keep something from being able to shift, or to change, or you keep yourself from being able to advance, or progress, consciously, because as long as that is there, that’s where your attention is.

And therefore your car that you’re parking stays in some sort of destabilized mode. It’s constantly something you have to pay attention to because the slightest little vagary difference that you carry inside of you is affecting how the car is able to be situated.

You’re having to take and you’re having to look at this because the deeper theme of it all is that in order to go to another level of being, or consciousness, you have to drop a certain way, that you still allow or give yourself permission to be, that has these tones, these moods, these attitudes, these projections, because as it shows in the final dream, you can’t even get stabilized if you carry this sort of thing.

It keeps you from being able to park or be at ease, and this other shift that’s possible, which can bring in new potentialities and possibilities requires you to be able to just settle back and be part of the Whole, to be comfortable in the Whole and not have to go around quibbling and equivocating yourself in relationship to the Whole, as if you’re somehow or another distinct or separate, or that the overallness is a little haywire.

The Wholeness is complete in and of itself – if you can just sit there and be in it. It’s you that’s off, in terms of what you still carry as some idea of differentiation, which you still maintain and, therefore, you can’t be settled, you can’t park, and therefore you can’t shift to something even more, which the overallness offers up, or carries, that you’re actually connected to and merged into.

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