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Rivers can carve their way through the landscape for thousands of years, creating a standard for how they flow. Yet we know that, sometimes, the rate of flow changes and the banks of the river are overwhelmed. When that happens we have flooding and collateral damage to anything that doesn’t fare well when it gets wet. But flow is flow, energetically we can experience the same results when we are energetically overwhelmed by events, or emotions. We, too, can have strategies for releasing the excess pressure and letting the flow follow its natural path. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: The meditation dream I had last night also had to do with how it is that something is able to unfold. And it has to unfold in a way that is in keeping with what’s able to come through. And what’s able to come through, what’s able to be quickened, what’s able to be recognized varies from situation to situation. 

And every situation is extremely important. It may be in a different modality, but it’s extremely important. And if there is a repudiation, or disregard, or failure to acknowledge another situation simply because maybe it’s more in a state of distress, or whatever, if you don’t let yourself go on through that in an absorptive way, and not a type of absorptive way where you’re mired down by what comes across, because that’s the danger that a teacher has is they can get mired down and then have to retreat in order to catch up to a deeper depth of themselves. You have to get so that you can be quickened, in terms of holding something somewhere else. Because if you aren’t, then you lose the inflection to it. 

And so, in my meditation dream, what happened was I was looking at the way things hit in their extremes, or their degrees, in their intensity, emotional, however it might be, whatever it might be. And that my attention, when I note something like that, is to want to pop it, to try to redirect it, orient it into a timeline of unfoldment that slices through.

However, if you try to do that outside of a proper timing, an unfoldment, in other words, if it’s not put together from inner into outer, so to speak, properly aligned, you end up creating a type of collateral damage confusion that creates a leaning, creates a dependency, and, in that, it creates a veiling of oneself in a subtle way. Because it’s almost as if one’s buying into the karma of something else. 

And, of course, that’s what the teacher does, the teacher takes on the karma of a student and then hands it back in a way that somehow or another they get it. But, to the degree to which they’re experiencing it at the time, they can’t sort through it because it’s too much. Very dangerous work, because it’s playing with Kundalini energy and everything else; that’s very dangerous work. You’re messing with things. If you’re messing with things, then you’re also messing with your guidance and your inner link inside yourself – because everything is twined together – it works hand in hand. 

So, in my meditation dream, all of a sudden I’m meant to come back. And, of course, I’m meant to hold a continuity to something, somewhere, when I come back. But, somehow or another, I’m going into a drift inside of myself. In other words, I’ve taken and I’ve gone and I’ve looked at how something is off on this elongation, or accentuation. Initially, I’ve even forgotten that. And I’m going into a type of forgetfulness, within that, or veiled from having to sit in and break that out in one fell swoop as a kind of popping through it – almost as if as I’ve done this before or something.

And so I’m not going to repeat or something strange like that. Well, whatever it was, I was letting it all fall away, which means that I was not going to remember anything. And then all of a sudden, the phone rings, rings twice, all in the head. Such a jar that it jars me wide awake. 

And so in terms of being jarred wide awake, I’m really alert; I can’t even find the vibration. If I can find the vibration, then the dream will pop back. And so I’m looking for the vibration. And then I realized, I’m not going to catch it. 

So I decide to try the thing that I saw in the Tao, I even have a word for it. I don’t even know if it’s a correct word, just a word that came to me as to what this position was: asana. It’s a yoga term of some sort. And so the idea was, I could try the asana position to try to inflect. And it was through that, laying back in kind of the asana position, which I have done before, and would find the dream get accentuated, or elongated, or switched to help me understand it or something, or even sometimes it would throw it into another depth. 

This time, it caused me to be able to remember that I was throwing away those extremes that were hidden inside and going into a bland kind of asleepness. And so in terms of pulling that out, I recognize that what we were dealing with was an unfoldment process that had to go at a particular pace. 

And that pace is determined and decided by the degree to which you hold a quality of the innerness together. And in terms of trying to grasp a particular pace, only able to go at a particular speed, because of the conditions of things, that you can function, communicate, and relate in the outer that way. Or you can hear the note, inside of yourself, of something that goes with ease, flows with ease. 

And not only does it flow with ease, but in sitting with that flow with ease it holds a state that is able to be aware as a type of witnessing. And that doesn’t have to be verbalized. You don’t shake it through by its clarity, per se, in kind of a wizened sense in the outer as if you’re going to sort through the malaise of things. 

Because what’s going on in the outer is way, way, way too big, and if, all of a sudden, you’re trying to sort something out in the outer you can quickly put yourself into a dilemma of getting weighed down by that which is in front of you. And that can lead to a type of forgetfulness. A forgetfulness to the one.

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Everything is trying to tell us something. Are we good at translating and understanding the signals that we are constantly receiving? One of the most difficult points of clarity is in being able to know if something is an inner signal telling us that we are being resistant – and, therefore, need to let go – or if it is an external signal that is merely a part of our alert notifications so we can be conscious of what is unfolding. This skill of discernment lies in our conscious practices whereby we learn to trust our systems. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: It all has to do with, like you say, trying to access or establish something, because in the meditation dream I’m trying to establish an access, within, that carries a connection that completes. 

I’m so serious in terms of trying to make this so that I carry a suspense within that pretty much holds my entire focus. Or to say this another way, it was as if I am projecting a singleness of purpose that is unwavering. 

What’s going on in this dream, it’s like it’s the combination of an inner energy and an outer action; bringing something inner through that is complete and acceptable in an outer capacity way

So what this set off to be taken on as an inner dream is the sinking, palpatory sensation in the outer flow that I am able to empath, as if there’s kind of a psychic anxiety astir. It’s an inner awareness trying to come through, and in the outer motif of things there is something astir, set astir, something jarred in some capacity. 

And whatever that is a little adamant, maybe a little wayward. And so there’s an anxiety, almost a psychic anxiety. So the question has to do with, what’s haywire about it? But is there anything necessarily haywire? Maybe it just needs to find how it is meant to align itself in relationship to an overall, and maybe it hasn’t quite yet broken through. And so there is this palpatory sensation in which there can be things yet that can still act as barriers. 

So I associate, then, the anxiety and such, the palpatory sensation, it’s as if it denotes something that I can’t put my finger on. So I associate this, since it has this anxiety to it and a sinking, palpatory sensation, not knowing what to make out of it I deem it a type of inner woundology, connected to whether I am entitled to a particular evolvement flow, or not, because the palpitations are a bit like heebie-jeebies. 

Something about to happen, or about to come through, but hasn’t yet occurred, and yet I feel that it has to, somehow or another, be dealt with, brought through into the outer, I guess. Kind of a vibratory unfoldment is being denoted, within, in terms of trying to determine how and where it is in terms of the iffy-ness of an intertwinement. It’s an iffy-ness because in the deep, deep inner there’s a stillness, and yet there is this other.

So I offset the flickerings with a confidence of my being, that holds a focus whenever I am pulled to wonder, which means that deep down, in spite of all of this other stuff going on, I have this deep inner sensation that everything is coming across, unfolding, awakening, whatever it’s doing, as if part of a design, or part of a schematic, that’s okay. And that the palpitations about this other stuff, or aspects, or qualities that are a little bit askew. 

So, in the dream, I see the establishing of an uninterrupted connection to be a sort of prime inner directive that is consuming my attention. I find myself bringing my focus to bear upon a situation in which there is an intensity, and suspense, which isn’t subsiding until an adamancy in which there is a circle-of-life connection made, or reached. 

Well, it’s almost like a bifurcation. It’s like pulling something out of thin blue air. So the intensity is an aspect of unconscious guilt, almost as if it’s bookmarked in there. I mean, why would it have the palpitations if it wasn’t a type of trying to get to something that was repressed, like a guilt, and then bring it through back into a type of manifestation – that causes us to often respond in a particular way. It’s like pent up, or something repressed, like a guilt or something you couldn’t take on. 

And this sort of thing, if it’s experienced as a kind of guilt, or as a kind of hiccup within, it’s going to have some sort of undermining effect to our focus. And maybe whatever this is, the intensity of it is the reason I’m able to give in to the intent so as to see a way that brings this all into an intertwined energetic circle – because I’m trying to form this energetic circle.

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We can see hierarchies all around us, in the way governments and corporations are structured, in the way the kingdoms of plants and animals are structured, even in the structure of planets, stars, and galaxies. In the world of energy it is the same: we have colors and frequencies at various levels. What this speaks of is that certain things are possible at, or on, certain levels; if you go down a level it’s no longer possible, and if you go up a level, something new is possible. So, if we aim our inner state at being in the stillness we are creating a ground where everything is possible. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: In my meditation dream, I went back into a dream in which I noted that there wasn’t a solution to be found. And it’s like reverberating in this thing, looking at it from all different kinds of angles. And it’s like, I think I reported it, but this time in going back and looking at it, it’s coming out with different information. 

So what I mean by “there’s no solution to be found” is that a thought no longer has a place to go. In other words, there’s no answer to be found, which means that the way things are now is not going to change no matter what one does. The way things are in the present, and where we see that going, in terms of the future, is set. In other words, that was what I was seeing, I just kept looking, looking at the vibration now, and then seeing the vibration, maybe variables could change in it in terms of other things can octave a little bit differently, but the future is set, it’s in motion, it’s not something to be tweaked, to be turned like a ship or something. 

So what I’m trying to describe is the sensation, or maybe you’d call it feeling, I don’t know what the best word is, maybe it’s a combination of both because sensation is feminine, feeling is masculine, of noticing within that the vibration now is in a predetermined mode such that if the clock of time were to be fast-forwarded, the vibratory presence that one notes now is going to be there as well. 

The out-breath and Mother Time are correlated, the thoughts coming in, and the collective consciousness, it’s as if they have caught up with each other, or collided. And, in doing so, there’s a certain kind of mirroring going on – that is for those that can see it. The collective has things bouncing around, but people kind of should know that, where can it go? In terms of the thoughts coming in you have the same sense: where does it go? 

So when it gets like that it is as if time has stopped because no meaningful difference is possible in terms of the hour. The only way I know how to say this is that it is just the same old, same old for all to see. The sensation we feel about the same old, same old, or feeling, or however you want to call it, is not going to change this year, or next year, because what is going on now will be going on then, vibratorially speaking. Nothing is going to mannneristically shift. 

Well, the nature of things and the appearance will shift, but the vibration is set. The die is cast. That which is set in motion has gone beyond, and if you use the word “tipping point” as if something could still be re-regulated or steered in some capacity, we’ve gone beyond that. We’ve gone beyond where that can be done to avert an unfoldment we all know is coming whenever we let ourselves feel the vibratory overallness. It is as if time has been killed in that there is no thought solution to what is coming. 

Any thought we have now will still be feeling the same collective overall condition tomorrow. It is as if time has been tripped to proceed as it is set in motion to do so, and that anything I see or know now will be there tomorrow and the next day. I say that because I can look now to tomorrow and the next day, etc, so to speak, and note the sensation that is present now is the sensation I note then – which means that no matter what we do the unfoldment will continue. There is no waxing and waning where things go this way and then they go that way and come back; just a steady waning.

So change is afoot. Oneness is coming in. The transmission of the out-breath, in which there is a this and that unfoldment, in which something anew restores, is not visible. The out-breath which carries the seed of change into manifestation, to affect time anew, has nothing new to offer. This is what I mean when I say time has been killed.

The heart is able to access a deep inner touching at the interval of the out-breath and the in-breath, and hold that note as a prayerful holding of consistency therein. This is half of the oneness; this is where time stops. The other half, the spaciousness of the in-breath, must drop its ideas of a doingness this way or that because there’s nothing to be accomplished or accommodated. Time has stopped in terms of the out-breath, and that, of course, was pointed out earlier, so how can you accommodate something when time has been stopped? 

Spaciousness has nowhere to go for now because the orientation to spaciousness points to rest. Rest is the stillness point where the in-breath and out-breath interval exists.

It’s easier for me to notice time and how the feeling that there is no time, no other time, and how the feeling now is the same feeling for the future. I see no change in that. Of course, outer conditions will have a different appearance, but the storyline will not be changing. The feeling in the storyline is set. On the in-breath there is nothing, therefore, because it’s set and there is no time effect moving or changing or altering anything. When you look at the in-breath, there is nothing anew to be taken in, accommodationally, that will make any difference. 

With time stopped at the outbreath interval, there is a stillness. And in terms of what there is to accommodate in terms of the in-breath, this flip side has nothing new under the sun to take in for accommodation purposes – so it must rest. In other words, it’d be unnatural if it doesn’t rest. You can’t just keep struggling because then that’s refusing to accept that the commotion of time and shifting has stopped. 

The in-breath rests at the point where the in-breath turns to the out-breath. So a conundrum exists: creation cycles with the breath. There is only room for the stillness. The stillness is at the beginning, which is the in-breath, and at the end, which is the out-breath, that is, the intervals.

The journey in-between is no longer in flux such that an unfoldment upon the breath to shift what is going on is possible. The images can change as the current and eddies ebb and flow, even though the ebb and flow, on a vibratory feeling and sensation level, has nowhere to go. Life is flatlining at best, spiraling downward at worst. To get used to this as oneness, and what that means, remains to be seen.

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