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65720Before learning about the energetic causes of things, it is easy to assume all human knowledge has been accrued through the centuries by trial and error, i.e., if you make tea with this plant, it heals you, and making tea with that plant can kill you. But that’s not the way of it. Every form of life is an energetic intelligence, and, if you connect to those intelligences, you can know, intuitively, the properties of anything. This is the way of the human design; trial and error is the method of the uninitiated. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: So, first from the meditation dream, on the inner, in other words, from my meditation dreams on the inner, on the inner side of self, and the veils of a reflective outer, in other words, I have the sense of the reflective outer, and I’m dreaming on the inner, in other words, accommodating the reflective outer, and what has happened is I’ve reached a familiarity with life’s unfoldment process.

In other words, I don’t fight it. It all makes sense to me. In other words, I come to know, for example, that even though I am veiled, and cannot directly see things, in terms of what’s really going on, I am able to know when change is occurring in life.

It is as if I see flickers of light on the other side of a door, and this causes me, little by little, to know what is afoot. These little bitty inflections, I suppose if you were to put it into kind of Sufi terms where they talk about states and stations, those would be states, being able to catch inflections from the flickers.

You go through little things, then, like little epiphanies. And it is little by little those sort of things that cause you to know, and recognize, to realize, to answer the question of what’s going on.

And then, in another dream, a bomb goes off, in a phone booth, and scatters debris from the phone book everywhere.

And the meaning of these dreams is that even though that which goes on in the outer is reflective, and not physically connected to the stillness essence behind it all, there is a way, from what is not revealed, to see what is going on in terms of the inner plane.

The process of going through life, with its veils, is to get closer to who we really are. And we notice this as possible when we are able to perceive beyond, and through, outer appearances, veils and all, the essence from which it all begins and/or arises.

So I’m on the cusp of this other that you dreamt. This dream is on the cusp of it. It’s close, but on the cusp of it. It’s talking about it, then it goes into it in the sleep dream.

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Willie Holdman

This dream begins with the image of an idyllic setting, in a meadow by a stream, but the dreamer cannot fully be in the beauty and naturalness of the moment. Yet we could also apply this to our view of the everyday: we find ourselves on a planet where everything we need is provided, and each day, each moment, is energetically different from the last, but still beautiful, and fascinating, in the experience of it. So what is all this “stuff” we have put in the way of our engagement with the natural perfection around us, personally or as a species? (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: So in my first dream, my meditation dream, I am unable to enjoy the outer flow, like everyone else, because I’m holding onto issues and this is keeping me pent up. I don’t even know what the issues are that I’m holding onto.

And so the image is: I’m kind of in a nice meadow setting, out in nature, and there is a stream, and a river, and the sun is just perfect and really nice out. And ordinarily you would look at the water and you’d say, well, it’s too cold to get in the water, but not only is everyone around me getting in the water, in other words, even though it’s a country setting and kind of quiet and peaceful, there are people and they have come to this area and they’re getting in the water.

And those that have dogs are taking the dogs in the water, and the dogs really are loving the water, too. And it’s like not only are they having a good time, but the dogs are having a good time in the water; it’s just like this whole thing has a whole redeeming process.

In this dream, those who are going in the water, and taking their dogs and everything in the water, were just letting go into a free flow. And even though I was pulled to wanting to test water myself, to see if it was too cold and whatnot, I had some sort of pent-up nature that I just couldn’t shake.

It’s not that I knew what the pent-up nature was. I couldn’t put my finger on the pent-up nature even, but it was something that had me in some sort of tiff, or a mood, or something, and holding back as if by holding back I’d eventually figure it out – but there was nothing on the horizon showing that I was figuring it out. And what was obvious is what I was missing.

And, at one particular point, I kind of let go or something a tiny bit and I threw myself in the water, clothes, shoes, and everything on, and realized, yeah, the water’s wonderful. It’s not as cold. But nope, I still had my nuances, I still had my pent-upism, and I had to come out of the water.

And so what I’m portraying is a quality of bewilderment, and you have this in the out-breath when you’re at a point where you can’t quite sort things out. You are overwhelmed by something that you aren’t able to put your finger on yet.

I’m inclined to be affected by something that is vague to me, that I’m not able to quite catch up with and properly recognize, so I’m inclined to be carrying some sort of nuance trying to find some sort of focus and attention, which, when I find it, supposedly that leads to a balance, so that I can then just appreciate things as they are. And so I’m not quite able to free flow, or let go.

The meaning I write up is that my resolve is being tested. You know, that’s kind of what the outer is all about, to see if you can get closer to something. The question is: can I let go of nuances that, like an inner resolve that I cannot reach, are keeping me from enjoying life in a free flow way? I need to break free of some sort of trance that I am in. The pent-up demeanor is blocking a connection, and I need to let go of that to free flow.

This sort of letting go, or whatever the kind of letting go is that I have to do, that would lead to a natural free flow, will not only relieve me of what I am holding onto, but it supports the free flow and naturalness that is predominating in the surrounding environment. But the natural condition, the primordial naturalness, is askew.

The reason why I’m putting this pressure upon myself, and the reason why I’m acting like this, is it’s like one is directed into the physical to sort and get closer to something. There’s a responsibility to catch up with something. And you carry around a kind of awkward bewilderment  because you’re trying to get into the outer and you can’t. In other words, you can’t quite catch up with whatever this responsibility is.

In other words, therein lies the confusion, and my condition defies the natural letting-go process to a free flow because I am not breaking free of a stigma trance I am in. Until I either let go of this pent-up condition, or catch up with it and own it, I am unable to be naturally free to enjoy the flow and wonderful setting, or conditions, that are permeating the atmosphere for all to see but me.

It’s an awkward, bewildering, condition to have to be in, where I could jump in the water and feel wonderful, but I can’t quite let myself do it because I’m still carrying some sort of nuance or mannerism. That’s painful, that’s really bizarre to have to carry that. There’s a sadness in that.

And this continues into the next dream, it’s repeated again, in that in the next dream there was a time when I was able to see what time it was on a watch. In other words, it’s like somehow or another I’ve gone distant so that, as I glance, I can’t necessarily see the watch anymore. And I can maybe make it out a little bit, but I could get it wrong. Instead of it being, say, 2 o’clock, I might read it as 3 o’clock or something. In other words, there’s a gap, or a distance, that has developed.

In other words, something has changed, like I’m further away. And so I say, in the dream, “I’ve got to be able to read the dials on a watch. So much depends upon getting that right. I can’t be guessing.” So, in the dream, others actually expect me to be able to tell the time. In fact, I’m being relied upon for that.

And so the meaning is, in the dream, over the passage of time, I have gotten ungrounded. In other words, just like I couldn’t go into the water because I couldn’t let go of something, in that sense I’m ungrounded. I’m in a bewildered state. I haven’t sorted out the thought-upon-thoughts that are compelling, that haven’t made themselves known to where they could be let go of into an empty space. That empty space can be in the out-breath to in-breath, too, and so I’m meant to know the balance and timing.

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grkriImagine, for a moment, the feeling of losing one’s balance, and then the back-and-forth gyrations we make to save ourselves from falling over. In our journey, to bring higher energies into the grounding of our everyday life is a similar, though not so automatic, process. And to ground something means to make it a part of how we think about, and how we react to, the world around us. Or, said another way, we need to override our old patterns and put new patterns in their place – so that they do, in time, become automatic to us. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: So, in the meditation dream, I’m experiencing the inner. The sense that I got of all of my dreams last night was that I just have to be more patient, but it’s not that far away. Something has shifted, and something has changed.

I’m not quite right, in terms of accessing it, but it’s something that I am able to zero in on, or have a sense of, at least a sense of what is still kind of missing or something, in terms of an equanimity or of balance, of nature, so that one flows naturally.

In other words, there’s something still askew, or overly dynamic or something, because one side is denser and the other side is more expansive, and so somehow you’ve got to create a cohesion there. There has to be a natural cohesion where they come together without being too impatient, or over-the-top, in terms of the other.

And so my sense of the dream last night, was I was seeing that it wasn’t that far apart, or that far away, that something was able to reach in a more noticed way.

And so, it starts off with the meditation dream, where I’m experiencing the inner, and it has a sense to me that it’s ungrounded, which means that it’s so much over-the-top, an expansive or something in its mannerism that I can’t quite hone it down, or, as I say what I mean by that, is this isn’t experientially in a grounded way in the outer, which means that the way I’m going to be experiencing the unfoldment is with an over-the-top overwhelming, unassimilated capacity to it.

The reason it feels unassimilatable is because I am not in sync with the inner coming into the outer. In other words, it still isn’t in sync. One seems smaller, and the other seems too ebullient or something, and as a consequence the process throws me around a bit. And when the sensation is like that, this indicates that I have not yet found a way of being natural, in the outer, with what is unfolding in the inner, which means I suffer for not being able to let go and ground the inner-into-outer flow.

I notice this as a reoccurring vibration. In other words, when I see this I realize that I’ve been dreaming this condition. Even though I might not be writing it up or something, or forgetting it, it has this whole sense it’s continually reoccurring, that I’m not quite able to put the two together in the same cadence. In other words, constantly seeing that I’m looking at all of this as if it’s too much to take in, and, as a consequence, there is a bit of a demoralizing, or almost a sense of failure, or giving up almost.

Although the initial effect is as a discombobulation for me, because I am not able to stabilize the effect, meaning I am struggling to contend with the unfoldment into the outer with an accepting and non-distressable demeanor, as this is repeated, and repeated, and repeated, suddenly there is a change, almost an excitement or something, or a shift to a sense of amazement and wonder, in other words almost as if you’re gleaning. You suddenly are on the threshold, or something.

The shift hadn’t occurred before. I had been always in an overwhelm, unable to accept and ground the process in a copacetic capacity. To not be able to catch up, and to be always in a struggling after-the-fact capacity, is a heavy strain on the heart, the heart’s need for there to be a natural flow. The shift to re-recognize that the ultimate effect is a result I can handle is something new for me. I’m not used to being in a state that is constant. Instead I’m used to being in a state in which there is the overwhelm with no end in sight.

So the meaning is, the inner coming into the outer is an energetic process I am unable yet to assimilate. By that I mean I am constantly feeling this to be a process that I can’t handle, and that the sensation effect tears away at my seeking to be in a comfortable and accepting balance.

The discombobulation has been like this as a repeat sensation for a long, long time, but a shift has occurred, and I’m able to take in a sort of acceptance, or a light of acceptance, or a quality that’s able to have a type of relief to an acceptance and flow that is like a rising up from what had been a never ending, pressurized, over-the-top overwhelm.

So what am I recognizing? I am recognizing a seed, so to speak, in which when the inner energetic is transmitted into the outer there is an effect that seeks stability. When the inner into outer is sustainable, that is when a shift anew is there. The shift anew shapes the outer. Even though it can shape something, doesn’t mean it shapes it forever, because eventually it too is subject to change and falls away.

In other words, some things can be shaped where the effect can be for a day or two, which seems to be kind of where one’s at. You have a moment of relief, and then everything goes to hell again.

Some other things can be shaped where it can be a year or two, or five years, or ten years, from the idea of the inner into the outer, and the design effect of ordering principle in life, is to be able to do something that can for a long, long, long time before it can decay, maybe hundreds of years, or a thousand years, or something.

In other words, what I’m talking about is the process of shaping the future. I’m coming into a cohesion with the inner unfoldment, and the outer ungroundedness, and I say the outer ungrounded in the sense that the outer is something that is condensed and whatnot, and yet is a physical aspect, instead of a light aspect, so it is subject to the atmosphere of things, so it means it always is in kind of a condition of exposure to a decay. And I am finding a temporal, acceptable, meeting ground, meaning some degree of relief.

But, of course, then the attention shifts to making it more long-lasting, and more long-lasting, and more long-lasting. Or, another way of saying it, is from what is copable for now will come an insightful outer unfoldment with greater and greater viable longevity.

In my meditation dream, where I am at now, is the place of being able to let go for a moment or so. I seem to be always in an overwhelm and discombobulation. What I experience is that the outer keeps tossing me curve balls, so to speak, so I have a never-ending pressure of not letting go to an inner okayness.

As I grow into a more and more aware nature, the dilemma of shaping seems to be more and more of a challenge. Again, that happens, too, because the nuances of outer discombobulation become more and more apparent, which means those parts have to be lived out. So it’s like you have to have that inner and the outer coming together as much as possible, or otherwise there is going to be disorder right around the corner all the time. So the relief I seek is of a vibrational nature in which I am suddenly able to be at ease in the intended flow, with the knowingness, vibratorally, that all is well.

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