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q9625-oWhen we consider the effects that different energies have upon us, we don’t always acknowledge the effect of the land we live on, whether a personal property, or the area of a country. If we live in a dry climate, and the earth is filled with minerals, or quartzes, or granite, it will attract certain types of energies. If we live in a warm and wet climate with limestone or shale in the ground, that will attract different types of energy. And we must process these energies, wherever it is we live. This is why a person may think to themselves, after living somewhere for a year or two, this place doesn’t agree with me. There are many aspects to consider when seeking a proper ecology. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Jeane: I seem to be having one recurring dream last night. All I remember about it, it’s almost like I was in two forms. And these forms were kind of round, almost like a ball, except they seem to have clothes on and things.

It’s like if they went out and absorbed energy and then they would come and they would bump into each other, and one was kind of trying to absorb whatever the other had gone out and done. Like there’s one main one that was trying to absorb what this other one had done.

But it wouldn’t quite work. They might absorb a little, but they couldn’t absorb all. And the other one would go out again and was doing something, and would come back, and then it’s like they were trying to absorb but they just couldn’t. It wasn’t happening very completely, or kind of like I thought it should. So it was like it was just a reverb that was repeating a lot as I tried to figure it out.

John: Yes, that’s the strange psychology all of a sudden to this place. It’s like the new ethers of what’s going on to have to contend with. In other words, up in Ham we were able to get so that we can operate in our own little vacuum, and in that vacuum we could ignore things around us that were going on. They may perturb us and whatnot, but we could largely ignore that.

And it got to a point where we were actually almost okay in that atmosphere, but in kind of a controlled, restrained way. What was being restrained was something that was being repressed. And what was being repressed is kind of a hidden side of ourselves that is able to function in its hiddenness, and in its mannerism, and get away with things. When it gets perturbed is when it is getting exposed, and when it is getting exposed, is when there are parts of oneself that are in a discombobulated state.

Down here, it’s almost as if immediately the theme has switched, in which these other parts of oneself have to be reacquainted, again. In other words, it’s on a different level now that this reacquaintance needs to occur.

Before this was like a sense of fresh air, when one came down here, because there was something about all of this that had gone unnoticed, for so long, that a lot of liberties were possible in terms of zooming in, or touching it, or tweaking, or playing. And that was refreshing.

But now we have kind of caught up with that. We have found it to be something in which there is no longer a hiddenness that is possible. And so the psychology that’s going on inside of yourself is you’re looking at a quality of something that isn’t quite able to get comfortable. And so you’re reverbing in that, and reverbing in that, and reverbing in that, when before you were able to get comfortable. I mean talking about before meaning when you came down into this space, maybe initially right off the bat it was nauseating and toxic. And then all of a sudden you knew how to function in this space. You learned how you could move about and be okay, or dismissed even, in terms of your presence.

But, now, something has changed, in that your presence or way of being is noticeable. But now, all of a sudden, all of the way things are here have been brought to more of the state of attention. Now the state of attention is not these outer things, it’s really the innerness inside of oneself. The outerness is a reflection only.

And so on the innerness inside yourself, you are feeling the oddity of things. You’re feeling the parts of yourself that just don’t know how to find a rest, or a peace, or a quietness, like it had before; a type of letting go that it had before. Like I say, we’re dreaming in this tremendously peculiar kind of psychological way, a type of way in which this was not a prevalence in our being before – but it is now – because we have actually taken on more of what is in the environment around us.

What is around us is no longer in its hiddenness, and we, as a hiddenness, are having to struggle to maintain the empty space: a beingness inside of ourselves that can still keep letting go, and letting go, and letting go.

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1-01The universe has been set up to proceed according to the unfolding of fundamental laws. Yet, sometimes, things get so bad that there needs to be an intervention, and that’s when we are sent a savior to put us back on track. There have been many sent here in the thousands of years, yet we still don’t really get the message or stay on point. It shows us how important we really are to Creation that it keeps trying, and it shows us how wayward we are that we still don’t get it. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)


John: In the meditation dream, I’m looking at a condition in the world that is, energetically, in a state that cannot be corrected. This is the understanding, based upon what I know at this time, from an access that I have in terms of being able to look at things, go in to things, take everything into myself. I can access a stillness and, in doing so, confirm that there is nothing that can be done.

In other words, it’s in a stillness that you can tell whether it is a stillness in the environment around you that can be reached. And I confirm this by going over the process, as I’ve come to understand the awakening process, and, in doing so, confirm the truth.

Now, by going over it it means that I look at this, and I look at that, and I look at this. I even isolate it down to the combinations that are potentialities. When you isolate something down to stuff like that, you got to be very careful because that can easily be a conceptualization towards the truth. In spite of the criteria before me, I know that this isn’t hopeless. What is required is an access to a type of pleading within that is accepted by the will of God.

Now, in order to plead to something more, in order to denote that there has to be something more, you have to have exhausted all of the possibilities, in terms of your nature; if you haven’t done that then you’re still going to trying to effectuate some sort of change. And that, then, is going to continue to perpetuate the problem. It’s going to continue to maintain the manifestation.

When you have exhausted all of that, then, and only then, can you get rid of the waywardness of kind of your co-creator quality that is wayward, that is done just with the breath, and can access something that arises and is in the stillness – which is the will of God.

Now, ordinarily, this realization would be a cause of concern. This is when I see that an exception can be made. It’s a little bit like a one-time occurrence because if the exception is made in a complete enough way, it never has to be made again. And so there are degrees in which the exception can be done. The exception could be done to where something is shifted a little bit, and then it goes on and continues as a quality of manifestation. Or the exception can be a complete obliteration of things – if that’s what it takes.

Now the reason why this whole issue is dealt with, generally things are dealt with in terms of just being towards the stillness, instead of in it. There is kind of like a design, in terms of manifestation, in preserving the manifestation, and too great of an exception could obliterate manifestation. And so generally what’s happening, as a human being accesses the stillness, they can come to a point where within that they can have a greater consequential understanding of what is unfolding in life, and can see how it is that life has gone astray.

And if it reaches a point where it can’t be fixed, then the exception can be made. And what that will be is hard to know. Because it’s a type of determination that comes from the greater will of God, who doesn’t ordinarily interfere in manifestation, and it works with the human being to impart what is needed to touch anew, which is usually with the stillness. However, where we are at today, I am able to isolate the possibilities that exist, given what is at hand, and in rendering up this as an insight that reaches to the deeper need invoke a sort of pleading for a one-time energetic to shift, or impact, the unfoldment process.

In other words, everything can be that broken, but in order to determine if it’s that broken, in order to determine if there’s any way of fixing it, you have to go deep inside to the stillness, and it’s as if there’s a different level of stillness that can work with the ushering forth of something that brings in a will. But, in going into the levels, or qualities, of a traveling in God stillness, you come up with the possibilities. And if the possibilities can be sold as not something that can work, then this something more can be done, but not until then.

So what I find to be interesting is that when the exception is made, along with it is the understanding that I’m not to expect this sort of thing as an aspect of the journey. Because when you’re journeying, you’re journeying on the breath. And, as an aspect of journeying, there is going to be something that has a built-in this, and a built-in that. But what’s interesting is when you incorporate the concept of everything that’s on the breath, it all is subject to a type of decay. So you have to get to a certain depth before something like this can shift; you have to get right into the decay. It’s not like it only goes so far, and then it’s left with a decay.

And, when it gets to that point, that’s when something is thrown out. That’s when, like, a teacher throws the student out, is the example there. But in terms of what affects the overall, that’s when something is thrown out, or affected by a connection that can take and deal with the degree to which the decay, that can’t be removed, that is always there as part of manifestation, so it can deal with that by shifting it. Every decay point has a deeper and deeper depth about it, and so it gets shifted. It can be obliterated, too, but if it is, then when you form manifestation again, you still haven’t dealt with that aspect of decay. So it’s better to just shift it.

And therefore you still have a quality of a journey, and you still have a quality of a manifestation. But the understanding of the true axis is found in terms of what this is going on in the breath, yet, of the stillness – not in the breath, per se. So it is, in a very deep down way, from the stillness that is only invoke-able when man has probed within the stillness to the point where it’s able to touch everything. And, in doing so, can portray all of the options that exist.

In this stillness, I accept this as being as good as it gets. In other words, so does everything, at this point, so does the seeing and the hearing that we access accept that, too.  And we have basically an access to the will of God, and then when it reaches us, the will of God what it sees that, again, some aspect of a quality of decay has finally gotten to the point, because there’s always that in the world in order to maintain manifestation, it’s gotten to the point that grasping the entire picture, and its essence, will require an exception, where something has to now be affected by the Divine Will. What I’m talking about is a rare occurrence. Usually, through man, there is just the stillness, that’s a mirroring process, that tweaks what needs to be done by the mirroring, without having to contend with the parameters of manifestation, per se, or creation, per se.

I guess you could say that this is what, when you take and you actually get to a point where you have caught up with everything except for that darkness, or that little step. That little step, to take that last little step requires something like a miracle, because otherwise manifestation has to remain as manifestation. This is done in terms of the deeper need that accesses a grace that occurs, that is part of the letting go to a stillness of stillness.

A stillness of stillness is when all is known, and nothingness is a certainty. Yet manifestation is an aspect that is meant to be perpetual.

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swad4If we are looking for a job, we are usually hired to fill the need of some corporate situation; i.e., we are the answer to that need. So, when we ask ourselves the question: why am I here?, we can say the same thing. We are the answer to a need of the universe at this time. We may not know exactly what that means, or entails, but, if we stay open in our lives, we will listen to the urges and feel the nudges that can take us to where we need to be – and are meant to be. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Jeane: So this is going on, with its complexities, because sometimes you don’t move all in one direction, you can go other directions. But sometimes, as I said, you don’t move or get involved at all. And then just about near the end of the day, when I think it’s time to go home, I notice my dad has gone into it looks like an agency that has a casting call for people for parts. And that’s what it feels like sometimes we’re doing is it’s like we get calls for things.

So I’m surprised to see dad do that. So I want to make sure what that agency’s like, and then I suddenly hear that that agency, if you go in there and you get a call, you don’t get to go home or anything, they just send you right off. And apparently they picked dad as one of the people, they’re going to be sending him to Japan.

Well, even though the agency maybe is closed, but I walk through the door and they seem to let me, and whoever’s ever with me, in. I guess they’ll talk to us for some parts they have, too. It gives me a second to just check in with dad. But he says he’s always wanted to revisit Japan.

But I noticed somebody that’s with that group, they kind of fall down a hill as they’re taking them down to put them on a bus or something. A few people go over to help him. I’m not sure about it, but I realize I just have to respect that if he wants to go to Japan, but I’m still interested in checking out what’s happening with the agency. So I’m staying in the waiting room to see if I get a call to check them out. Anyway, that was when I woke up.

John: So your dad in this example represents the higher self, represents an energy coming into life, that in the totality of whatever it is that is needing to wake up in life has no idea what that is, necessarily, other than the fact that he is coming into life.

So, he goes to an agency to see what what it is that is there for him, and he has his ideas about how to act out, perhaps, but when he goes into the agency none of that works out quite like he might have imagined. Because it is recognized, and he has to recognize, that he has chosen to come to the agency to be placed, in life, not according to his personal predilections, but in relationship to whatever the need might be.

Now, deep down, his needs is the agency’s need, he just doesn’t know that. And so, when he comes to the agency, the need is for him to go and awaken something in the east. In other words, to open something up so that something more can transpire.

So all of that is part of you, and you see this going on, and you have your focus and attention on things that have to do with your dad, the nobility of something that is necessary and needed in life. And so you yourself are sitting there saying, okay, my turn. In other words, you get the hint – aha – you’re looking to follow traditional things as well.

So let’s put that in relationship to three ways of acting. There are those those that come into life and try to figure out what their piece of the action is. And so they’re trying to look and see what’s going on, and how they can carve that out – uniquely for themselves – in the most personal way. In other words, they think that they’re acting on the problem before it had become a problem, that way they are able to act in the hiddenness as if they’re hiding a piece of the action, and being able to develop a personal.

And then there are those who come into life and they’re not necessarily sure what they want to do. But as they look around, and are affected by the ups and downs of things happening in manifestation, they figure out a way of acting in accordance with that. Those can be interesting and very good people, but their appeal, in terms of their attention, only goes so far. It is only something that is recognized and seen by those who have the same similitude with them, that function in life in that same regard.

Then there’s a third type that comes down into life, and this third type is purposely veiled, so that they don’t even know they’re in an amnesia. And they’re wandering around, pondering how it is that they’re supposed to be. And, as circumstances would have it, something is pent up inside of them. Something is latent.

So when they go into the agency of things they get sent, or commissioned, to do this, that, or the other only to find out that what awakens there is something that isn’t what they, deep down, find that they really kind of would have liked to have done. They just didn’t quite get it at the time that they came down. They didn’t realize that there was that importance, latent and hidden.

And so, when they act, they are acting in the midst of things that is already all askew, and all astir. They’ve come down to the agency, and instead of having their idea of how to contend with things, the overall effect of it all is already in full swing. And so they get placed where they’re neither east nor west, where they take in the beginning and the end, simultaneously, and that’s what they really wanted to do all along.

And that is what is going on in life right now, in terms of how things are shifting. That’s how the shift is occurring. And that’s why hardly anybody notices it, or sees it, because they’re inclined to work in either the first way, or the second way.

The first way is the most personal, that’s where you are carving out your piece of the action. The second way is in-between, where you’re doing your concept of spiritual things. You have your idea of why you came here, and what you’re going to do, and what you’re not going to do – and so you’re bicycling about.

And the third way is, deep down, you really don’t want any of it; you want something else. But you don’t know what it is that you want. And so that pent-up quality, then, is something that shakes, and comes in, whether you want to call it a type of longing, however you want to call it, and, as a result, what ends up opening up is something that can effectually do the work. And it is hidden, and it is protected. And when it surfaces and gets placed, it is what you really wanted to do and didn’t know it.

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